A/N:Okay sorry for the late update I got discouraged by a review and wasn't sure if I should continue this fic or not. But thanks to everyone else who followed, reviewed and favorite I am going to continue after all. Please enjoy and if you don't like it don't read it!

I want to heal,
I want to feel,
What I thought was never real
I want to let go of the pain I felt so long

I want to heal,
I want to feel,
Like I'm close to something real
I want to find something I've wanted all along
Somewhere I belong

Chapter four

"You think you're what?"

"I said I think I'm pregnant. Male angels can get pregnant, even the angels who are banished."

Dean sat down on the couch. This was a whole lot to take in.

"You're serious? You're pregnant with that, that monsters kid?" Dean said angrily.

Castiel couldn't hold it in any longer and a sob escaped him. It all just hit him like a ton of bricks.

"I don't know! I- I'm sorry! I keep messing everything up!"

Castiel tried to walk out the door but was stopped when Dean grabbed his arm.

"Let me go." Castiel had no fight left in his voice.

"No. We are going to figure it out and we are going to figure it out together, okay? Now come on, let's go sit down."

Castiel was still sobbing and Dean didn't know what to do except to hold him.

"I don't know if I can do this."

"Cas there are other options than just keeping it. Besides you may not even be pregnant."

"What type of options?"

"Well there is always abortion, that is where they destroy the embryo."

Castiel's eyes went wide. "You mean kill my baby? I can't do that!"

"Okay calm down. I thought you would say that, so there is another option called adoption. Another family can take the baby and raise it as their own."

"That does sound nice, but I am not sure if I will be able to give him or her up."

"I understand that you need some time to think. Don't worry you still have another nine months if there is even a baby to worry about."

"How do we know if I am pregnant?"

"Well normally a woman would take a pregnancy test but I am not too sure that it would work for a man, so maybe we can go to Dr. Honeycutt for an ultrasound. Don't worry it won't hurt you or the baby."

"When is it possible for us to go?"

"Let me give him a call and we will see if we can drive down there."

Dean called Dr. Honeycutt and got the okay to go ahead and come in.

"Dr. Honeycutt was just as surprised as I was." Dean chuckled a little bit as he pictured the surprised look on the doctor's face. "We can go right now. Sam, I need to tell you something!" Dean yelled and Sam came down the stairs.

"Yeah Dean?"

"Sam this is going to be hard to take in but Cas might be pregnant."

Sam laughed. "Dean that's not possible."

"It is for angels."

Sam realized Dean was right. "Okay so what are we going to do?" Sam sat down. He couldn't believe this was possible.

"Cas and I are going to go get an ultrasound and see if he is. And if he is, we are going to decide what to do from there."

"Alright well good luck."

"Thank you Samuel."

They arrived at the hospital a little while later.

"Castiel we are going to see if you are pregnant or not. This is going to be cold."

Dr. Honeycutt put the device over Castiel's stomach and soon they heard a noise.

"What is that sound?"

"That is they baby's heartbeat. You are pregnant Castiel. I'm sorry."

"This can not be happening to me." Castiel whispered.

"Thanks doc. We are going to go ahead and go home." Dean said.

Soon they were in the Impala and heading back to Bobby's house.

"Sam, Bobby, we're home!"

Sam came down the stairs quickly, nearly falling down several times.

"What'd they say?"

"Cas is pregnant."

"This is some crazy stuff boy. I don't see how it's even possible."

"I know Bobby, but he is going to need all the support he can get right now."

Bobby went to the fridge and handed a beer to Sam and Dean. Castiel looked at him, confused.

"You don't get one you idjit, it's bad for the baby." Bobby said, taking a sip of his beer.

Castiel sighed. "I am going to keep my baby. Children are innocent and this child does not know that they were not supposed to be conceived this way. Children are gifts of God. I want him or her."

"Well that's your choice Cas. All of us will be there for you."

Castiel smiled.

"Thank you."

"No problem. Now come on we got to go get some things from the store."

"Like what?"

"Sam, exactly what are we going to need this early?" Dean asked.

"Well all you are really going to need is some prenatal vitamins. Oh and Cas, you are going to need to eat more healthy, in other words, no more burgers. And one last thing. Dean you need to get him some saltine crackers for morning sickness."

"Thank you Dr. Sam! Come on Cas, let's go to the store."


As they walked down the medicine aisle, they found the prenatal vitamin.

"How many brands are there?"

"Which one is best for the baby?"

"Let's go with this one."

Dean suggested one made by the brand nature made. Castiel grabbed the bottle and looked at it closely.

"I like it."

"Great now let's get out of here."

As they checked out, the cashier looked at them funny.

"It's for my sister."

The clerk nodded.

Castiel was about to say something but Dean put a hand over his mouth.

The cashier handed them the bag and they quickly left.

"If you ever try to say that you are pregnant again, I will put you in Bobby's panic room. Dean whispered harshly.

Castiel's bottom lip began to quiver and his eyes began to water.

"No Cas don't cry! We'll go back inside and get you a candy okay?"

Cas smiled.

"Stupid mood swings."