Chapter 14: Never
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A/N: Full A/N at the end of the chapter guys. Enjoy
Mitchie sat there flipping through the pamphlets. After hours of thought she had come to two conclusions. Find out what Shane's intentions for her really were or, she closed her eyes and took a deep breath at the thought, get rid of the baby. At the end of the day only one person would be responsible for what would happen. Shane. Mitchie couldn't make the decision on her own. She didn't want to get rid of the baby, but she couldn't do it on her own.
The thought of carrying Shane's baby for nine months without him tore at her insides. She sighed and wiped away her stray tears. She was going to have to talk to him. Sooner rather than later.
"Shane?" Shane looked up from his desk hearing his name being called.
"Mitch." He stood up seeing Mitchie standing in the doorway. He headed over to her and embraced her. "Mm." He buried his face in her hair but let go realizing she wasn't returning the embrace.
"We need to talk Shane." He sat down but she didn't.
"Mitch if this is about Gwen again-"
"Shane. Please just listen." He watched as she dug in her purse and pulled out pamphlets.
She bit her bottom lip as her chin shook. "Will you ever, have any intention of marrying me?" Mitchie looked at Shane she squeezed the pamphlet she had gotten from planned parenthood.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, if you claim you love me, and you claim that Gwen loves me, then why not tell her the truth. Stacey is long gone Shane. The lie cant go on forever."
"Why are you pressing for this?"
Mitchie looked up and wiped away the tears that were bubbling in her eyes. "Because I need to know Shane. I need to know if you really love me, Mitchie, or if you love who I pretend to be. I can't have a baby with someone who doesn't really love me."
Shane felt his heart drop into his stomach hearing that. A baby. He looked down and stared at the winged pamphlet. The multiple creases it had received through out their short conversation made it almost impossible to read, but he could make out the words.
Mitchie stood up and shoved the pamphlet in her purse, and made her way over to Shane. Kneeling down she stroked his cheek, hers covered with tears.
"I do love you Shane. Ill never regret that. But I will regret that I let someone who doesn't really love me for who I am pretend to love me." She sighed and stood up smoothing down her shirt. "I gotta go." She left and Shane just sat there awestruck.
That night Shane sat in his office alone. Gwen was at school, and Mitchie...Mitchie was gone. He felt lost. He stared at his computer screen and began to type. He went to google images and sat there with pressure in his chest as he debated on what he was about to type in. His fingers moved slowly as he took a deep breath and began to type.
What he saw horrified him. But it wasn't the results of the unborn babies that showed up here and there that horrified him.
It was how the mother's looked in most of the pictures. He felt woozy looking at them. He moved the mouse to close the tab, but couldn't bring himself to click it.
Shane ended up sitting there for hours, staring at photos of women who went for an abortion, and all he could think about was Mitchie.
She had made her intentions clear. They couldn't be together, so she was going to get rid of the baby. He felt tears bloom behind his eyes. He shut his eyes holding them back.
Shane ended up spending his whole evening trying to find out where Mitchie could have possibly gone. Everyone gave him the same answer, they couldn't tell him they had a patient under that name.
Shane fell asleep at his desk in the early morning hours after crying. He had screwed up. He had been so concerned about protecting himself he had screwed up with Mitchie.
When light began to poke through the windows of his office Shane woke up. He was exhausted but he had to do something. He dialed Gwen and tried to hold himself together.
He told her everything. He told her about how Stacey had died months ago. About how that woman who had been there was this wonderful woman named Mitchie. About how he really liked Mitchie. About how sorry he was for lying to her. He apologized a hundred times over in the short time he talked to his daughter. He could hear her sobbing on the other end. "Im so sorry Gwen." Gwen didn't answer, but instead hung up leaving Shane alone.
Shane had done it. He had done as Mitchie had asked him to do. His only dilemma now was whether or not he would ever see her again.
Later that day Shane got a phone call asking for him.
"This is him."
"We are calling about a Mitchie Torres." His heart stopped and he pressed the phone closer to his ear.
"She had you down as her emergency contact. We are calling to inform you about the complications that occurred." Shane felt his heart tear in half hearing that. He could feel the cold sweat forming on his brow.
"She had some complications during the procedure and we had to admit her. We just thought we would inform you that if you want to check up on her visiting hours are from nine to seven."
He hung up and looked at the wall. He only wondered what could have gone wrong. Shane quickly glanced at the clock and got up. He had to see her and fix everything between them.
Shane walked in and saw her curled up in bed. She was pale, and looked deathly. He made his way over to her and softly stroked her hair out of her face. She had almost a gray hue and her skin was sticky with sweat.
"Oh Mitch." He sat down and held his hand on her cheek. He could feel the faint, airy breaths she made as they ran across his skin. "Im so sorry. I made such a stupid mistake and I might lose you because of it." He softly ran his thumb along her cheekbone. "I love you Mitch, and Im so sorry for being so selfish and horrible. I just want you to be okay." Shane let out a shaky breath and buried his hand in her hair.
How would he ever live without her?
Shane had fallen asleep in a chair near Mitchie's bed side. He only woke up once when his phone went off. He turned it off and sat there looking at Mitchie. He felt broken inside seeing her look as she did. She hadn't woken up and she hadn't regained her color.
The second time Shane woke up it was because he felt a hand softly squeeze his knee. "Mm." His eyes opened and he saw Mitchie lying there looking at him.
"Hi." Her voice cracked and it was almost a whisper. He weakly smiled and squeezed her hand.
"How you doing?"
"Everything hurts." She closed her eyes and let a tear fall. "I shouldn't have done that."
"No its not." She opened her eyes. They were red and watery. "I killed our baby. I ruined my body. God."
"Hey." He softly ran his hand along her cheek. "It is okay." She let out a shaky breath and leaned into his cheek. He watched as her lip wobbled before she allowed the tears to run free.
"Im so sorry Shane."
"Dont be. Im the one who is sorry." She bit her lip and looked at him.
"I told her Mitch. I told her everything."
"Yeah. I was hoping.. I had hoped that I would have been able to find you before this happened. But no one would tell me anything."
"I feel so horrible Shane. But I just couldnt have stayed with you if you weren't going to tell her."
"Its okay Mitch. I love you." She smiled a bit.
"I love you too Shane." She sighed and laid back down.
"Get some sleep Mitch. Ill still be here later."
When Gwen came home from school for the summer she greeted her father with a cold look of indifference. Mitchie had stayed at home, still not feeling well after what happened. Gwen unhappily grabbed Shane's hand as he walked her to the car.
"You cant ignore me forever Gwen." The young girl looked out the window as Shane drove.
"Yes I can." He sighed and tapped the wheel with his fingers. No more words were said until he stopped the car. "Where are we?"
"Come on." He held out his hand for his daughter to hold yet again. She once again gave her father the limp grip she had given him earlier. She looked around as they walked to their destination. Grass, stone, flowers.
Gwen had to hold back tears when they stopped walking. She stood there staring at the stone. She felt Shane's hands on her shoulders as tears slid down her cheeks. He got on his knees and held his daughter close.
"Im so sorry for all the hurt I've caused you Gwen. I love you so much and I knew how much this would devastate you. I didn't.." He took a deep breath as he stroked his daughter's hair behind her ear. "I didn't want to see you like this. I was being selfish. I hurt so many people in the process. I loved her more than anything though Gwen. You know that. And Mitchie, I know you think shes supposed to replace her, she wont. I love Mitchie in a different way. In a way that makes me even better than she ever did. I love you more than both of them though." Gwen sobbed and let Shane hug her close to him. He softly rocked her and buried his face in her hair allowing himself to cry.
"I love you too Daddy. So much." She hiccuped as she tightened her grip around Shane. "Please never leave me."
"Never." Shane continued to hold his daughter until she calmed down. She wiped her eyes on her sleeve and sat on Shane's lap looking at the gravestone in front of her.
Stacey Elisabeth Gray
She made everyone a better person.
Shane stroked his daughter's hair as they sat there talking about Stacey. He smiled letting Gwen steal flowers from another grave and put them there. He hadn't thought of bringing any. He hadn't planned on even coming here. But he did.
And it was the best decision he had ever made.
A/N: So yeaaaah :/ I kinda screwed up. I wrote the last chapter and I was like well... I dont really know what I can do in between this and the end. I had hoped to write at least one more chapter, but I mean unless you wanted a 200 word chapter it would have been a waste of everyone's time. So this is the end guys! Thank you so much for all your kind words and your time. I love each and everyone of you. Hopefully now that this story has concluded I can work on finishing up my others and posting some of the ones I have on my computer :)
This has been a great ride, I wanted to branch out and do something out of my comfort zone. I'm glad I did. Overall this story was an adventure for me and I was so happy to share it with all of you.