Dark Paradise ( by Lana Del Rey)

All my friends tell me I should move on

I'm lying in the ocean, singing your song

That's how you sang it

Loving you forever, can't be wrong

Even though you're not here, won't move on

That's how we played it

And there's no remedy for memory your face is

Like a melody, it won't leave my head

Your soul is haunting me and telling me

That everything is fine

But I wish I was dead

Everytime I close my eyes

It's like a dark paradise

No one compares to you

I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side

Everytime I close my eyes

It's like a dark paradise

No one compares to you

I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side

All my friends ask me why I stay strong

Tell 'em when you find true love it lives on

That's why I stay here

And there's no remedy for memory your face is

Like a melody, it won't leave my head

Your soul is haunting me and telling me

That everything is fine

But I wish I was dead

Everytime I close my eyes

It's like a dark paradise

No one compares to you

I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side

Everytime I close my eyes

It's like a dark paradise

No one compares to you

But that there's no you, except in my dreams tonight,

I don't wanna wake up from this tonight

There's no relief, I see you in my sleep

And everybody's rushing me, but I can feel you touching me

There's no release, I feel you in my dreams

Telling me I'm fine

Everytime I close my eyes

It's like a dark paradise

No one compares to you

I'm scared that you won't be waiting on the other side

Everytime I close my eyes

It's like a dark paradise

No one compares to you

But that there's no you, except in my dreams tonight,

I don't wanna wake up from this tonight.


The story is inspired by the song `Dark Paradise´ by Lana Del Rey, I listened to the song and had this idea of Taylor dreaming about Wash and this was the result.

The first chapter is written from Taylor´s POV, not sure I´ll stick to that in later chapters, I´ll have to see what happens, the timeline is season one, starting before the season finale and it´s slightly AU, including most characters.

Wash and Taylor aren´t in a romantic relationship in the beginning, though knowing me there´s a good chance that´ll change at some point- probably won´t be able to resist.

I´m still working on the last chapter of ´In Between´, can´t seem to get it right but I´ll finish the story with style- in time ;)


Taylor woke with a start.

For a moment he couldn´t quite comprehend why he would be in his bed instead of just outside the fence, watching his son execute his lieutenant, then he realized it had just been a dream.

Shaking his head to rid himself of the horrible images of Wash crumbling lifeless to the ground, the commander got up and reached for his clothes, quickly pulling them on again.

A glance at his watch told him that it was just after four am, meaning they wouldn´t leave for the portal for another six hours.

Unsurprisingly there was light in the windows of the small house next to his, he hadn´t expected his second to be asleep, they had had another heated discussion about her not wanting to stay behind right before she had stormed out of command, claiming to be scheduled for midnight patrol.

Taylor hadn´t held her back, determined to force her into accepting his choice, firmly believing it was for the best, that she would be safe, that he could avoid risking her life out there.

Wash opened the door at his first knock, locking alarmed at the sight of him.

"Sir?"

"I need to talk to you- can I come in?"

She stepped aside wordlessly, then closed the door behind him and turned while Taylor watched her intently, the dream had shaken him severely and he still hadn´t recovered from it.

His lieutenant had obviously at least been planning to sleep, she was wearing a loose pair of sweatpants and a black tank, her glossy dark hair flowing down her back in waves.

"You´re coming with me."

He told her briskly, watching her eyes widen in surprise.

"Excuse me?"

"You´re coming with me, to the portal- I´m putting Guz in charge of the colony instead."

She just stared at him for a moment, then her eyes narrowed suspiciously and her posture changed as she tensed.

"And what exactly made you change your mind all of a sudden? You seemed very determined earlier, Sir."

Adding his title to soften her insubordinate tone, something she often did, though only when they were alone and as usual, Nathaniel let it go, his relationship with Wash wasn´t simply professional, she was important to him as a person, his best friend- more, if he was honest with himself, a luxury he rarely indulged in, she was his second in command and fantasying about her as a woman wouldn´t get him anywhere.

Realizing that he still hadn´t answered her question, Taylor leaned back against her kitchen counter, shrugging.

"Not forbidden to change my mind from time to time, is it, Wash."

She nodded, smiling mockingly.

"`Course not, Sir, it´s just that you´ve never done it before, so I´m curious what brought this one on."

"Just grin and bear it, Lieutenant- I´d recommend you stop pacing and go to bed, not sure when we´ll get a good night´s sleep again."

She pushed away from the door and walked closer to him, all business now.

"Do you think there´s any chance that things will just go as planned?"

"Truth be told, with Lucas vanishing through the portal and Mira telling me how much he´s looking forward to getting revenge on me, chances seem a little slim, don´t you think."

Wash was curling a strand of hair around a finger, something she often did when she tried to figure something out- it was a habit Taylor found both amusing and enchanting, mostly because it was so completely unlikely for her to give away her feelings or emotions like that.

He reached out and caught her hand while she blushed lightly before pulling her hand away and impatiently pulling her hair back into a ponytail, securing it with a hair tie she had been wearing around her wrist.

"Do you have a plan?"

She asked and Taylor sighed, about to run his hand through his hair in frustration when he noticed the amused twinkle in her eyes, the irony of stopping her from indulging in her nervous tick just to go on and employ his own not lost on him.

"I have a whole arsenal of plans, Lieutenant, unfortunately I have no idea what Lucas might be planing, so I can´t say if one of them might be useful."

Out of impulse he reached for her and brought his arms around her waist, feeling her stiffen momentarily and then relax into his embrace, her head coming to rest against his shoulder.

He couldn´t really remember when he had held her for the last time, he usually restrained himself from taking liberties like that with her, it was hard enough to keep his feelings for her under control without touching her more often than necessary.

"Are you sure you´re all right?"

She was worried about him, it was easily audible in her voice and Taylor loosened his grip on her, feeling strangely deprived when she stepped back, ending the body contact between them.

"I´m fine, Wash."

Her expression told him that she didn´t believe him but apparently she decided to let it go for now.

He made his way over to the door, his hand briefly clasping her shoulder when he passed her.

"Try and get some sleep, it´s almost dawn already."

"I will- goodnight, Sir."

"Night, Wash."

She closed the door behind him and Taylor briefly considered to actually go back to bed, then decided that he probably wouldn´t manage to go back to sleep anyway, not with the images from his dream still haunting him.

Instead he made his way over to the gate where he knew Guzman to be on night watch.

He found his third in command by the gate and motioned for him to follow him out of earshot of the guards on duty.

"Can I do anything for you, Sir?"

"Yes- I´m putting you in charge of the colony until I come back from the portal."

Guzman raised an eyebrow at him.

"With all due respect, Sir, didn´t you spend the last few days fighting with Wash because she wanted to go and you wanted her to stay behind?"

"I did."

"She didn´t manage to persuade you, did she?"

"It´s not unheard of, Guz."

Taylor tried to make light of the situation but Guzman wasn´t fooled.

"I find it hard to believe that, Sir."

"And what´s that?"

Taylor asked testily, watching with some amusement as Guzman squirmed, trying to find a plausible answer and finally deciding to just be honest with his CO.

"You wanted to leave her here because you think it´s safer."

It was a statement, not a question.

"What makes you think that?"

Guzman shrugged, now clearly uneasy.

"Permission to pass that one up, Sir?"

"Denied."

"Fine- I´m not blind, Sir, I´ve been working in close proximity with you two for over a decade now and I know that you´d be prepared to do whatever it takes to keep her out of harm´s way, no matter how many times you have to pull rank on her or how angry she will get."

"Better angry than dead" Taylor mumbled, causing Guzman to smile halfheartedly.

"I agree with that- so what made you change your mind?"

Taylor hesitated, then shrugged.

"It´s silly, really- I had a dream- well, not a dream, a nightmare."

"About Wash?"

"She died."

Talking about it somehow made it more real again and Taylor drew a deep breath to calm himself, then looked up in surprise when he felt Guzman´s hand on his shoulder.

"It´s all right, Sir, we all worry about the people we love."

After a long moment Taylor simply nodded at his lieutenant, accepting that Guzman knew more than he was supposed to.

"Does she know?"

The younger man finally asked.

"She doesn´t and I plan on keeping it that way."

"She feels the same way about you."

Taylor chuckled darkly, not quite believing that he was having this conversation- well, if he had to had it, Guzman definitely was the best person around to have it with.

"That´s a bit ridiculous, don´t you think, Guz? Have you looked at the girl?"

"Believe me, I have, unfortunately never noticed, she was too busy staring at the boss- permission to go back to my post, Sir?"

"Dismissed, Lieutenant" Taylor automatically replied and Guzman winked at the commander, then saluted smartly and walked back to his men waiting by the gate.

The commander slowly made his way up into his office, it was almost six by now, no use to go back home, he´d try and work a bit, then get some breakfast from the market once it opened and go home to prepare to leave for the portal.