A/N: Hey all! This is going to be the first chapter in a series of songfics that I will be doing centered around Tony and Ziva a.k.a Tiva! To those of you who are reading This Is Home, don't worry, I'll be updating that as soon as I can, this idea just hit me and I had to run with it. I've got about 18 more songs line up after this one, but if any of you have any suggestions and/or requests for songs you would like to see used let me know and I'd be happy to write them. Thanks, hope you enjoy this first songfic!

And So It Goes

Billy Joel

In every heart there is a room

A sanctuary safe and strong

To heal the wounds from lover's past

Until a new one comes along

No survivors. The Damocles, the ship that had been carrying the only meaningful thing in his life, had sunk. She had gone down with it, and how she died, if it was quick, slow, painful, or painless, he would never know. His heart was broken-no, broken didn't even begin to describe the pain that had overtaken his heart. No, his heart…his heart was shattered.

I spoke to you in cautious tones

You answered me with no pretense

And still I feel I've said too much

My silence is my self-defense

"You loved him."

"Guess I'll never know."

The question, his actions, everything, had largely overstepped a boundary. A line he had drawn in the sand concerning Michael Rivkin and his involvement with his partner had been crossed. He broke her heart by killing Rivkin, even though deep down she knew, like he had for some time, that he was only playing her. Rivkin had never been in love with her, the relationship had been her father's idea from the start. He had never loved her like Tony now realized he always had.

And every time I've held a rose

It seems I only felt the thorns

And so it goes and so it goes

And so will you soon, I suppose

Ziva stared at the dirty cell wall that stood fifteen feet away from her. Her eyes were blank, showing as much emotion as a wooden chair, but inside her heart and mind were tangled in a web of conflicting emotions. She had been a fool to think that Tony's actions were anything but justified, that he was only trying to protect her from getting hurt. But all she had seen was her partner, her friend, killing the man that she thought one day she could love.

But now as she sat, dirty, tired, and completely alone, she knew she'd made a mistake that would cost her, her life. Tony would never know that she loved him. If he found out about her capture, torture, and death she didn't expect him to care. She knew that he would move on and forget about her, she wanted him to.

But if my silence made you leave

Than that would be my worst mistake

So I will share this room with you

And you can have this heart to break

"Couldn't live without ya…I guess."

Tony answered her question truthfully when she pressured him for the real reason he had come. And though he'd come seeking revenge for her death originally, he would give his life to see her here, living, breathing, right in front of him.

"I did not ask for anyone to put themselves in harm's way for me. I do not deserve it."

Her words hit him like a ton of bricks, breaking his heart all over again. He needed her to understand how much her life was worth, how much she deserved saving. They had come planning to get captured so that they could kill Saleem and avenge Ziva's death. If things went South Tony had been more than prepared to give his life, to die in her honor, because she was worth it. Ziva had always been worth dying for.

And this is why my eyes are closed

It's just as well for all I've seen

And so it goes and so it goes

And you're the only one who knows

She sat against the headboard of the hotel bed in the room she was occupying until she could find a permanent place to live. She closed her eyes, trying to picture a calm, peaceful, worry free place in her mind. This time it took a whole thirty seconds before images of her torture in Somalia were pushed back to the forefront of her mind. No one could understand the pain she'd been through, except maybe Tony. She didn't know how long he'd been at the camp, but when she pictured him sitting across from her in that cell, she would guess he was there at least a week. A week didn't seem like that long, but it was enough time to do some considerable damage.

So I would choose to be with you

That's if the choice were mine to make

But you can make decisions too

And you can have this heart to break

Tony knocked on the door of the room Ziva was staying in. He'd found out her whereabouts from McGee and after going back and forth for hours he'd finally given in and sought her out. He waited patiently, hoping she wasn't already asleep and when he finally heard the door unlock he let out a small sigh of relief.

She invited him in and he noted that she did not look like she had yet to get a wink of sleep. Tony took a seat on the bed that was still made while she turned on the lamp in between the two beds and sat opposite him. He fiddled with the comforter for a while, making small talk until she pressed him for the reason he was there.

Tony ran a hand through his hair, making it stick up in several places. "I love you."

He'd whispered the declaration so quietly she didn't hear him, "What?"

His green eyes locked onto her brown ones, "I love you Ziva." He paused and when she didn't reply he continued, "I didn't realize just how much until you were gone; until my actions drove you away."

Ziva leaned forward, her hand reached up to cup his face, "We were both selfish and acted without thinking about the consequences that would follow."

He laid his hand over hers, "You are right, but what happened to you, Zi that wasn't a consequence, that was pure evil. I would die before I ever let anything like that happen to you again." Tony paused leaning closer to her face. "And if you'll have me, I'd like to spend the rest of my life with you so I can make good on that promise."

Ziva closed the gap between their lips and molded her lips firmly over his, sharing a kiss filled with love and feelings that had been hidden for far too long.

When she pulled back, a small smile adorned her face and the sight was beautiful, "I love you Tony." She whispered the words just loud enough for him to hear.

"I love you too Zi. I'm not sure if you'll ever know how much."

And so it goes and so it goes

And you're the only one who knows.