Get off of me. Leave me alone. Someone…someone help me please. No…don't touch me you bastard. Why can't I move my arms? I've got to fight him. I'm so tired. I'm trying to move them…but I can't. Move damn you. Hit him. Smack him.
Groin…knee his groin. You learned this in that safety class.
Stop…stop! Jane…Jane please! Help me Jane!
Jane? Jane is that you. Thank God. Thank God. Thank God.
Jane? Jane where are you? Where did you go?
"Jane!" Maura called out. She looked left and right. She rubbed her eyes. Her head pounded. She felt like she had a hangover. "Where am I?" she asked no one. She slowly stood up. She looked around the beach area and saw Jane nowhere.
"Maura," Jane said softly. She approached slowly. "You okay?"
"Yeah…my head really hurts." Maura touched the side of her head. "I feel awful."
"You were drugged," Jane said. "Your pupils were fully dilated. Plus you took a blow to the head."
"That would explain the searing pain." Maura said closing her eyes. "Are you okay?" she asked approaching Jane. Jane pulled her into her arms for a hug.
"Thank God," Maura said. She suddenly tenses up.
"What is it?" Jane asked.
"Where is he? What happened?" Maura asked looking around. "He has a gun…"
"I know," Jane said nodding. "Look Maura…he's gone. He won't hurt you or me again."
"How do you know? He could come back and…"
"Maura…he won't be coming back." Jane shook her head. "He can't hurt you."
"Yeah," Jane nodded.
"You….you killed him." Maura asked softly.
"Hell ya I killed him," Jane nodded.
Maura reached out and touched the side of her face. "You saved me?"
"I…I didn't have a choice."
"It's okay…" Maura said.
"Are you okay?" Jane asked touching Maura. Maura nodded. "He was touching you Maura…hurting you… I couldn't let him get away with that." Jane lowered her eyes for a moment then looked back up into Maura's own. "No one hurts you Maura. No one."
"Come on," Maura said leading Jane into the plane. The girls lay down side by side. The night fell and for the first time in two days they slept peaceful next to one another. Forehead touching forehead, and arms wrapped protectively around the other.
"Six weeks Vincent. Six weeks and my baby is still out there. Still missing."
"Angela…we're doing everything we can," Vincent said holding her hand.
'Watching the sky and the moon we both lie under miles and miles between us. It makes me wonder, are you watching the sky too?'
Jane sat on the rock and watched Maura swimming in the lake below. She had no memory of the events form the past week and the attack on her. Jane was thankful for that on some level. The only good thing that came from the drug he has slipped in her drink.
"You coming in?"
"Yeah," Jane smiled. When Maura was unconscious, Jane had finally gotten her period. There was a weight lifted off her shoulders. She slowly stood up and walked to the rocks edge. She smiled at Maura who splashed water up to her.
"I won't bite," Maura smiled.
'You fly in circles around the dark side of your soul. While I'm flying in this airplane with no sense of control. Black sky wraps around us like skin it keeps us whole. And are you watching the sky too?'
Jane yelled and jumped in feet first laughing in mid air. "Woo!"
Maura burst out laughing when she saw Jane's face as she came up through the water. "Hi," she smiled and swam near her friend. "How's it going?"
"Good," Maura smiled. She appreciated the ease she felt with Jane near. What once frightened her didn't scare her as much anymore. "You?"
"Better now," Jane smiled. She disappeared under the water and came up in front of Maura's face. "Your bruising looks so much better."
'Big hotel island in a small town they send me flowers for my room. But tonight I'll drink their wind, tonight I'm going to have a good time.'
Jane looked back up locked eyes with Maura. She took a deep breath and let it out. "You okay?" Maura asked tilting her head.
Jane nodded. She inched her head forward slowly as she brought her hand up to Maura's face. Little by little she softly brought her lips to Maura. Maura didn't pull back. She just closed her eyes and let Jane lead. The kiss deepened slowly and steadily. Maura felt Jane's tongue touch her lips to deepen the kiss even more. Jane smiled when she heard the soft moan escape Maura's lips. She pulled away slowly. Both women's eyes still closed.
"I'm hungry…How about…we go back and get dinner ready?
'Hanging on the telephone as if it were my friend, craving some of that sweetness on the other end. I'll lay under the stars tonight instead of sleep, pretend, that you are watching the sky too.'
Jane slowly left the swimming hole leaving Maura confused, excited, and more curious than ever before.
Maura sat silently watching Jane cook their dinner. She kept going back and forth between Jane's hands, her shoulders, and her face. She closed her eyes a few times, remembering the soft kiss Jane had left on her lips mere hours ago.
"Jane," Maura said softly.
"I think we need to talk," Maura said moving closer to her friend.
"Okay, sure. What's on your mind?"
"Well to be honest…it's not what's on my mind that I'm curious about. It's what's on your mind."
"What do you mean?" Jane laughed.
"I mean…you kissed me."
"Well…what does that mean?"
"Can't a kiss just be a kiss?" Jane asked smiling trying desperately to avoid the topic without making it look like she was avoiding the topic.
"No…not when it's you and me."
"What's that suppose to mean?" Jane asked looking at Maura
"It means…given our history and current position, a kiss is not just a kiss. It never will be." Maura said wondering why she got the distinct feeling Jane was trying to avoid this.
"Okay," Jane said confused. "So what about it?"
"Why did you kiss me?"
"Cause I wanted to. It felt like the right thing to do," Jane answered honestly as she flipped the fish on its other side.
"The right thing to do?" Maura said slight pain in her voice. "What does that mean?"
"Maura why are you making a big deal out of this? It wasn't anything…come on. Let's just enjoy dinner. Can't we forget it happened?" Jane asked hopeful.
Maura just watched Jane for a moment before standing up and shaking her head.
"Where are you going?" Jane asked as Maura began to walk away.
"Away…before I say something I regret," Maura said clearly angry.
"I'm not hungry," Maura said as she walked away.
"Maura," Jane said watching her friend disappear behind the plane. "It meant something," she said softly knowing full well Maura would not hear her.
'So many words for the broken heart. It's hard to see in a crimson love. So hard to breath, walk with me and maybe…'
Maura stood at the shoreline and watched the waves crash down and run up on the sand. It seemed like an endless struggle and yet at the same time it brought some peace of mind for Maura. She looked down at the sand as it bubbled with the salt water.
'Night of life so soon become wild and free. I can feel the sun. Your every wish will be done, they tell me. Show me the meaning of being lonely. Is this the feeling I need to want me. Tell me why I can't be there where you are. There's something missing in my heart.'
How it was Maura wondered that she could be so close to Jane and still feel like the woman she loved more than life held back even now from her. She knew Jane felt something. She knew Jane was struggling. Yet, even now, she sent mixed signals to Maura. It wasn't fair and Maura knew it. Jane seemed to not mind playing with her emotions and Maura wouldn't stand for it anymore.
'Life goes on as it never ends. Eyes of Rizzoli observe the trend, they never say forever gazing for me. Beauty roams though an endless love. There's no control are you with me now? Your every wish will be done, they tell me. Show me the meaning of being lonely.'
Jane picked at the fish. God, why couldn't she just be honest and open with Maura. After everything they'd been through these last weeks. There was something still even now that held her back, prevented her from fully opening up. Maura was being so patients so understanding. That was one of the many things that made Jane love Maura all the more. She wiped a stray tear. She loved Maura. With all her heart.
"The situation is just so complicated," Jane said softly.
"It doesn't have to be," Maura said moving in from behind Jane.
"Maura," Jane said as Maura approached Jane from behind and wrapped her arms around her waist.
"Shhh," Maura said softly. "No talking." Maura leaned her head forward and softly kissed Jane's neck. Jane tilted her head to the side, allowing more access. Just being held by Maura was more emotional and more meaningful then anything Jane had experienced in her life.
'There's no where to run. I have no place to go. Surrender my heart body and soul. How can it be your asking me to feel the things you never show?'
Jane turned and faced Maura. "I love you so much," she whispered as Maura leaned up and kissed Jane slowly and softly. There was no rush. There weren't any rules. And finally both women knew this is exactly where they belonged.