AN: Oh my gosh, I am insanely sorry to keep all of y'all waiting for this :( man I feel horrible! But I have no excuse besides being kinda depressed (stupid relationships!) BUT I'm back. And I love all of you! Thanks to all of y'all who're still reading this despite me not updating for like way more than a month. I kinda hate myself right now for not writing this!
OKAY Enjoy this!
Waking is not a wonderful feeling. It's like you realize "Damn, all my dreams were fake." And you kinda just want to go back to sleep. Now this would be the case for me, if I was at home in my own bed cursing the time that school starts. But that's not the case. The case right now is that I'm not in my room and there isn't school (it's a Sunday, I think). I'm also wrapped up in a very warm, very comfortable body. I like to call her Rosalie, because well, it is Rosalie Hale we're talking about. No, I swear I didn't kill someone and am now sleeping on them. That's gross. This is a live person we're talking about. The person who's in my dreams and reality. Funny how that works. What if I was just in a dream the whole time? I feel like that would suck, because what if there wasn't a Rosalie? Or worse, what if Rosalie hated me. Ugh, I should just stop thinking about it.
I feel her stir, and maybe that's my fault that she's waking up. Did I change position? No, I'm pretty sure I'm laying the same way I was five minutes ago. Maybe she can feel when I wake up. Woah, that would be cool. That would mean we have a connection. WOAH, that means I have a connection with someone. This is like the coolest thing ever!
"Good morning, babe." She mumbles into my hair. I just love the way she calls me babe. It's just like a spark in me. Could I, Bella Swan, be falling for this blonde beauty? I don't know. Love is such a strange thing that I don't even know what feels like. Does it feel like this? Because I would really want it to feel like this. But what if this is just me feeling lonely and it really isn't love I'm feeling, it's just me wanting some comfort from another human being.
"Bells? Are you okay?" Oh, oops, it seems like I got stuck in my head again. It seems like I do that a lot now a days. I blame it on Rosalie.
I look up into her bright blue eyes and I smile at her. If this isn't love, then what is this butterfly feeling in my stomach every time I look into her eyes? What am I looking for? Attention from someone who can give it to me?
"Yeah," I reply. "I'm perfectly fine. Don't worry so much." Cause we all know Rosalie is a worrier. Or maybe she's a warrior considering she is taking the risk of being with me. Me, the person who is nobody and who doesn't have any friends. Does it make sense that I'm going out with the most beautiful girl at school? No. So how will everyone else take it that we're dating?
"I don't believe you, but I'll let it slip, for now."
And that's basically how the rest of the week went. We'd go sightseeing, kiss a bit in the hotel room and sleep together at night. Like actually sleep, not the whole "uh uh uh, yeah BAAABYYYY " kinda thing, cause I am so not ready for that. I mean, getting into Rosalie's pants would be awesome and all, but, come on, I'm a virgin. There ain't no way I'm going to trade my V-card in a hotel room. That's so freshman year, like for homecoming. That is the only way it's okay to lose your V-card in a hotel room; if it's homecoming or prom, but anything other than that is not okay.
Anyway, yeah, we're making our way back home. So like, a ferry ride back home and three more hours driving. With Roslie. Alone. Hmm, I wonder how this time will be different than the last time we drove this far.
A sweet, ringing voice breaks my thoughts of how different this feels from just a week ago. "Did you have fun?" I look over at her and I'm pretty sure "duh" is written all over my face. She just smirks and says "good." And it is good, because I'm pretty sure she had a good time too. I mean … JUST LOOK AT HER FACE! It's full of joy and it's like glowing. God she's beautiful.
AN: I didn't want you guys to wait anymore, though I'm not finished with this chapter, I thought it wasn't fair. but hopefully y'all don't have to wait this long anymore. I'm going to try to write more.