I look over at him out of the corner of my eye.
He is sitting on the couch with his newest girlfriend, and my heart burns with jealousy.
His tousled, dirty blond hair keeps falling into his blue/gray eyes, and I love the impatient way he pushes it back, as if he would love nothing more than to chop it all off right then and there.
I sit there for a while, watching them. Knowing that tomorrow it will be a new girl, and the next day another one.
That's another reason why I don't make a move.
He will love and leave me and thats not what I want.
I want him to hold me in his arms forever and tell me that he loves me.
I want him to marry me, and be the father of my children.
But he's not like that, and the thing is, I don't want him to change and be a different person, I want him to want to be with me.
I try and push thoughts of him away, and I go to my room on the train.
Tomorrow is a big big big day, and I need my beauty rest.
I head to my bathroom and carefully wipe away all of my makeup. I remove my wig and brush out my blind I take of my complicated dress and put on a plain, light pink nightgown.
I am about to sit down when there is a soft knock on my door.
I open it a crack, and see Haymitch.
"What is it Mr. Abernathy?" I asked, trying my best to sound cool and collected.
"Can I come in?" he asked.
I began to panic.
I looked absolutely horrible.
But Haymitch wanted to be around me.
"Of, of course you can come in." I stammered, opening the door wider for him to come in.
He stood there and stared at me.
"Effie..."He said, gazing at me.
"You are so beautiful."he said softly.
I couldn't believe he said that.
I didn't know what to say.
But I didn't have to say anything because before I knew it, I was in Haymitch's arms.
"I've wanted you forever." he said softly.
"But I never had the courage until now." he kissed me softly.
"I will change my ways for you Effie. No more drinking, no more girls, no more of that." he said, stroking my hair, and I knew that he really did love me.