DISCLAIMER~ I do not own Rocky Horror Picture Show or any of it's characters. Everything belongs to Richard O'Brien! (Except for this story of course!) I really hope you enjoy. This is my first fanfiction on here. I also don't own the song I never told you by Colbie Caillat


She was tired. Tired of crying. Tired of the pain. Tired of missing him. She didn't know if she could find the will to go on without him. They were going to get married. Start a family. She was going to set him straight. Change him. Frank had taken it all away from her, for his own stupid, selfish reasons.

She dragged her feet into her bedroom, and turned on the small radio that her and Magenta shared. Magenta was cooking dinner, so Columbia had the room to herself. She turned the volume up, to drown out her sorrows. The song that was playing only made it worse. I never told you by Colbie Caillat...

"I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe"

Tears began to roll down her cheeks. She tried to control it, but it was useless. Eddie was her first love. Her only love. His beautiful face invaded her thoughts. She locked her door, and went into her drawer, pulling out her diary.

"But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you "

Her diary held all her deepest feelings. Not only did it hold her feelings, but it held the one thing that helped her release the pain of losing her dear love. It held the blade that helped her cope. No one even had a clue. She turned to the fifth page, and took out the blade. She rolled up her sleeve, revealing her many other scars.

"I see your blue eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not
Around you
It's like I'm not with me"

Her salty, makeup filled tear drops splashed on her arm.

"But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you"

She slowly slid the blade across the middle of her arm, the blood drops hitting the dirty wood floor. More and more tears inhabited her face. She threw her head back. Nothing is worse than the pain of losing your first love. Your only love.

"But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
(still you're gone)
Can't believe that I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you"

"I will always love you Eddie. Forever and ever." She said, her voice cracking.

She heard Magenta ring the bell for dinner. She cleaned herself up, wiping off the remains of her makeup, cleaning up the blood. She put on a fake smile, rolling her sleeve back down to cover her scars. It was time to be the 'happy go-lucky' Columbia everyone loved.

Little did they know...