S.O.R.R.Y! Guys, I know you've been waiting for this for a week, and I admit it..this isn't the best piece of work but I like it. You see...I would have updated sooner if it wasn't for the new book idea that came to me and I started working on. So...I can't promise I will update everyday, but I'll do my best!
VI.- Conversations With My Therapist
Takeru was nervous.
He was sitting on a sofa in front of a psychiatrist. His new doctor was a middle aged man with black hair, black eyes and pale skin, a little bit overweight.
The tide had turned; his friends and brother had insisted that he saw a doctor as soon as possible, so there he was, seeing a therapist for the first time. He had let Phoenix get control of him. He had let the darkness within take the worst of him and it consumed him from the inside out, transforming him into a weak individual in facing an upcoming storm.
He looked down, not knowing what to say. He felt utterly, completely lost. Everything was happening so fast that he did not know how to proceed. Last week he had been a teenager preparing himself to struggle with the typical high school drama, but now things have changed. He had struggled with his alter-ego for so long that he couldn't control him anymore.
Takeru was tired and weak, and wanted desperately to fix his mind, he wanted so bad to be a normal person with normal problems. He was tired of dealing with a psychotic alternate personality. It was a burden no one should carry.
He just hoped the psychiatric therapy was enough to control that monster that lived within him.
"So, Takeru…may I call you T.K.? I heard your brother calling you that way before coming in," said the doctor as he looked at his patient with a smile. Well, what he hoped could be considered a comforting smile.
Takeru sighed. "Yeah, I guess."
There was silence that lasted for a minute or so. Takeru didn't know how to approach the doctor and he as starting to feel the pressure of Phoenix, his alter-ego was trying to break free. However, the young teenager wasn't going to let himself lose the battle. He was going to fight his dark side with all his strength, even if he had to be admitted into a madhouse for that.
He started to twitch his eyes, and his hands started to tremble as he put them over his face, as if trying to hide a hideous face.
The doctor stood up and placed a hand over his patient's left hand. "Relax; there is nothing here that will hurt you. I know it is hard, but you have to tell me about your demons if we want to stop them from destroying you. Just relax, T.K…we'll fix you really soon."
Takeru felt a splitting headache start to pound him on the head; he was starting to lose his battle. However, he remembered his friends and remembered that he had to fight his demons for them. His friends and family were hoping he would get better soon. He couldn't just let himself lose the battle. "I…I don't know if I can…"
"Try to close your eyes," said the doctor as he stepped back, trying to give his patient space. "Breathe deeply and remember, this place is safe. No one can hurt you here."
"I can," said the voice of Phoenix, but Takeru did what he could to control his dark side, to keep him at bay.
Takeru won the battle.
After a few seconds of breathing heavily, the blond boy opened his eyes and found himself sweating with his heart racing. The doctor smiled at him, trying to be comforting. "It's ok, you'll be alright."
"I'm not so sure about that," said Takeru as he calmed down. "He's so much stronger than I am…I can contain him but I cannot control him. He's a cancer that's destroying me. Do you think we can defeat him?"
The doctor nodded. "I'm sure we can. We just need to medicate you and have psychotherapy together. With those two efforts combined, you will be alright. The disorder you have is really strange but I have dealt with it before. Soon, you will be ok. It will take a while but you'll find yourself happy again."
"Thanks," said Takeru honestly, with a tiny but truthful voice. "For a long time I've been wondering how to stop Phoenix from taking over. It's…good to know that I'm going to get help. Even if I have to be branded a lunatic and be on pills."
"You're not a lunatic," said the doctor with s serious look. "You're just a divided soul. I spoke to your brother before the sessions started. He told me your parents divorced when you were very little…and then he told me that you were one of the children that saved the world years ago. So much stress destroyed your mind, dividing it into two. It was a defense mechanism. But I believe that with real professional help, we can fuse together those divided parts. Soon Phoenix will be gone and you will be free."
Takeru smiled faintly, even though he could feel Phoenix starting to manipulate his feelings…but he wouldn't have it. He would fight until the very end.
"So, since when have you felt Phoenix inside your head?" asked the psychiatrist as he looked at his patient with a professional look, taking notes.
Takeru looked down and bit his lip. "I don't know. I guess since my parents split up. I was feeling very lonely…even with my brother by my side. So I guess I created a 'friend' to confide with. I never knew that my new friend would become my worst enemy."
Matt was biting his nails. He was worried.
He was out of the doctor's office, waiting for the session to end. He was being accompanied by Tai, Kari, Sora (his redhead girlfriend), Patamon and Gatomon. They were all waiting for the moment the doors would open and Takeru would exit with what they hoped was a comforted look.
"Gee Matt, relax, you're eating up your fingers," said Tai as he looked at his best friend with a comforting look. "He'll be alright; Joe told us this doctor was one of the greatest psychiatrists in Odaiba. Surely T.K. is having a hard time but we must remain calm if we want him to be whole. If we lose our heads, he will most likely lose his' as well."
"Tai's right," said Sora as she rubbed his boyfriend's back. Her look was one of worry but at the same time she tried to stay serene. "He'll be alright, Matt…just relax."
Matt grunted. "I can't relax when my brother is being mentally tormented."
Kari nodded, understanding that her friend had every reason to be altered. "I understand Matt. T.K. is being haunted by a second psychotic personality…as much as I want to lie still and think that everything will be alright, I'm starting to think we're facing a new enemy."
"And this one is even more threatening, because it is our friend," said Gatomon, knowing the extent of the danger this duel personality represented. "This monster has to be eradicated before he destroys T.K. and us along with it."
Patamon just looked to the door with watery eyes. "Oh, T.K…."
Then the door opened.
Everybody looked up and saw Takeru with a hopeless look on his face; however, he looked more at peace than before. By his side was the doctor, who had a serious expression. Everybody waited for a commentary or something; the silence that had taken control of the waiting room had turned into a smothering force.
"T.K.!" exclaimed Patamon and rushed to the arms of his partner and best friend.
The blond teenager hugged his small orange friend tightly. "Oh, Pata…"
Matt walked to them and placed an arm around his brother protectively, half-hugging him. He was trying to be as supportive as he could, but it was out of the realm of his possibilities to help his mentally conflicted brother.
"Doctor?" asked Tai and looked at the professional therapist with an expectant look.
The doctor handed Tai a small flask with medicine. He looked at the brunette with a serious look. "He has to take two of these pills every night. He will feel very, very drowsy for the rest of the day, for a while…but it is important that he takes them. It will keep his brain stable and his second personality at bay."
"We'll all see that he gets through the treatment, doctor," said Sora, and they all nodded.
Kari walked towards her human best friend and kissed him in the cheek. "Don't worry, T.K…everything will be alright."