It had been four days since Faith had undergone the Glenn. She had had a blood transfusion, she had been intubated, and she had been on so many medications, which left her out of it most of the time, but she was still doing decently well. Things could have been much worse.
Still, her moms were exhausted. They had been by her side the whole time, only leaving the Pediatric Intensive Care Unit for short periods of time, usually to go get food, to go to the bathroom, to call Sofia, or to keep the grandparents – who hadn't made the trip this time – updated. It had been a very long for days.
Arizona's phone rang, waking her up. She and Callie must have fallen asleep early, because none of the late shift's nurses were around yet. After four days, they were willing to sleep whenever they got the chance, even if it was still only nine o'clock.
She kissed the baby before leaving the room so that she could talk without disturbing Callie or Faith.
"Hi, Mom," she answered.
"How are you holding up?" she asked.
"Faith's doing well. Her circulation is improving, her B.P.'s been…not great, but alright, she's only had a few arrhythmias today, so Brady might be getting them under control…"
"Good," she said. "Are you sure you don't want us to come? I know she won't be discharged for about a month yet, but your father and I would stay as long as it –"
"We'd still be exhausted," Arizona yawned. "You'd be here, but we wouldn't be able to leave her. Not yet. It wouldn't really give us a break, and Sofia's with Mark, so she's taken care of. Mom, we don't want to have you two or Calliope's dad uprooting your lives when nothing can change. You were here before, but that was also to meet her after she was born."
"We're not saying we don't want you here," she said. "Just…it's hard and there's no point in it being hard for all of us. Calliope and I have each other. We're going to be okay."
"Good," she said. "Give my grandbabies kisses for me."
"I will," she promised. "Faith had her eyes open for quite awhile today. Maybe for ten or fifteen minutes at a time, but she opened them a few different times."
"She's yet to become alert enough to discover that she's intubated, which is actually good. We don't want her getting too worked up about it, because her stats'll –"
"But at the same time, I can't wait to see her breathing on her own," she said. "The most I can do is kiss her and rub her hands and feet. We want to be able to hold her. She's in pain, but we can't do much for her."
"She knows you're there," Grandma said.
"I know," she replied. She saw her wife wake up back in the room. "Mom, Calliope just woke up. I should go."
"Okay, bye. I love you."
"I love you, too. Bye."
Arizona came back into the room to see that Faith was also awake now. The sedatives may have kept her pretty out of it, but they could tell that she still was in some pain. There was fear in her eyes where there was supposed to be joy.
"Hey, Beautiful," Arizona smiled. "Grandma called to check on you. I told her 'Faith's doing pretty good right now!'"
Callie gave the baby a kiss. "You're such a brave girl," she told her. "We're so proud of you."
Arizona kissed Faith's little hand. "That's a kiss from Grandma. She told me to give you and Sister kisses. We'll have to save Sister's, right?"
"Yeah," Callie said. "She asks about you, though. When we called to say goodnight earlier, she wanted to know if you were sleepin'."
"You were," Arizona replied. "You do lots of sleeping, right?"
Tears began to well up in Faith's eyes. "We know," Callie said, kissing her again. "This is scary, huh? We know. We're right here. It's going to be okay."
Alex came in to check on everyone's favourite little patient. He was supposed to be heading home, but he always stopped by to check on Faith just one more time before his shifts came to an end.
"You're lookin' around, huh?" he asked. "There's nothing very exciting to see in here, is there?"
"Now that you're awake a bit more, maybe we should bring you some of your musical light-up toys to see when you wake up," Callie said. "What do you think?"
"You're still lookin' good, Faith," Alex told her after he did a quick exam. "Decent stats, no signs of infection…"
"Pain control is a bit of an issue."
"I know," he said. "But she's got so many drugs on board already that…"
"At this point, we should just be thankful that she's not constantly awake to feel it as much," Callie said. "Which sounds terrible, but…"
"It's the truth," Alex said.
As expected, Faith dozed off shortly after that. Her moms took advantage of this time and slept some more themselves. Nurses were coming in throughout the night to check on Faith, so they didn't get any uninterrupted rest anymore.
"Callie," she heard some time later when she awoke again.
She realized that Lexie was standing beside her chair. It wasn't uncommon for her and Mark to come see Faith and bring the moms some coffee in the mornings, but this seemed like a different type of visit. They had never woken them up.
"What?" Callie asked, startled. "What's wrong?"
Lexie handed her a coffee. "It's Sofia. She's okay. Mark's got her at home, so don't worry."
"But what?" she asked. "What time is it? Why isn't she at pre-?"
"She's been having nightmares," Lexie said. "Every night since the night of Faith's surgery. She hadn't been wanting to tell us about them and we didn't force her to. We'd just get her settled and she'd go back to bed. But last night she refused. She slept in our bed with us because she didn't want to go back to her own room, and she finally told us her bad dreams are about Faith. She wouldn't say what happens in them, but they obviously freaked her out."
"Mark thinks coming for a little visit might help," she said. "For her to see that Faith's still here and that the doctors are helping her get better. If you don't think that's best then we won't bring her, but…"
"It's just…what if that makes it worse? What if seeing Faith like this just makes her nightmares even more scary?"
"We know," Lexie said. "We were talking about it all night. It's a risk. I'm sorry to wake you up like this, but –"
"No," she replied, taking a sip of the coffee. "Thank you. We needed to know this." She decided to get Arizona's opinion. "Arizona, wake up."
"What?" Arizona asked as her eyes opened. "What's going on?"
"Sofia's been having nightmares about Faith," her wife explained. "Mark and Lexie think she needs to see her, but what if that makes them worse?"
"She's seen her in here before," Arizona reasoned. "We weren't planning on letting her see her while she's intubated, but they have a point. If we try to explain what she'll see before she sees it, that should take some of the fear out of it. And she can see that Faith came out of surgery okay and all of that. Honestly, she's been kept away, so she may not believe us."
"I hate that our five-year-old even has to consider that," Callie said.
"Yeah," Lexie nodded. "Mark and I have been trying, but she just…she wants everything back to normal."
"We all do."
"Bring her later today," Arizona decided. "Just…try to prepare her as much as possible."
"I'll tell Mark," she said. "He stayed home with her because she barely slept, so hopefully they'll get some sleep and then come."
"Is there a time that's best for Faith?"
"How was her night?"
"Good," she smiled.
Mark and Sofia arrived around two o'clock that afternoon. Even though he had tried to explain to her what it was that she would see, their daughter still seemed nervous. She was saying that she wanted to visit, but she didn't seem to know what to do.
Before washing her hands with her, Mark knelt down in front of her, to let her know that she didn't have to do anything she didn't want to here.
"If you want, you can just visit with Madre and Mommy," he said. "I'll sit with Faith so that she has company, but if you'd rather just spend some time with your moms, that's okay too. Faith will understand."
"I wanna see Faith, Daddy," she said.
"Okay then," he nodded. "Let's go see her."
"She still got a tube in her froat?" she asked.
"Yep, the tube is still in her throat," he answered as he helped her wash up. "We talked about that. Can you tell me why she has that tube?"
"To help her breathe," she said.
"Why she can't breathe?"
"She's still working on getting better," he simply answered. "But until she can, that tube helps her. They won't take it out until she's ready, okay? The doctors know when."
"So she can breathe good."
"Yep," he nodded. "And what else will there be in there?"
"Those beepy machines," she said. "I 'member those."
"What do they do?"
"Tell how Faith is."
"Do they hurt her?"
This little talk seemed to reinforce everything for her. Once they were done washing their hands and getting their gowns on, Sofia confidently walked into the room.
"Well, look who it is," Arizona smiled.
Faith had just woken up, as if she knew that her sister would like to see her as alert as possible.
"Sofia and Mark came, Faith!"
"I bringed you stuff, Faith," Sofia smiled.
On their way to the hospital, Sofia had mentioned that if she were in the hospital, she would want some new toys. Mark texted Callie to ask if there was anything Faith would enjoy. Once he had an answer, he took Sofia to the store where they picked out a fuzzy pink and white blanket and a new musical toy with lights that Faith could look at when she was awake.
Callie picked Sofia up and gave her a kiss on the cheek. "I've missed you, Big Girl."
"I know," she said.
"We're happy to see you," she added.
"Daddy said I didn't gotta go to school today 'cause I was too sleepy."
"Sometimes it's okay to take a day off," Arizona said. "Did you rest?"
"And watch movies," she nodded.
"Good," Callie said. "Faith rested today, too."
"It does," Madre nodded. "Do you want to show her her presents?"
Sofia went over and gave Faith the things she had picked out. Mommy helped lay the blanket over top of the tiny girl and Sofia showed her how the new toy worked. It played five different children's songs, and the big sister had to show the baby each one. Luckily, Faith stayed awake just long enough.
"Now she thinks it's sleep time 'cause those were sleepy songs," Sofia decided.
"You can still hold her hand," Arizona said. "She'll like that."
She looked up at Callie, as if she wasn't sure.
"Go ahead," Callie nodded. "It won't hurt her."
Sofia held the little one's hand.
"Are you glad we came to visit?" Mark asked.
"Yeah," she said. "When does Faith go home?"
"Not for awhile," Callie explained.
"I'll come visit lots, 'kay?"
Arizona smiled. Faith may have been the one recovering, but this visit was good for everyone. Their girls got to see each other and they got these few minutes as a family. In a way, this visit had provided the healing that everyone needed. There was still a long road ahead, but this was great.