"Jane?" Maura asked as they were driving on their way to Maura's house.
"Will you tell your mother about us tonight?"
Jane didn't answer right away. It wasn't that she didn't want Angela to know about them, how they had figured it out, how happy they were and would be for the future. She was not afraid of her family knowing about the two of them. Rather, it was that part of her wanted to enjoy this happiness she had found with Maura without disruption. Not forever but for a little while. Jane had a fear that Angela would overwhelm them the minute she was told. Jane wanted time to experience all of what being with Maura would bring to her life without anything or anyone getting in the way.
"Jane?" Maura said snapping Jane out of her train of thought. "Are you going to tell Angela tonight?"
"I…" she tried to find a way to explain her hesitation to Maura. She was feeling incredibly selfish for not wanting to share this part of Maura with anyone yet. "Would you be upset with me if I wanted to wait?"
Maura was a bit surprised at the question but answered, "I'll support whatever you want to do and I won't be upset with you. She's your mother Jane. We'll handle her any way you want."
Jane loved the fact that they were in fact a 'we' now. But she was also concerned that not telling her mother right away would disappoint Maura. She didn't want to disappoint her not this soon anyway. She wanted Maura to understand. "Maura, I don't want you to be disappointed in me."
"What is going on in that head of yours?" she asked with concern resonating in her tone and she placed her hand on Jane's shoulder.
"Too much," Jane admitted.
Jane sighed and realized she wanted to look at Maura as she tried to explain herself. She pulled the car over to the side of the road and placed it in park. She then turned towards Maura so she could look into the eyes of the woman she was sure she loved.
"I don't want to share you, us, with anyone yet. It's completely selfish I know and I feel bad about even thinking that, but I do. I mean, Maura, last night was the happiest night of my life." She felt a catch in her throat when she saw Maura's look go from concern to happiness. She continued. "If we walk into your house and announce to my mother that we are together I will have had less than 24 hours to savor every moment of last night. Every touch, every kiss, every moan, all of it. I just don't want to share us yet."
Maura took both Jane's hands in hers. "Last night was wonderful for me too, Jane. Every minute of last night was better than the one before it. Waking up in your arms this morning was the single best moment of my life. So I know exactly how you feel about not wanting to share that with anyone yet. I do understand and I could never be disappointed in you for wanting to protect a piece of us that was so perfect. We can tell your family when you are ready."
"I just don't want you to think it's because I don't want them to know about us. I do. I want them all to know just how happy you make me. But, Maura, my family is loud and overwhelming. They will completely take over us as soon as they learn we are an us. Especially my mother. She won't go more than two minutes before we are listening to her about weddings and grand children. They mean well, they do. I love them for it. But they can't help themselves. And I want you all to myself at least for a little while. Does that make me an awful person?"
Maura leaned into Jane and kissed her. Confident and strong, the kiss lingered for a few minutes. "I couldn't possibly love an awful person. And I love you. So you have your answer. Now, let's go have dinner with your family."
Jane kissed Maura one more time and put the car in drive. She felt truly blessed that where they were going they were going together.
A/N Short but sweet (I hope) ending for this story. I never expected the response to this story that I received. Thank you all for the responses, feedback, patience, follows, favoriting and your general consideration. I will continue the saga I've started here in a sequel. Be on the lookout for "Discovery" sometime next week. I have a few real-life obligations to attend to but will be back in updating (probably daily still as you have no idea the amount of airplane and airport time I have in my life) fashion next week. Had I known the response I was going to get for this story I would have written and posted sooner. Thank you all!