I listened as Beast Boy went on about dying. I wanted to hit him. Of all the stupid things he has done, this tops them all. I was so angry at him that when he finished his excuse, I realized that we were at the exit. One more flight of stairs and we were out of here.

"See that. We are at the exit. No more I'm dying. Oh look, Cyborg is-" I didn't finish, Beast Boy collapsed, he really was dying now.

He looked up at me with glazed over eyes. "Listen, Raven. Tell everyone I'm going to miss them. It was the best times if my life, even the bad ones were good."

My hold on his head shook and my hand squeezed his. "You tell them, Beast Boy. I am NOT losing you." I could feel the tears run down my my face. This was not happening. He had so much to look forward to.

I turn to Cyborg who was already jumping down the steps. "Tell the others to get blood ready for him. He has a lot of blood loss. Help me get him out of here."

Cyborg helped me get him up and carried him to the T car. I stumbled in and he put Beast Boy's head in my lap. My headache was getting worse and the dizziness was coming back.

"Raven, are you ok? You seem to be in just as bad a shape as he looks."

I wave Cyborg's comment off. "Just a headache."

I reach down to Beast Boy's leg and remove the make shift bandage off of his leg. A piece of my cloak, when he gets better, I am going to hurt him and make him buy me a new one. I slowly lift his pant leg and the sight made me want to puke. The skin was shredded around the edges, black blood flowed from the wound, dried blood was caked up and down his calf, and the worst thing about it was that if I did not stop the bleeding now, nothing would save him.

"Cyborg, how are things going up there?" Using my cloak, I rebandaged his leg as best I could, and made a very thin strip to make a turnakit.

I saw Robin's face disappear from the screen on the dashboard. "Medbay is ready for him. He's gonna make it Raven. Everything is gonna be okay. It always is." I could tell from what I saw of his face, that was more for him than me.

"No, it's not going to be okay, not unless I do something drastic. Get a second bed ready for me." Before he could say anything, my hands glowed with a blue energy as I put them on his leg. The pain in my head was excruciating, but I could not stop now. Just a little more and he would survive.

I was done, he still needed medical attention but I gave him enough time, I hoped. "Tell Beast Boy, he's an idiot and I'll kill him if he does that again." Just as my mouth closed, my world went black.

I woke up wondering why heaven was so sterile and beepie, or if I went to hell and looked like a vet's office just for me. I laid there wondering if I was going to see my mom or that little girl, when I realized, I'm alive you dummy.

I looked around as best I could and saw an iv stuck in my veins, a quart of blood pumping into my arms. The medical bay was almost completely dark, and I wondered why until I looked over at the bed. At first I could just barely see a faint figure until my eyes came into enough focus to see her clearly and I gasped in horror and frustration.

I risked everything to save her and I failed, and I was still alive. I failed as a hero and as a friend. I put my hands over my face, I was glad no one was there to see me cry like this, and I hoped they couldn't hear me either. "Shut up." Yep, that's my luck.

I to see which of my friends was so heartless and to my joy, it was Raven. She was holding her head in pain. I gasped and screeched out. "Raven! I thought I lost you! I'm so happy you're alive!" Which earned me a death glare like no other, she is real pretty when mad.

She sighed and covered her eyes with her hand. A slight whisper escaped her lips. "I have a massive headache, can you keep it down?"

I put my finger over my lips, than whisper back. "Can do beautiful. I'm just glad we both made it."

She gave me a look that sent shivers down my spine, it looked as if she was worried about me and it made me melt. "Beast Boy, why?"

Turning on my side wasn't easy but I managed. "Why am I so good looking? It's the ears, the fang makes me look like a bad boy too." I propped my head on my hand. I gave her lopsided grin. "The green skin helps too."

She glared at me again, but it quickly changed into a sorrowful look. Sitting up slowly, she turned toward me. "Beast Boy. Why not leave me there and get help?"

My smile disappeared. "There was a chance you might not have made it if I did. I was determined to keep you safe."

"If you would have gotten help, we both would have had a chance to survive. You just doomed your self."

"And guaranteed your life."

The silence was defiantly not calm or peaceful. Her eyes shined with unshed tears. "Why would you do that to me? I would live the rest of my days knowing you died because of me. I don't want to kill you, we are friends."

"Exactly. I will always be there for my friends no matter the cost. I made that choice, not you. The blame is mine. I would do it again if I had to. I love you, all of you. I would give my life up in a heartbeat to save you, even Robin and we haven't been on the best of terms."

"And you are important to us, we can not lose you. Please, next time think of us too."

I'm not the brightest on the team, you could actually call me the dumbest, but I knew we weren't talking about the team. She was important to me and I was important to her. I held my arms out and waved for her to come to me.

She came over toward me slowly. She wrapped her arms around my neck and I put my hands on her back. I could feel her tears on my neck and shoulder. My vision blurred and I knew I was crying too. "I'm sorry Rae, I'll remember next time. I don't want to hurt you, ever. Go lay down, you need to rest."

As soon as she got back into her bed, the door slid open to reveal Cyborg with the saddest look I've ever seen on his face. He looked up, saw that we were awake, and brightened up a lot. "If ya'll are up, that means ya'll are doin better. Stay in bed, we're tryin to get Star to not bring in her get well puddin so I'll tell em you're still out. I'm just here to give BB his pain meds." He messed with one of my ivs and as he left, he turned back and winked at us. "Don't do anything I wouldn't do."

We stared at each other, confused. "Uh, what was that?"

I just shrugged and turned to look at the ceiling. "Hey Raven, do you remember what happened?"

I heard her sweet voice in the bed next to mine. "The beginning is a little foggy but yes."

Sighing, I turned my head to look at her, to find those violet eyes looking at me. "So you remember about the just asking part?"

"Yes but now's a bad time."

"How come?"

She raised an eyebrow. "Because you have an iv in your arm and I'm on extreme bed rest."

"Oh." I could feel my face fall. It wasn't a rejection but it felt like one.

"Ask at a better time, I will tell you if it's a bad time. It's not a no though."

My face broke out in a grin. "So when is a good time?"

A rare smile appeared on her face. It was amazing. "Ask some time and find out."

A grin appeared on my face, an evil grin. "How bout now, I'll let you play with my ears."

She rolled her beautiful eyes. "That wasn't even a good way to ask and," She reached out a hand and grabbed my ear, giving it a good yank. "all these are good for are hearing and pulling when you act immature."

I rubbed my ear and then winked. "Maybe if I'm bad, you'll spank me." She rolled her eyes again.

We talked all night with a good deal of arguing till she feel asleep. I felt that we had reached a whole new level and now there was no turning back. The thing is, I don't want to. I just have to get up and keep moving up, I'll get everything I could ever want.