Safe and Sound
I hold my breath a little bit longer than I should, I sigh as I see him through the small crowd of the Rammer Jammer. I don't know how to tell him, but I need to be there for him, I need to tell him what is happening. I watch him walking behind the counter of the bar, his stupid grin spread on his face. He waves for me behind the counter, his grin just wider now that he sees me. Well, I need to go there now, he already saw me. As I talk to him I see his smile slowly fading from his face, and his face deepens in darkness that I have never see in him before.
I remember tears streaming down your face
When I said, I'll never let you go
When all those shadows almost killed your light
I remember you said, don't leave me here alone
But all that's dead and gone and passed tonight
We both look a bit of out of place on these chairs. His face looks empty, I never see him like that. I didn't know what expect from him, but I don't know I guess I expect that he react in some way, maybe good, bad, cry, laugh, whatever, but just react. I used to love the hospital, all that movement, the long white corridors, the cold air, but now this place is almost burying me alive, it's like I'm freezing to death here. I just can stand be here sitting and don't do anything. I guess, I could at least get up, be outside and watch the sun.
As I'm moving to get up, I feel his grip grab my wrist really tight. I backed on the chair and as I look to his face I saw something, a little darkness in his eyes, I guess it is sadness. He looks me now direct in the eyes and his voice gets just above a whisper as he says to me "Please stay here by my side". I saw a struggled tear stream down the corner of his left eye. And as he loses the tight on my wrist I put my hand lightly above his. Once again I met his gaze and
"You know I will never let you go". I say with all the strength that I could find in that moment.
Just close your eyes
The sun is going down
You'll be alright
No one can hurt you now
Come morning light
You and I'll be safe and sound
I don't really remember sleeping, but by the sun setting outside the window I guess I slept quite a lot. I guess it natural after all I was just really tired after we got from Earl's funeral. I see that Wade is not sleeping. He has his eyes open looking blankly to her ceiling, well, technically their ceiling, since they live together for a while now. I touch gently his arm, as it to test if he really is awake. He looks at her as blankly as he was looking at the ceiling, give him a quick peck in the lips, as it to reassure to herself that he is really there at her side.
"You should try to get some sleep" I talk in what I hope is a sweet tone of voice.
"Why?" He asks me back, looking again at the ceiling.
"Why?" He says it again, but this time he is looking right at me and this time I really don't know what he is asking me about.
I take a really deep breath, I sincerely don't know how to act, I really don't deal with feelings very well, I just hug him and for my surprise he hugs me back, he holds me with a strength that I never had felt. Our heads buried in each other neck.
"You will be alright, we'll be alright" I whisper just above his ear.
He just gives me a light kiss in my hair, as if to agree with me, to reassure we are safe. I know we will be alright, we always are. Even after all, even after fights, even after hate, even after sadness we'll be safe and sound. I just keep humming this song in his ear, I know that he likes, I know that I like. Eventually he falls sleep, but I keep awake just to check if he is alright.
Don't you dare look out your window
Darling, everything's on fire
The war outside our door keeps raging on
Hold onto this lullaby
Even when the music's gone