Dear Diary, 5/14/06

It's me again, Ali. I've decided that the plan is set in motion. I wasn't sure exactly how to work out all of the details, but it's worth a shot, right? This is a very complicated project, and it has to be just right, or else everything will be ruined! I need to make sure everything is set in place, and once the first domino falls, everything will happen on its own. The plan fits together like a puzzle. I get such a satisfying feeling when I hear that little click of two perfectly coordinated steps fitting together. My kindergarten teacher always did say I was creative. Anyway, this plan is pretty intense, so I think I'll use a separate entry to work out all the details. Whenever I think about setting this plan into motion, I get chills. I'm so excited, diary. So excited! Well, I better go. I hear footsteps.

Love,

Ali D

. . .

Dear Diary, 5/14/06

I am so pissed off! Spencer is literally the most irritating person I've ever met in my entire life. Sometimes I just want to kill her, you know? She always has to try to do everything better than me. I want to be on the varsity field hockey team, she has to be on the varsity field hockey team. I get my hair blown out, she has it done the exact same way! Can't she just leave me alone sometimes? Sometimes I wish I hadn't picked her to be my best friend. I could have picked some other desperate loser, one who wouldn't give me attitude and try to out-do me in everything. Whatever. There are something's that I have that Spencer can never steal from me, no matter what she does. Gotta go.

Love,

cOuRtNeY 3

. . .

Dear Diary, 12/05/06

Ali here. I just got back from group therapy. What a waste of my time. Do I seem like the type of girl who wants to sit on a dirty plastic chair watching this girl Tabitha scream at a picture of her stepmom? The answer would be no, for 300 points. Anyway, now that I have some free time (in my locked room), I can continue with my plan. Everything is falling into place. Things are going exactly as I wanted them to. I get the tingles when I think about what's going to happen. I get my life back! No more group therapy sessions, or being locked in my room, or gross weirdos who think I'm like them. I'm not, I'm Ali and I'm fabulous! I deserve my old life, the one my rotten sister took away. It's so unfair how she just claimed my life. It's my stupid parent's fault's too. How do you not recognize your own child? Is it that hard to see that I'm a completely different person? Most of all, it's Courtney's fault. She thinks she can switch out lives just like that? Think again, Courtney. I'm smart, and I know how to get back what's rightfully mine. The plan continues.

Love,

Ali D

. . .

Dear Diary, 12/05/06

The worst thing just happened. I found out that Ali's switching hospitals in June and she's coming home for a few days in between. Just thinking about that happening gives me the chills. I can't imagine looking her in the eye, or what she's going to do to me. I'll have to stick to mom that weekend and steer clear. I know that what I did wasn't good. I'm not stupid. But I know it was the right thing to do. How could people not see that I deserved to be Ali? She was a bitch, I was stuck in the shadows. I would have been a better Ali then, and I'm a better Ali now. I'll always be the better Ali, and no matter what happens, this is the life I've always deserved.

Love,

cOuRtNeY