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Painful memories:

She's running up to the huge guy from 4. She slashes her axe at the guy, but he dodges and hits her in the back with the hilt of his sword. She falls to the ground and the guy tries to thrust the sword on her chest, but she rolls over and kicks him in the legs. He stumbles backwards and she uses that moment to stand up. She attacks him, but he blocks and slashes his sword hitting her in the stomach opening a huge gash. She starts to bleed a lot, but that doesn't stop her. She picks up her axe and attacks him viciously over and over again. Finally she kicks him in the stomach so hard he falls down about 5 feet away, she throws her axe with an incredible precision and it lands on the guy's head breaking his skull and killing him instantly. She is breathing heavily and she smiles as they announce her winner of the 71st annual Hunger Games, then she falls to the ground unconscious and I don't know if she'll ever wake up…


I'm breathing heavily and I'm sweating like crazy even though it's April and it's freezing cold outside. I've had that dream like a million times since Johanna went to the games, 4 years ago, and it still terrifies me just like it did when it actually happened. But Johanna is safe, she's right beside me on the bed sleeping peacefully. I want to leave something very clear before you start asking questions. Johanna is here in my house only and exclusively for sleeping.

Why is Johanna Mason sleeping in the same bed than me? Simple. The first time it happened was 3 years ago. Johanna woke me up in the middle of the night because she had a nightmare. I helped her through it and comforted her as best as I could. I asked her why she hadn't come to me before and she told me she used to go with her brother Alex when she had nightmares. I felt bad for asking, the Capitol tried to turn Johanna into a prostitute and when she refused they killed her brother and mother. They made it look like an accident, but both of us knew they wanted to kill them. After spending hours just talking we both fell asleep and we started going to each other's houses whenever either of us had a nightmare, it really helped. Sometimes.

Anyway, I can't sleep any longer after that dream so I stand up careful not to wake Johanna up and go to the bathroom. I wash my face and look at myself in the mirror. I've changed so much since I won the games, 7 years ago. To begin with now I'm 6 feet 1 and I look like an adult now. I'm still thin, but not you-can-see-my-bones thin, if you look at me, you can tell I work out and you can tell I'm stronger than most people. My hair is short and it's a total mess, like usual. I'm one of the most easily recognizable victors because of the scar. I have a scar right across my face, I'm the only victor with any kind of physical scars, because the venom that makes this scars incurable was only used in my games. I hate them, they're a constant reminder of my games and everything the Capitol has taken away from me. The Capitol… I hate it, I hate it more than I've ever hated anything. Thank God the rebellion will start soon and we'll be able to stop them from doing what they did to me to anybody else again. Funny, if the Capitol hadn't destroyed my life I probably wouldn't be part of the rebellion. The reminder of my dad's death is what pushed me to become a part of it in the first place.

''Nike…'' she says ''Y-your dad… He's dead''

I feel like somebody had punched me on the nose and I'm angry, you would think I would be sad, but I'm extremely angry. ''No. No! NO!'' I say and I sweep my hand across the kitchen counter knocking plates, cups, portraits with my hands. It all breaks, but it doesn't makes me feel any better. I press my back against the wall and I slide down until I'm sitting on the floor. I hold my head with my hands as tears start streaming down my face, anger replaced by sadness. Johanna sits down beside me and she puts her hand on my shoulder. I almost tackle her with a hug and cry on her shoulder. She lets me and doesn't say anything, she only strokes my back until I calm down.

''H-how d-did it happened?'' I ask her

She tells me, the day Dante died and I won the games my dad was asked to do a delivery in the Capitol. He was happy, he thought he may be able to see me while he was in the Capitol. Then it happened, when he was on the train. There was a fire, the fire mixed with the gasoline in the internal motors and there was an explosion. So my father died burned alive, just like my mom did.

The day after there's a memorial service for him. It is supposed to be a small thing, but almost every person in the district shows up. I don't know all of them, and been honest it would've been better if there hadn't been so many people. Most of them just wanted to meet me, less than half of them was there because of my dad. Eventually they all leave, but Johanna stays with me until it's way past night time and I'm extremely grateful for her company.

That was only the beginning. Douglas, my boss and friend, died just a few months after, killed by peacekeepers supposedly for murder, about a year afterwards my friends from school and co workers died in all kinds of accidents. At first I didn't realize all those deaths were the capitol doing, it became clear when I was 17 and Johanna was reaped. The Capitol was trying to kill everyone I cared about, they didn't expect Johanna to come back alive though.

All those memories are extremely painful and I just can't take it. I go downstairs to the kitchen and pour myself a glass of vodka. I admit it, I've been drunk quite a few times, I started drinking when Johanna went to her games, seeing her getting hurt was too much for me to take. But I'm trying to control it though, but sometimes I just need to drink.

''Isn't it a little too early to be drinking, Scarface?'' Johanna says behind me.

I turn around to face her, Johanna changed a lot too. All her childish features are gone and she looks like a grown woman, I'm about 6 inches taller than her, she's thin and her brown hair is a little longer than it was when we were children. She's still beautiful. Been honest, I've been having a huge crush on her ever since I won my games, I doubt I'll ever do anything about it, but it makes it kind of difficult for me to be with her without staring at her ''It's not too early, Jo. It's almost noon''

''Seriously?!'' she says ''I overslept again?! Do you drug me when I'm here or something?''

I laugh ''Nah, you're just lazy all by yourself''

She punches my arm playfully and takes my glass and drinks what's left of the vodka. ''Wasn't it too early to drink?''

''Yeah, well you prove me wrong'' she says ''Besides tonight they announce what the quarter quell will be!''

''Oh joy. I forgot about that'' I say kind of wanting to get another glass of vodka, or maybe whiskey? I'm such an alcoholic ''Today we'll see from what horrible situation we have to defend some kids of!''

''Yeah…'' she says ''Do you mind if I watch the announcement alone?''

I could understand her. Johanna didn't show it, but she really cares about our tributes and it killed her when last year both of our tributes, 2 poor kids who worked in the woods, died in the bloodbath. ''No, don't worry I don't mind'' I say.

''You're great, Nikey'' she says ''Just don't drink a lot while I'm not here''

''Fine, but you can't drink either''


''No, if I don't drink you don't drink either'' I say ''And don't call me Nikey''

''Fine…'' she says ''And I call you whatever I want, Scarface''

Johanna is always like that, it'll surprise me if she ever does everything I ask her. We spend most of the day together, working in the woods, and talking about the rebellion. The plan is pretty cool, we are going to use the quarter quell as our distraction, when everybody is watching the games we will escape in a hovercraft from district 13, taking the tributes we can from the arena. In district 13 we are going to keep planning and helping the uprising all over Panem, and then, after we have control of the districts we take the Capitol and execute President Snow. That's basically it, there are plenty of more things and details that I won't talk about, but it's almost sure that this rebellion won't fail, not as long as the people we need cooperate.

At 7 thirty I'm back in my house alone, waiting for the announcement of what will happen in the quarter quell and what we'll have to expect. When the program finally starts they don't show us what'll happen on the quell immediately, they start with Caesar talking with the stylist from 12, Cinna. I've met Cinna a few times, he's a great guy and he's helping in the rebellion, trying to turn Katniss into a symbol. They talk for a while and then there are shoots of Katniss wearing a wedding dress. Oh, right… I completely forgot the Capitol wanted to marry Peeta and Katniss. They're idiots if you ask me, it was clear Katniss and Peeta weren't in love, maybe they cared for each other, but love? No. Still they did a good job, the Capitol bought it and the districts now consider Katniss the head of the rebellion, what we call The Mockingjay. I gotta say, I admire Katniss, she was able to keep 2 tributes alive, something I tried during my games, but wasn't successful.

I'm taken out of my trance when President Snow makes his appearance. He walks up the stage followed by a little boy in a white suit, and the boy is carrying a wooden box. President Snow proceeds to tell us everything there is to know about the games, why they were created, Treaty of Treason and why we celebrate the Quell. Then he tells us what happened in each quell.

''On the twenty fifth anniversary, as a reminder to the rebels that their children were dying because of their choice to initiate violence, every district was made to hold an election and vote on the tributes who would represent it'' Elections? That must've been horrible, been chosen by your district to die…

''On the fiftieth anniversary'' Snow continues ''as a reminder that two rebels died for each Capitol citizen, every district was required to send twice as many tributes'' I saw recaps of those games, Haymitch won those games. Haymitch is the mentor for district 12, I know him, I worked with him a few times when our tributes allied and he's also a major part in the rebellion, most of all because he mentored Katniss and Peeta.

'' And now we honor our third quarter quell'' The kid steps up the podium and slowly opens the lid of the box he's carrying. Snow pulls out an envelope with the number 75 clearly marked on it. He opens the envelope and pulls a small square of paper. He reads without hesitation '' On the seventy-fifth anniversary, as a reminder to the rebels that even the strongest among them cannot overcome the power of the Capitol, the male and female tributes will be reaped from their existing pool of victors''

I'm out of the house before I even register what had happened. It's raining and only a second after I stepped out I'm dripping wet, but I don't care. I don't care that I might be going back to the arena, I don't care that this quell might ruin the rebellion. The only thing I care about is that there's only one female victor in district 7 still alive and she has to go to the games.

Johanna is going back to the arena, and it's my fault.

I hope you all like this chapter even though it was a little slow going, but it was kind of a way of telling all of you what happened during all those 7 years. Please read and review! Even if it's just one word it'll be enough! Also, I just started school so I might not be able to update as many times as I would like, still I'll try to update once a week.