Now or Never: by MALTARA2010

Hey everyone … I'm new to Fanficts so this is actually my first story of Mal and Natara. I'm a huge fan of CoD and like everyone else … want Mal and Natara to be together. So here is what I think … Mal knows now that he has to tell Natara how he feels before her wedding and Natara is having second thoughts about Oscar … He's not the man she thought he was … will she decide not the go through with the wedding …

Chapter 1

You are now Detective Mal Fallon

I sit at home trying to figure out what I need to do to get Natara back from the Dashing DA. Ever since Natara became engaged … I haven't been myself and the reason is because … I can't seem to shake the feeling of what my heart truly feels … the love I have always felt when I'm with Natara. I can always be myself when I'm with her … I never have to put up my guard because I trust her completely. And know … that trust has evolved into love for my partner who's engaged to another man. I hate the fact that she's with Oscar Santos … that I would rather be engaged to her … planning my wedding with the woman I love I've never felt this way about any other woman. Not even for my ex-wife Sandra … with Natara … it's different. I've changed … I mean, literally changed since I've met her … and there's no one else I want to be with.

I've been hiding my feelings for Natara for God knows how long … with her wedding being only a couple of weeks away, I've decide that I need to tell her … before it's too late. But how? As I'm about to ask myself that exact question … my phone rings and I answer without looking at the caller ID …

Mal: "Fallon …"

Natara: "Hey Mal? I was wondering if you wanted to grab some dinner. Oscar has to work late again

tonight and I really could use a night with my best friend."

Mal: "Sure thing Nat! Chinese?"

Natara: "Sounds great! My place or yours?"

Mal: "Yours! I'll run down and grab … my treat and I'll see you in 15"

Natara: "Ok! See you then! Bye"

Mal: "Bye"

I hung up the phone; grab my jacket and head out to the Chinese Restaurant not too far from where Natara lives. I order the usual and as I'm waiting … I begin to think about how exactly I'm gonna tell her. Blaise has been trying to get me to spill the beans but I refused and now that the wedding is just around the corner … I know that I have to and maybe tonight was the night … maybe tonight I were meant to have dinner with Natara … As I'm thinking … my order is ready … I mutter under my breath "How is it that every time I'm trying to figure out how to tell Natara how I feel … I get interrupted?" I grab the food and walk out.

As I'm driving … I talk to myself … practicing because I don't want it to come out the wrong way … "Come on Mal … Think!" … and this is what I came up with …

Mal: "Natara! I've been meaning to tell you something for a long time now …and I know I should have told you this but I didn't know how to. And even if you don't feel the same way … it lets me know that I tried … and I'll live the rest of my life knowing that you're happy because that's all I ever want for you. No matter where you go or who you're with … just know that I love you …I'm in love with you … I've loved you from the moment I saw you … and I always will."

By then … I've pulled up in front of Natara's building. I take a deep breath, exit my car with the food in hand and head up to her apartment. I told Natara that I would be there in 15 minutes and it been a half hour. I know that I'm late and gonna get it from her ... but it's not my fault! They didn't have her damn Mongolian Beef ready …

You are now FBI Agent Natara Williams

I can't help but worry about were Mal was. It was getting late and I were hungry … as I was about to pick up my phone and call … I hear a knock at my door. I run and open it to find Mal on the other side.

Natara: "What the hell took you so long? You're 15 minutes late!"

Mal walks in passed you rolling his eyes and said …

Mal: "Oh … I'm sorry! But I had to wait for your Mongolian Beef … what do you expect? You won't eat anything else!" Looking at you with a cheesy grin

I looked at him and rolled my eyes playfully and then shut the door behind me. I then walk over, grab my food and sat on the couch … as did Mal.

Mal: "So … what's up with Oscar working late these days? Shouldn't he be home help you plan the wedding?"

Natara: "I know … and this whole wedding thing is stressful. I thought that he would be more supportive and help me through this … but I was wrong."

There was a silence in the room for a short time before I broke it …

Natara: "Mal … can I ask you something?"

Mal: "Nat? You know you can ask me anything?"

I smiled before asking this question … and I hesitated but I asked anyway …

Natara: "What would you do if you were … you know … getting married?"

Mal begins to chock on his food … instantly putting my food down, I grabbed something for Mal to drink and handed it to him. He took a swig before clearing his throat ... and puts his food down …

Natara: "Mal? Are you ok?"

Mal clears his throat again before answering my question …

Mal: "Well … the answer to your second question is … yah … I … I'm fine! As to your first … well …"

He looks at me with his big blue irises … which always made me drown … he continued …

Mal: "You honestly want my opinion?"

I snapped out of my Trans … cleared my throat and said …

Natara: "Yes … Mal! I value your opinion on what you would do … if you were getting married … to help your fiancé with the wedding planning?"

Mal thinks it over before answering and said …

Mal: "Ok … well … If I were getting married … I would be home helping my fiancé with the planning. It wouldn't matter if I was busy trying to close cases or had piles of paper work to finish … I would be a supportive fiancé and do whatever I could to make this as easy as possible. Less stress or even no stress is better than being overly stressed on your wedding day. It's a day of love and committing your lives to each other … at least that's what I would do"…" Why do you ask?"

I take a deep breath before I answer his question …

Natara: "I guess … I guess that I … I thought that Oscar would be that way … to be a part of the planning. Plus … he's not around much anymore and … you know what … never mind …"

I didn't know what to say so I got up from the couch and walked to the kitchen …

You are now Mal Fallon

I sit on the couch … confused as to why she was all of a sudden acting strange. I then walk over to the kitchen. I stand in the door way looking at her … trying to figure out what's going on before I say ...

Mal: "Nat? What's really going on? I've never seen you like this. Plus … you never finished answering my question. Why did you really ask?"

Natara just stood there with her eyes pined to the floor. I knew that if I stood there in the door way, I wasn't gonna get a straight answer … so I slowly walk up to her, and use my finger to lift up her chin to look her straight in the eyes before I repeated yourself …

Mal: "Natara? Why. Did. You. Ask?"

Natara takes a deep breath but didn't say anything …

Mal: "Nat? Look … You know you can tell me … is Oscar being a jack ass and not putting in the effort of helping you plan the wedding? I mean … it is his wedding too … and I figured he would be overly ecstatic to be marring such an amazing woman. If you want … I could go kick his ass and drag him back here? Would that help?" I looked at her with a cheesy grin

Natara just giggles rolled her eyes and then slapped me on the arm before saying …

Natara: "No Mal! As much as I would like that … it wouldn't matter. He would just simply say that his work is too important to for him to put aside for a wedding."

I just couldn't believe the words that were coming out of her mouth and to think that Oscar would just do that pisses me off … but I contained my anger … took a deep breath and said …

Mal: "You know Nat? For him to push you away like some kind of file on his desk is beyond me. Yes … work is important but Oscar is missing out on what this special day would be like. When was the last time he was around? I mean literally around to support you? Wasn't he complaining to you a while back about how you were too busy to spend time with him because of work? Now look what he's doing to you! This wedding is supposed to be a time for bonding and making it as memorable as possible. It seems to me like his work is more important than you?"

Natara just looks at me with watery eyes and all I could do was wipe them away with my thumbs before embracing her into a hug. My heart was breaking … I hated seeing her like this … crying and not being able to have control. It was unlike her to break … I continued to embrace her before I broke away to look into her beautiful hazel eyes … those eyes were one of the things I loved about her … if Oscar wasn't man enough to be a part of a joyous occasion than why the hell did he propose in the first place? Natara than broke the silence …

Natara: "Mal? With the wedding only being a couple of weeks away … with very little time to finish with the caterer, flower arraignments, the seating chart is barely finished, we haven't even taken the time to do the cake tasting … I mean there's so much to do and so little time … I'm just thinking that without Oscar being really serious about this wedding, I'm not sure that I can go through with it."

My eyes widened because if she doesn't go through with this wedding … it could be my chance to tell her how I feel … but then again … maybe she won't be ready for a relationship … I don't know what to do! So I put my feelings aside … and try to reassure her …

Mal: "Nat? If you're not sure about this … then say something! You need to do what's best for youself because if he's not willing to put aside his work for you … than he doesn't deserve you. If it were me … I would sure as hell make all the time in the world to help plan the wedding of your dreams."

Before I knew it … I had said something out of context that a friend shouldn't have … but then again … I was in love with her and couldn't help but say what was in my heart. That was the honest to God truth … I would make all the time in the world to make this wedding her dream. The next thing I knew … she was looking at me with a confused smirked on her face … and then she broke the silence …

Natara: "Mal … what do you mean if it were you … that you would make all the time in the world to help plan the wedding of my dreams?"

I just looked at her … and then I looked down at the ground because I had no idea what to say … I couldn't put my feelings aside like I thought … it just happened to slip and now … there's was no going back …

You are now Natara Williams

I looked at Mal with a confused look on my face because I didn't know if what he meant was to spite Oscar or that it was something else …

Natara: "Mal? What did you mean by that?"

He looked up at me with a look … a look that I've never seen before … a look that … that what he said … he meant …

Mal: "I guess there's no going back … I was practicing earlier as to how I was gonna tell you but I can't remember exactly so I'm just gonna tell you what's in my heart …"

He took a deep breath and continued …

Mal: "Nat … What I said was and would be true. If it were me … marring you … I sure as hell would make the time to help with all the wedding preparations. There's nowhere else I would rather be … the cases and paper work … I would put all of that on hold just to spend all the time in the world to help you … my fiancé plan the rest of our lives together."

All of a sudden, he took my hands … and all I could do was stand there … frozen and hear him say all of these things that I never thought I would hear … even from him… but thinking back to the Drunk Tank when I saw him with Blaise … I couldn't help but feel hurt and jealous because of a kiss on the cheek thinking they were together. The reason I accepted Oscars proposal was because Mal was taken … but more than anything … I wanted him to be with me. I was in love with him …

He continued …

Mal: "I should have said this a long time ago … when you and Oscar weren't officially together … and believe me when I say that … by not telling wasn't because I didn't want to … it was because I didn't know how you would react … I didn't want to ruin what we had …"

He looked into my eyes and as he did … again, I was just about to drown in his big blue irises …

Mal: "Nat? Your my best friend … I can tell you anything and you wouldn't judge … I trust you with my life … I trust you with my secrets … most of all … I trust you with my heart … there is no one else in this world I truly, truly trust and that is a huge step for me. Ever since my divorce from Sandra … the hardest thing was to let myself open up and ever since you came into my life … it's like … it's like I can be myself and not have to worry about back talk … I can just simply be me. Natara … I'm in love with you … I've been in love with you for so long … that I've been such a coward to truly tell you how I feel. I love you … I love everything about you, I love your smile, the way you can read people's minds, your sense of humor … your beautiful hazel eyes … I just simply love you …"

My eyes became watery again … I looked at him and all I could feel was warm and fuzzy … that tingly feeling of … of love and to hear him tell me that he loves me is all the more reason to tell him how I feel … I smiled and then said …

Natara: "Mal? I guess I should be honest as well … you have no idea how much you mean to me. You … you are my best friend … someone I can always count on to be there when I'm in need … I truly, truly trust you with my life … my secrets … and my heart. What I feel for you is nothing compared to what I feel for Oscar. I love Oscar … but I'm in love with you … I always have been … I just never took the time to tell you because the timing was never right and I didn't know how you would feel … but now that you told me … I couldn't be happier … I love everything about you … the way you make me laugh, your smile … even the cheesy ones … the way you always go with your gut feeling … everything. I'm following my heart Mal … I love you … and I'm not marring Oscar. I can't be with a man who isn't serious about our relationship … it isn't right to marry someone else when my heart is with you."

Mal pulled me close … close enough to where there was no space in between us … we looked into each other's eye and before I knew it … he pulled me into a passionate kiss … with his arms around my waist and mine around his neck … it was like nothing I had ever imagined … his lips were so soft and his tongue was smooth … he pulled me even closer and deepened the kiss … and I wanted so much more but I had to push him away …

Mal: "What's wrong?"

Natara: "I can't do this … not yet anyway. Mal? I need to talk to Oscar first before we can go any further. He at least deserves that much."

Mal looked at me and pulled away … giving me that look of disappointment but he understood that Oscar did deserve at least that much.

Natara: "I'm sorry Mal … believe me … I want so much more … but I need to break things off with Oscar first."

Mal took me into his arms pulling me into an embrace … resting his chin on my head as I rested my head in his chest. He then said to me …

Mal: "Whatever you need to do Nat … I understand. I'll wait for you forever if I have to…"

I looked at him and gave him a kiss on the cheek … and then I said …

Natara: "You won't have to wait that long … I promise … just long enough for me to let Oscar go and to be with you."

Mal smiled and kissed me on the lips …

Mal: "Sounds good to me … I love you"

Natara: "I love you too"

Mal and I decided to walk back into the living room and finish our dinner and before we knew it … it was getting late and Mal decided to head home for the night. Although I didn't want him to go and neither did he … we parted ways … at least for the time being. I walked him to the door and we said our good nights. Before leaving … he gave me one last passionate kiss and walked out. Once he was gone … I couldn't think about anyone other than him … his soft lips … his tongue caressing mine … oh God it was the best feeling in the world … it was nothing I had ever felt … not even with Oscar.

Oh God … Oscar … I had to break up with him … I couldn't string him along anymore. I love Mal and wanted to be with him … I just hope that Oscar understands and not have him give me a hard time. I had to do it tonight … the thing is … I didn't know what time he would be home. It's always a different time every night … even if I have to go down there and tell him … I would … even though the wedding was a couple of weeks away … it had to be done … I couldn't let this go on any longer ... it was Now or Never

This is just the first Chapter … there will be more to come … I hope you guys liked it ... Thanks for reading - April