So I was inspired by another story and the promo for S3 E10. I don't own rookie blue, I just love watching the show.

Setting: After Season 3 episode 9-Out of time



I did all of this, because of Nick. I asked Sergeant Best to put me undercover because of him. I was trying to prove to myself that I didn't need him. I had to find a way to prove to myself, that I am strong enough on my own. I thought this under cover thing, would have been easy. I should have paid more attention to what Noelle said. I was a mess that night at the restaurant. I pulled it off, but I was rattled. I told Sam before my debriefing with Andy, that I was okay; but I wasn't.

That night I finally had to admit to myself that I needed him, I needed Nick like never before.

I shouldn't have said so much in the cab, I led that man to me. I am an idiot. I should have fought harder, done something else. I blame myself.

Jerry is gone because of my stupidity, because of my need to play this game, act a role. Be this person that I don't even know anymore.

Yes. I will take the blame... because of my selfishness; he died trying to save me.

What do you think? Reviews greatly appreciated.

The next one will be Nick's thoughts..