No Return. One-Shot.

I told you, I told you... I repeated myself - I made it clear, why did you have to try and prove you're worth... Why didn't you listen to me? You never listened to me, look at you now... Damnit, Nate!... I told you... I told you not to approach him... You went ahead and made a scene, I know you were proud... I could see you smiling, you were so brave... and stupid...I know you wanted to show me that you were useful, better than what I made you out to be; I only pushed you away for these reasons, so that... what happened, would never happen... I tried my best, I tried to shut you out, keep you away from the hell that I live day in and day out. You just... couldn't listen. Now, I'm kneeling over you, My left hand grasping yours as you loosen your grip... Drifted away... From me... From Ma... you can't ask me to deal with this Nate, Not now... Please, wake up and tell me you're joking... How dare you tell me you're scared when I don't know what to do, I can't fight the demons for you anymore, Nate... Damnit, Why did you do this? Why are you making me deal with losing you!... I protected you all your life until I left, how is this any different!... Nate!... You... have no idea what I'm feeling right now, you idiot!... Why did you have to be the soldier... I'm the soldier, not you!... all you had to do was keep an eye on him!... I'm Sorry Nate, I'm so sorry... I tried my best to keep you away... I know I hurt you, made you feel pathetic and weak.. I'm sorry... All these years, it worked... This time, you just had to be noble and ruin everything... How do you think Ma will react? she'll hate me. She expects me to protect you, like I always have... and I failed. I failed you, I failed Ma... Why did you do it, Nate? Just... Tell me, Why...

Cowering over you, your blood drenching and staining my hands and arms...I'm actually shaking, out of shock. Am I really here right now? looking down at you. Your eyes sealed shut, a single tear had fallen from your eyes... You can't expect me to live without you, do you? Did you think it was OK? to be harmed or punished for your actions? What is wrong with you, Nate!... I don't know if I'm filled with sorrow or I'm covered in nothing but anger towards you right now, You didn't listen, you didn't think any of it through... If you wanted to be the one who captured Anson, then so be it, Nate!.. you won! you got him, Brother. You did it, you caught the man that ruined my life... Is it a thank you that you're searching for? Damnit, Nate!... You didn't have to risk your life to keep mine from falling...I hate you right now, you're leaving me here in nothing but a pool of your blood... You'd expect me to just get up and be fine, I never showed my emotions around you. Never did; well here you go, Nate. I hope you're happy because I'm screaming at you, with tears falling from my eyes. I hope you're happy... because, I sure as hell am not, I will find the son of a bitch that shot Anson and had you go down with him; You can bet on it, I promise you I'll find them and I will make sure they pay for taking my little brother away from me...Now, I have to take care of Ma, and deal with her nonsense by myself now... Thanks, Nate... I already Miss you, you idiot...

Author's Note:

Crap little Drabble. Nothing special nor emotional at all. just a simple drabble. I really wasn't sure why I was writing nor how I wanted it to go; I pretty much lost all concern and energy for it as soon as I started lol!.