I was enchanted to meet you
Chapter 8: Enchanted
They didn't talk anymore.
Not when they were both in the same city. Not when they passed each other at award shows.
It hurt Selena more than Demi. Mostly, because Demi wasn't Demi. She could hardly even be called a person anymore. Selena tried her best to move on, dated Nick again, dated Taylor. She tried with several people, but nothing came close.
The only good that came out of Selena's escapade was Taylor Swift. The tall, smart, endearing, beautiful blonde was the closest thing Selena had to Demi. They connected instantly. Not on the intimate level that she had with Demi, only because Selena would never go down that route again. She'd never become too close to her best friend. Too close is what ruined it all in the first place.
If she was honest, it probably could have even happened with Taylor, too. They had the chemistry, the connection. Taylor was a genius, she had that same intensity about music that Selena found so endearing in Demi. Selena adored her, and Taylor loved Selena more than anything. They clicked.
She told Taylor about Demi on a Tuesday night after they caught a movie together. They'd ran into Joe and Demi on a date. The two were holding hands and when they passed, Demi and Selena made eye contact that burned a hole through her. She knew, looking into her eyes that it wasn't Demi anymore. Demi would never be with him, not the real Demi. Taylor obviously had a past with Joe, one that Selena wasn't particularly fond of. When Selena became distant and Taylor saw her subtly wiping away a tear, she knew something was up.
They got into Taylor's car and she just calmly stared at Selena until she was ready to talk.
"I just miss her Tay, that's all."
Taylor reached over and brushed away a stray tear, her hand resting on Selena's cheek. "I know, sweetie. I know. I've been there. It's tough losing touch with a best friend."
Selena chucked at that. She actually laughed.
"You don't understand," she whispered, looking out into the streets.
"Then make me understand."
Selena shook her head, looking down at her nails. Taylor gently grabbed her cheek and turned her face toward her. "Sel, you can trust me. I'm not going anywhere."
And Selena did. She trusted her with the biggest secret she'd ever kept.
"It started when we were young. Way too young to even realize what was happening," she started and Taylor grabbed her hand, showing her support. "We were just kids, you know? We fell in love. We fell in love because we didn't know any better. I didn't know any better. She had her problems, and I was there for her. We just fit together. It was like that was how it was supposed to be, and I never questioned it. I just fell, harder than I even knew was possible." She was already crying, holding Taylor's hand harder.
"We never labeled it, what we were. We just went with it, she was mine and I was hers. I never even considered anything else. She was it for me. We got into the business together and that's when it started to fall apart. Her problems took over, and she would turn into a completely different person sometimes. She'd cheat, shut me out, blame me for everything."
She choked out the last words and then stopped competely to just cry.
"Shhh.." Taylor whispered as she rubbed her back.
Selena swallowed the lump in her throat and continued, grabbing Taylor's hand even harder. "Last year she got really messed up during filming. It was bad. Nick called me and I dropped everything to go to her, to make sure she was okay. And when I got there, she was just- gone. It all ended after that. We stopped talking completely. I didn't know who that girl was Tay, I don't even know who I just saw in there." She sobbed as Taylor gathered her into her arms, completely crawling over the middle console.
She whispered soothing words into Selena's ear, cradling her head in her arms and running her hands through her hair.
Selena choked out, "I held on for so long and she just kept pushing me away."
The broken sob that escaped her broke Taylor's heart.