Post - Episode entitled "Cupid's Arrow" Season 8
"I believe you."
"Because I love you."
Brandon couldn't believe what he was hearing. Is this for real? Is she really hugging me? He closed his eyes and just let himself feel his cheek against hers. He heard Kelly let out a faint "mmmm" as they both just experienced being back in each other's arms.
As he felt her arms around him and closed his eyes he thought about how long he'd wished and prayed for this moment. It felt so amazing to be back in her arms again. To be loved so much by this incredible woman that she'd actually forgive him for what he'd done. He didn't deserve it.
He felt relief and joy, but a sickening unsettled feeling also plagued him.
"Kel..." he started, as they eased apart. He looked hesitant..worried. ..nervous. This was not the response Kelly came here expecting to get.
Her smile began to fade. "But if you've moved on..." Tears welled in her eyes and her voice cracked as she continued "...or don't feel the same way..."
Brandon's heart broke at those words. Here he was hurting her all over again.
"No, no, no, that's not it at all. You're here and I'm here and we're hugging and your not slamming doors in my face ... It's amazing I'm just... Soo..." He stammered.
Not feeling any more reassured, "Brandon, what is it ?" Kelly asked.
"Let's sit down and talk."
Brandon walked a few feet into the living room and sat down on the couch. Kelly sat down next to him a couple feet away.
Brandon looked down at his lap for what seemed like a eternity. "Brandon?"
Brandon inhaled sharply and looked up to meet Kelly's eyes.
This time tears filled his eyes as he spoke, "I can't believe that I almost lost you."
"No Kelly look, I need to say some things before we decide anything."
Through tears she looked at him expectantly.
He looked directly into her eyes and said, "Kelly I love you. I love you more than you could possibly know. When I walked through that door about a month ago and saw you sitting in that chair over there... I knew. I saw that look on your face and I knew then how much I had hurt you. I hate myself for it. "
Brandon took Kelly's hand in his hands and looked at her intensely as he continued. "I will never hurt you again. I want to be with you more than anything. But only if that's what makes you happy because I can't handle seeing you sad another day."
"I know you love me Brandon. You did something I'd never imagined you capable of doing. I can't pretend to understand how or why...when I found out, I thought I don't even know this man...he's a complete stranger to me...but when I look at you... You're you. And everything good inside of you is still there. I love you."
"So, where are we? What does this mean?"
Kelly smiled. "I'm going to stay living at the beach apartment. I'm not ready to live together again...that will take some time."
"So I'm going to go. I'm tired and kind of emotionally drained." She laughed nervously.
Brandon chuckled nervously and scratched the back of his head. "Yeah, okay."
They both stood up at the same time and headed to the door. Kelly turned to face Brandon. "I love you Kelly." He leaned in and gave her a tentative kiss on the cheek.
Kelly grabbed his face with two hands and kissed him passionately. "I love you too. I'll call you later."
As she shut the door Brandon just stood there for several moments. He let his head fall against the door and took a deep breath. He couldn't believe that just happened.