Its my first fic and I would love to hear any feedback. Thank you!

I'm standing at the edge of the park. A few feet ahead is a cliff looking over the town I'm in constant turmoil with. From up here it looks miniature, like a child's toy that can be manipulated at will.

The cold breeze feels good against my hot skin.
Taking the water bottle out of my bag, I sit on the bench with my pants all covered in dirt and sweat trickling from my neck down to my back.

This vodka-induced reverie is getting worse, and I couldn't help but let my thoughts go spiral back down to my conundrum: Alison.
Since her disappearance my life was thrown in a whirlwind of unanswered questions. Questions I don't know how to ask or whom to ask it to, leaving me in a sleep deprived unpleasant trance for the past year.

Lost in the last hour of darkness, I wait for the sun to come up and fix my gaze on the little specs of light in the sky.

"Are you one of them now Alison? A star like you always wanted to be?!"

I didn't mean to yell that out loud. Guess that water didn't do jack shit for me.

Letting out an exasperated sigh, I swallowed the lump in my throat.

I know where that leads. And I can't cry now. Not anymore. A year of grieving and longing is done. I need to move on.

My friends have.

Hanna is taking the queen bee role in all of its glory. Spencer is moving on to be more glorious than her academic achievements can offer. And Aria… well she literally just moved away from Rosewood.

But now it's my turn.

My turn to focus on my future. My turn to live free from Alison's mysterious and confusing hold.

I have Charles Dickens in my hand. Its creased pages and darker shade of color shows my 12-month obsessive grip, hoping to find some subliminal message in between the lines. Hoping to find her.

"Goodbye Ali." My voice so hoarse, I barely recognize it.

I drop the book down to my newly dug 2-feet hole and now covering it with intentions of burying all her memories out of my head.

Beep Beep!

Don't say goodbye yet Em. You've always been my favorite –A

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