Hello all. So this is my new story. I know some of you are still waiting for me to update Loving You. I'm going to be very honest and say it will be a while. I have sadly lost my inspiration for the story, however I will not leave the story like that! I will finish it! Anyway onto this story, the idea just came to me. I have the next few chapters planned and I am hoping to update every week, that may change from time to time. If you have ANY questions, feel free to ask! Anyway hope you enjoy!

Little Bit of Background Info.

Haley left to go on tour with Chris in season two. 5 years later and she returns. Jake and Peyton are together, jenny lives with Nicki at the moment. Lucas and Brooke have been going out since the beginning of college. None of the Peyton/Lucas/Brooke love triangle happened. Lucas took Haley's leaving very hard and therefore started to turn on her. He has a lot of anger towards her. Nathan and Rachel got together in the past year.

1

She sat alone; the soft wind blew strands of her honey blonde hair around her face. She shivered slightly. I knew I should have brought a jacket. As she sat looking out at the ocean the tears began to fall. It started as one small tear escaped her right eye. She quickly brushed it away with her hand however it was soon replaced with many more. Eventually she gave up on trying to stop them fall. They cascaded down her cheeks as she finally let herself go and her emotions took over. All the pain and regret. Everything she couldn't take back. Everything she wished would've happened, should've happened took control of her mind and body and it was too much to keep in. after what seemed like hours but was only a matter of minutes she managed to compose herself. She took deep breaths and wiped away the remaining traces of her tears. Once she thought she looked halfway decent she made her way back to her car. Although she didn't plan on seeing anyone she knew if she still looked a mess she would feel like one too. Once in the car, she decided it was best to take the long way back to her hotel to avoid any more almost run ins with people she didn't particularly want to talk to and also to avoid anymore 'surprises'. She had only been in tree hill for the best part of 5 hours and she was already wondering if it was a mistake coming back. Her mind once again travelled back to the events that led her to the beach only an hour ago.

"Hales! You want room service?" Neil walked out the bathroom after not receiving an answer. He walked over to Haley who was sitting on her bed staring at the wall. He snapped his fingers infront of her eyes to try and get her attention. "Haleyyyyyyyyy"

Finally Haley snapped out of her daze.

"Oh sorry Neil, I was just dreaming. What did you want?"

"You want something off of the room service menu? I was thinking mac n cheese" he nudged Haley teasingly.

"Eh do you know what, you go ahead. I'm going to take a drive. I know a place I can get something."

"Okay, do you want me to come?"

"Nah I think I need to be alone right now." With that Haley quickly left the hotel room only stopping to grab her cell, keys and purse.

As Haley drove the familiar streets of tree hill memories flooded her. She passed the park where she would play as a little girl, the river court where she would hang with Lucas and the other guys, then finally her desired destination. Karen's café. She had hoped it wouldn't be too busy; she didn't want to talk to anyone. She just wanted to check that Karen was okay and see how much things had changed. She parked the car round the corner from Karen's and started to walk towards the café. She stopped just outside and looked in. the sight she saw broke Haley's heart.

A table full of people were laughing and talking. They all wore bright smiles and looked like they were so close they would could never be separated. Haley knew better. She knew these people as her former friends. She used to be part of that tight knit group, most of the tie she was the one that held it all together. But many things had changed. Haley looked closer through the window and started to analyse the scene before her. Her long time, childhood friend Lucas was sitting next to Brooke. A bright bubbly girl Haley had become friends with. They had become very close but that all changed. Then there was Peyton who was sitting on the lap of Jake. She knew they loved each other and had found out that after high school Jake had moved to tree hill and go to college nearby with Peyton. Next to them she saw some of her childhood friend's mouth and skills. Both looked more muscular and grown up but every other thing looked the same. Who she saw next was what broke her heart the most. Nathan Scott her ex-husband, her first and only love and the man that broke her heart. He was sitting in the booth laughing with the rest of the group. A red head that was showing way too much cleavage for Haley's taste was on his lap laughing with him. She was stroking his arm and he was playing with her hair. Then he pulled her in for a kiss. At this moment Haley had to look away.

It was at this moment that Haley felt her heart racing and knew what was going to happen next if she didn't calm herself down. After the incident panic attacks happened often to Haley and normally she had Neil there to help her, but now she had no one and after witnessing what she saw in the café she felt more alone than ever. She ran to her car and started driving to the one place she hoped would make her feel better.

When she entered the hotel room Neil was sprawled on the couch drinking a beer and watching the TV.

"Don't you have your own room?" Haley plopped down on the seat next to him and sighed.

"I do but I got bored and thought I would wait for you to come back. Did you get something to eat?"

"Nah change of plans."

"Great cause I just ordered ice cream and cake. Had a feeling you might need some, being back here and all"

"Do you think this is the right thing? Coming back?"

"It's not like you had a choice. You weren't safe in New York anymore. And Angela's here. You know the deal. Plus maybe you could try it again. Find inspiration?"

"No. I can't. I haven't since I left here and I'm not ready to start. I just need some time to figure things out again. I know that it's going to be hard and I'm going to have to face the past at some point but I just needed to know I did the right thing. I just hope this place can save me."

"It will Haley, just give it time" he and Haley embraced in a hug before settling down to watch the film.