I'm not sure why but I had to write this. It's not a 'normal' diary thing but instead simply uses a diary to aid the story. Every chapter will start with a diary entry in italics and then get to the actual plot. I'm doing this at the same time as my other story but I really had to do this. I'll update as often as I can. Haha, enjoy!

Disclaimer: Just gonna put this once… I don't own Kuroshitsuji. I don't own Sebastian or Ciel. Unfortunately. :P

How do I start? Umm... Dear Diary,

Sebastian is making me write in you, you repulsive thing. Something about 'dealing with my problems through writing, not violence' and 'taking my anger out on you instead of him'. I wasn't really paying attention. Guess he got tired of me chucking things at his head every morning. *sigh* I was getting a lot of practice aiming.

This seems like something Elizabeth would do. I see no point in this. Whatsoever. How is writing supposed to help with anything? Whatever, Sebastian threatened to take away my sweets until I at least wrote something.

Damn that bastard.

Damn him to hell.

I will make the rest of his life MISERABLE! Sebastian, if you're reading this, first of all, CONSIDER YOURSELF WARNED, second of all, stop snooping around other people's possessions and go make me something sweet. Preferably chocolate. Besides, it's not like I'm going to write my feelings in here or anything. Because that would be girly. And a 14 year old demon is not girly.


Ciel Phantomhive, out.

Ciel slammed the notebook shut and launched it towards the door, full speed. Unfortunately enough, Sebastian chose this moment to walk into his study. With his amazing reflexes he reached his hand out to the side a couple inches and caught it, avoiding a dent in the wall he would surely have had to repair later.

"Amazing, young master, you're getting better and better at chucking books at my head. Truly impressive."


"Now then, what is this book we have today?" Sebastian pulled his arm back towards him and flipped the book over to see the front. Finding it empty, he opened it to the first page.

Ciel gasped, how dare his butler look through something personal without permission? "G-Give me that!" He stumbled out of his chair, tripping over his feet in his haste. Sebastian raised the book a couple inches and continued reading, his face one of pure amusement. Ciel clawed at his butler's arm but Sebastian had a firm grip on the book.

"S-Sebastian! You have no right to-"

"But my lord, much of this is about me."

"B-But, Sebastian-"

Sebastian snapped the book shut and handed it back to Ciel who ripped it out of his hands and clutched it to his chest, glaring up at the much taller man.

"You seem awfully protective of that diary of yours. Although, I may suggest, instead of 'Dear Diary' you may prefer using the term 'Journal' if you're worried about being 'girly'. Please don't feel self-conscious about this. Many boys your age write in a journal or something similar. Especially going through puberty. (A/N Because Ciel's a late bloomer I guess. XD) It's a particularly uncomfortable time and it will probably be scary and awkward. Your body will start changing and-"

Ciel blushed furiously, "S-Stop talking!"

"It's nothing to be embarrassed about young master. In fact, I myself-"

"S- Shut up, Sebastian!"

Sebastian sighed; it was just getting fun, "Alright, my lord. But please know this, if anything happens you can come and talk to me. I'll find out sooner or later. I do undress you every day."

Ciel responded by blushing harder and turning on his heel to stalking back to his desk. He dropped his notebook into a drawer as if it was going to bite him and slammed it shut.

"But of course, the main reason I have you writing in this is because over the past year you've gotten more… how to put it… demonic."

"So what? I am a demon after all, thanks to you. Now I'm stuck in this…" Ciel paused, choosing his words carefully, "objectionable… world forever."

Sebastian pursed his lips. He had heard this story many times. Ciel blamed him and only him for his change from human to demon. It was not his place to object or to protest this. He was merely a butler. Well, one hell of a butler, but still.

Ciel continued, "Just because you couldn't do your job properly and keep me safe from the Trancys. And now you're stuck with me."

Sebastian simply stood there, not really paying attention, while Ciel rambled on about how terrible and awkward to felt to have Alois in his body. He felt bad for what he had planned if the Trancys didn't interfere. He was going to keep Ciel. Forever. He didn't think he could bring himself to consume the boy's soul. Not now… especially since…

"Sebastian! Are you even listening to me?"

"Of course, my lord."

Ciel opened his mouth to continue but Sebastian interrupted him, "I'm sorry, young master but it's time for you to retire for the night."

Ciel snapped him head to side to look out the window behind his desk. It was true, it was getting late. And now that he thought about it, he was getting a little tired. He hadn't had any sugar all day thanks to Sebastian's demented plan and it was catching up to him. AS if on cue, Ciel yawned against his will.

Sebastian smirked, "Come now, young master, let's get you undressed."

"N-no, Sebastian. Not yet. I'm not tired."

"Young master, please don't be difficult."

"I'm not being difficult! Just shut up and make me something with chocolate. A lot of chocolate."

Sebastian sighed, he seemed to be having one of those, 'choose your battles' debates in his head, "Yes, my lord."

Just like my other fanfic, the chapters are starting out short. They'll get longer. Promise. Hope you guys enjoyed it! See ya later!