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Sasha's POV

"So, Sasha, you coming over tonight?" Boo asked as she linked her arm into mine. I pulled away from here gently.

"Actually I can't. I'm busy." I lied. I just can't deal with being around her anymore. I'm done with this. The way she's been touching me lately. It's filling me with false hope. I just have to get over her and I can't do that if she's always pulling me into hugs and caring for me.

"Sasha, why have you been doing this lately?" Boo asked.

"I don't know what you mean." I said to her. I've been blowing her off a few times lately but I didn't think she really cared.

"You know what I'm talking about." She said. "You know if I'm just not cool enough for you or something you could just tell me."

"Boo, that's not it at all." I said.

"Then what is it?" I asked her.

"It's nothing okay." I said.

"Really it's nothing!" She said raising her voice, "I finally felt like I've been growing close to you and now you're just pushing me away!"

"Boo I-" I started to say.

"No, okay. Just don't. You're going to have to let someone in eventually. You can't just be alone for the rest of your life." She said and walked away. She is right but I wasn't leaving because I was scared. She probably thought I was cutting her out of my life because of that fear that once you get close to someone they leave. I just need to explain to her why I'm doing this. I need her to be okay with it. I need her to understand it.

So here I am. I'm standing outside Boo's door waiting. I can feel raindrops on my skin. The smell of the rain is sweet and content. It's peaceful but even the rain can't calm the nerves I'm feeling. I'm about to tell Boo how I feel about her. I need her to know because I have to say goodbye. I can't be around her anymore. I thought that these feelings would have gone away by now but they haven't. Every time I'm not around her I think to myself that I have to get away or else I won't be able to get over. But then I end up by her side and everything I want to say just falls from my lips. It's like she draws me back in and I can't get away. I have to get away from her now. I know she'll be okay without me. It's just I'm slowly dying being in love with a girl who can't love me back.

I slowly lifted my fist and knocked on the door. The rain was still falling softly around me.

"Sasha? What are you doing here?" Boo asked as she opened the door. She looked beautiful.

"I need to tell you something." I told her.

"Do I want to hear this?" she asked.

"Probably not." I said in reply.

"Okay." Was all that she said.

"I want you to know that I love. I love you more than I have ever loved anything. It's like this intense, overwhelming love. Every single day I wake up my thoughts are consumed of you. I'm not saying this to guilt you or have you say it back. I just needed you to know. I just needed to get it out there. This is why I can't talk to you anymore. It's hurts way too much to see you every day, to have you wrap your arms around me, to know how much you care about me but also knowing that you will never care for me the way I do for you. I want you to know that it's okay. I don't want you to love me back. I just want you to be happy. But I want to have a chance to be happy too. I know you'll be okay without me. You're stronger than you think. You're beautiful and lovely. You'll be okay." She took a step closer to me. "Goodbye, Boo." And with that I turned around and started walking away from her.

Boo's POV

"I want you to know that I love. I love you more than I have ever loved anything. It's like this intense, overwhelming love. Every single day I wake up my thoughts are consumed of you. I'm not saying this to guilt you or have you say it back. I just needed you to know. I just needed to get it out there. This is why I can't talk to you anymore. It's hurts way too much to see you every day, to have you wrap your arms around me, to know how much you care about me but also knowing that you will never care for me the way I do for you. I want you to know that it's okay. I don't want you to love me back. I just want you to be happy. But I want to have a chance to be happy too. I know you'll be okay without me. You're stronger than you think. You're beautiful and lovely. You'll be okay." She took a step closer to me. "Goodbye, Boo." And with that she started walking away from me. Tears started forming in my eyes. This is the reason why she has been so distant with me lately. This is why we haven't been as close. I want to feel that closeness again. I don't want her to say goodbye. I can't picture my life without her.
"I won't." I said to her before she walked out my life.
"You won't what?" She asked turning around. I could see the tears in her eyes now.
"I won't be okay without you."
"Boo you'll be-"
"I won't be okay because I love you too."


So how does everyone feel about this chapter. There is finally some Boosha love going on.