Title: Baby Bump
Pairing: Shizuo x Izaya,
Warnings: Male x Male Relationships, Smut, MPreg, Dark Overtones
Description: Izaya is slipped an experimental drug after angering his secretary. He ends up becoming pregnant after a randevu with Shizuo turned lustful, but the pregnancy is anything but smooth. The side effects of the experimental drug start to kick in and cause Izaya to develop post-partum depression; Leaving Shizuo alone to care for the informant as well as their tiny infant.
Izaya sat at his desk, typing away on his computer, while the former bartender finished putting on his normal bartending attire. Tsugaru was fast asleep in his crib since it was still really early. Shizuo really didn't want to leave his son, but he knew that he absolutely had to go to work. Izaya was a little bit better with Tsugaru, which was a big relief for the blonde since the child would stay home with the informant.
"You really think you're going to be okay?" Shizuo asked as he fastened his bow tie. Izaya stopped his typing and looked up at the blonde.
"How difficult can it be to take care of it?" Izaya said with a bit of a scuff. The blonde felt his eyebrow twitch at the mention of his son being nothing more then a thing to the informant.
"It's pretty fucking hard, especially because you haven't done a damn thing to take care of him yet." Izaya glared hard at the man who was now obviously angry.
"Why do you care so much for it?"
"It's not an 'it', he's a 'him' and because he is our fucking son. How the hell can you not care for it?" The informant stood up from his desk and crossed his arms over his chest.
"That thing is a monster. It has no relation to me." Shizuo growled and hastily grabbed the house keys that Izaya had made for him. Calling his son a monster really hit a nerve since he was so frequently called a monster himself. He grabbed his jacket and walked towards the door. He opened it but looked back at the smaller man before he made his exit.
"I'm done talking to you." The loud slam of the door caused the dark haired male to wince. Almost immediately after, Tsugaru started to cry. Izaya growled as he glared at the door.
"Fucking Shizu-chan!" He made his way into the baby's room and turned on the lights. Tsugaru was crying loudly, much to Izaya's irritation. He walked over to the crib and looked down at his crying son. Pulling him out of his bed, he began to cradle him with a light bounce to try and get the baby to fall back to sleep. The blonde child, however, was now wide awake due to the loud disturbance. He looked up innocently at his mother before smiling. Izaya felt a pang in his chest at the normally heart warming expression. "Tch, it seems like you like me. While too bad for you, I'm not particularly found of you~" Tsugaru did nothing but look up at his mother with a happy expression. Even though the words were filled with malice and hatred, the sound of his mother's voice did nothing but sooth him and coax a smile. This only made Izaya's anger towards the infant burn more.
The sound of the front door opening caused the informant to rush into the living room. Namie had walked in and over to her desk to put down her stuff. The informant made his way over to dark haired female and immediately put his son in her arms.
"Take care of him Namie-san~" Before he could receive a reply, he walked over to his desk and started to check his email. Namie stood there, dumbfounded, before looking down at the tiny baby in her arms. She looked back over at Izaya and glared.
"What the hell, he is your son!" Izaya waved his secretary off as he typed out an email to Shiki.
"I didn't want him. You are the one who drugged me and started this mess. I wanted to abort the monster but you and Shizu-chan wouldn't let me do that." He turned to look over a few papers on his desk before continuing his thought. "Besides, you're a female. It's your job to have and take care of children~" Namie glared hard at her boss.
"I hope Heiwajima-san takes Tsugaru and leaves you because he deserves better then your sorry ass." Izaya's hands halted on his keys as Namie went into Tsugaru's bedroom. After a moment of hesitation he began to type again. Outwardly, the comment didn't seem to hurt him, but inside it really struck a nerve. The two had been living together for so long now that the informant completely forgot that the blonde had a home of his own and could up and leave him at any given moment. Izaya would never admit it, but he started to grow feelings for the bodyguard. Part of him thought that maybe, just maybe, the two could form some kind of relationship that more intimate. After all, they did have sex twice and have a son together.
Then Tsugaru was born and everything went downhill from there.
Izaya didn't deserve Shizuo. He didn't deserve Tsugaru. He knew both of these things but still selfishly tried to hold on to the two of them.
Pulling out his cellphone, he scrolled through his contacts and began to type a text message to the blonde.
Izaya: [Let's go out to dinner tonight.]
He sent the message and placed the phone on his desk.
For the next few hours, Izaya worked diligently to catch up on all the work that he had been putting off for the passed couple weeks. Namie had been taking care of Tsugaru as well as doing all of her paperwork in his room. The door bell rang but Izaya didn't get up to answer the door. He expected his secretary to answer the door but after a few couple rings and no Namie, he got up and answered the door.
"Ahh Shiki-san. Please come in~" The informant moved to let the Yukuza boss and his body guards to enter his home. He walked over to couch and gestured for the older man to sit. "Would you like some tea or coffee perhaps?"
"No thank you Orihara-san. I do not attend to stay long." Izaya nodded and sat across from Shiki. He crossed his legs ad composed himself in his normal business manor. The Yukuza boss pulled out a manila envelope from inside his blazer and placed it on the glass coffee table.
"Here is your pay for the information on Takashi Oyashi." Izaya leaned over and opened the envelope to count the hundred dollar bills that were inside.
"Always a pleasure doing business with you Shiki-san~ By the way, have you been able to find him?" Shiki opened his mouth to reply but was cut off by the sudden sound of the door to Tsugaru's room being slammed open. Izaya's eyes widened when his secretary walked over to him and plopped his little baby on his lap.
"I'm going on my break so you're going to have to watch your son." Tsugaru was looking up at Izaya while sucking on his fist. Izaya glared slightly down at his child before glaring at the closing door and back at the Yukuza boss. Shiki's eyes were fixed on the little boy that was sitting on the informant's lap. The dark haired informant opened his mouth a few times to come up with an excuse but didn't come up with anything.
"Your son?" The older man said as he looked back up to crimson eyes. Izaya thought about lying and denying that Tsugaru was his, but if it ever got back to Shiki that he lied to him then that would be risking his future dealings with the man.
"Ah yeah. His name is Tsugaru and he is two weeks old..." Izaya trailed off. He hoped that the blonde baby would fall to sleep soon so he could just drop him in his room and continue on with his day until Shizuo came home.
"He's adorable." Shiki said, surprising the informant. The Yukuza boss never came off as the gentle type, so to hear him say something like that was very surprising.
"Yeah, he is." The informant lied. The older man detected Izaya's uncomfortable and distant behavior with his son but decided not to address it.
"Your personal life has nothing to do with me, but I am very happy for you. Children are blessings, even though they may not seem so sometimes. My wife and I have been trying for awhile now but we haven't had success." Shiki stood up at the end of his sentence. "I will be in contact Orihara-san." With that the Yukuza boss took his leave, leaving Izaya alone in his apartment with his little son. He let Shiki's word's sink in before sitting back in his chair and extending Tsugaru above his head to look up at him.
"Blessing in disguise huh?" The baby squirmed in the informant's grip, not liking being held so far up and in such an uncomfortable position. He scrunched his face up and started to cry. Izaya glared as Tsugaru got louder and louder. "I don't know about that." He brought Tsugaru back down and put him in his crib to let him cry himself asleep.
Snowflakes gracefully fell from the sky making the normally busy streets of Tokyo white and desolate. A tall blonde walked silently with a shorter, dark haired male to his left and a carrier in his right hand. Inside in the carrier was a sleeping little baby drowning in clothing and blankets. The two entered a restaurant and were quickly seated and handed menus. Both ordered their drinks and a appetizer to share between the two of them. The waitress wrote down their order and hurried off to the kitchen. Shizuo looked over at Tsugaru before looking back at Izaya. He was still angry over the argument that the two had this morning.
Izaya looked up from his menu to meet caramel eyes before looking back down. It was obvious that there was a heavy air that hung around the two new parents. The drinks were set on the table a couple minutes later and Izaya immediately took a sip of his wine. Alcohol was one thing that he really missed while he was pregnant.
"Izaya, we need to figure out what we're going to do." Shizuo said, finally breaking the air. Izaya looked up immediately and cocked an eyebrow.
"What do you mean?" The blonde shifted uncomfortably before regaining his composure.
"What about him?" Shizuo sat back in the chair and crossed his arms over his chest.
"I mean…I knew that you were going to have some issues after he was born, but not this bad. I want Tsugaru to have both of his parents in his life…but I don't want him growing up feeling like he is a monster…" Izaya sat there and took what the blonde was saying in before sitting forward and twirling his drink.
"It's not…it's just…it's really complicated." The informant admitted.
"It's not easy for me either Izaya. I am still fucking terrified to tell the truth." Izaya rolled his eyes.
"I'm trying okay? I can't help it that I can't feel a connection." Shizuo glared slightly but managed to maintain his composure.
"Your not trying to feel anything. I understand that it's a fucked up situation we're in but he is still our son. No matter if you hate him or love him, he will still always be your son." Izaya took another sip of his wine and looked away.
"Tch…like I deserve anybody's love." Shizuo sat there analyzing the informant. He wasn't himself anymore and it started to worry him.
"Everybody deserves love, even an asshole like you." Izaya ran his hand through his hair and watched the waitress put the appetizer down on the table before walking off. Shizuo took a piece of the appetizer and ate a piece of it. Izaya reached forward to grab a piece when his eye caught a glimpse of his knife. The shiny metal seemed to speak to him as he felt his fingers itch to grab it. A vision of himself using the knife to stab slit Tsugaru's throat entered into his mind causing his eyes to widen. He couldn't shake the vision of the lifeless baby in his arms, blood all up his arms and all over Tsugaru's face. T
Tsugaru caused him this pain, so if he got rid of the problem then the pain would go away as well.
He immediately retracted his hand and grabbed it protectively while staring at the metal object. His body was shaking slightly as he looked in horror at the knife. This wasn't his first horrific vision, but it was the first that dealt with him killing his own flesh and blood. He looked over at Tsugaru, who was fast asleep, then over to blonde who had a worried expression on his face.
"Izaya, are you okay?" Shizuo asked. Izaya looked like he had just seen a ghost.
Ughh Tsu is going to jump to 6 months sometime soon...but I don't know when ;_; I feel it's way too soon but this story got way longer then I originally planned..Oh yeah by the way! There is going to be a sequel to this story! :D I kept forgetting to tell you guys XD I had that decided like...6 chapters ago XD I'm sorry about the delay on all my other fics...like I said before, I am trying to get this done by Christmas (which is right around the corner o.o)
Thank you all for your lovely reviews ^^ Each and every one makes me smile :) 325 reviews before I start to write the next chapter ^^ (I want to update Caged Bird as well :/ )