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Author's Note: What Auggie thinks of in The speed of light.

All Alone

I'm sitting here drinking a beer all alone. Not one of my so-called friends has come to make sure that I'm okay. I thought at least I could call Annie and ask her to come and join me, but no she couldn't afford to come to see me. Of course she had no clue that Parker left me. Parker left me because I didn't tell her who I really was. She thought she knew the real me, but she didn't. When we were kidnapped she found out who I really was and she didn't want anything to do with me.

I guess I don't really blame her. If I were in her place would I want to be with a person who didn't tell me who they really were? I don't know because I will never find out. I loved her and I even brought a ring and I even proposed. She did say yes, but after the kidnapping she gave it back to me.

I wanted what everybody else had. I wanted someone to love and someone to love me back. I wanted to mean something to someone. I wanted the house and the kids, which I thought I would have gotten with Parker, but I know now it, will never happen.

The CIA doesn't let you have relationships because you always have to lie to the one's that you love. You can never tell them who you really are even if you want to. I wished that I could have that life that everyone has, but it's not for me. I'm meant to be all alone even if I don't want to.

So here I am handcuffed going to jail all alone and soon I will be in a jail call once again all alone.

The End