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The door creaked open, the hinges groaning in protest. I took a small step forward, the hairs on the back of my neck standing up. Something was wrong. Something was so wrong. I took another step into the house that I used to feel at home in. For some reason, I felt completely lost in the dark room.
"Mom?" I called out, hoping for some comfort. The furniture had been turned upside down. The glass vase on the table next to the couch was shattered. It looked like someone had taken a jack hammer to my house. I swallowed the awful feeling of dread and walked further into what used to be my home but was nothing more than a bunch of walls.
"Dad?" I had hoped for a response. Any sort of response but I got nothing. I stepped up the stairs as slowly as I could, despite the growing feeling that I should run far, far away from this place. I felt my blood run cold when a stair creaked under my weight but I forced myself forward.
My parents' room was at the end of the hallway with the door slightly ajar. I cautiously brought my hand up, hoping that my parents would jump out and laugh and say it was all a big joke. As I pushed the large white door, my breath caught in my throat, my heart literally stopped and my entire body went numb.
There were my mom and my dad. The people that raised me. The people that taught me right from wrong. The people that loved me unconditionally. Dead.
I jolted up in bed, a scream ripping through my throat. I felt Ren jump at the noise next to me as I jerked her awake too.
"Bella?" She gasped, looking around the room quickly for any type of threat. I whimpered loudly, feeling the tears spill over my eyes. "Sweetie, what's wrong?" She asked, slowly, obviously a bit relieved that we didn't seem to be in danger.
"It's my fault," I choked out. "I killed them." Ren was quiet for a moment and I would have thought that she didn't understand my rambling but I know she does.
"Don't say that," she whispered softly. She had brought her hand up but thought about it for a second before dropping it, knowing that right now is not the best time to touch me.
"It's all because of me," I whispered, broken. I killed them. I killed my parents.
"No," Ren spoke firmly now. "It is not your fault Bella. You-"
"It's my fault!" I screamed. "They're dead because of me! Because of the freaking monster I am, Renesmee!"
"Stop!" She ordered. "Do not put yourself through this." I shook my head and turned to her, knowing that I must look like a wreck. "Isabella Marie Swan," she started in a warning tone. "You are not responsible for their deaths."
"Don't you get it?!" I yelled in her face, finally breaking down. In a way, it felt really good to get this off my chest. "He knew I was there! You know full well that our blood smells different-"
"Only to people that know about us," she interrupted.
"How do we know he didn't? It's my fault! If I wasn't this awful monster-"
"Damn it, Bella," Ren groaned.
"No!" She screamed cutting me off and grabbing my arm, silently tell me to shut the hell up. I bit my tongue. "You did not do anything wrong. You did not kill them. It had nothing to do with what you are. He was a sadistic bastard. He was. Not you. Now stop blaming yourself for something that was out of your control."
I was speechless after her rant. I mean, how do I respond to that? What she said made sense, but I still couldn't shake off that feeling that it was somewhat my fault though.
I woke up before Ren did in the morning. I rolled away from her slightly and stared at the ceiling, contemplating what I was going to do today. I know Ren had suggested giving Alice a chance and I agreed that it was a good idea but I was honestly a bit scared. I don't know if I can let her in. I don't know if I can trust her. I've already told her a lot but I've barely scraped the surface of who I really am. Will she still want to stick around when she learns about what I've done?
All I know at the moment is that I hated feeling like I did yesterday. Vulnerable. Sad. Pathetic. I took a deep breath and decided to push everything from yesterday out of my mind. I'm Bella Swan. I'm one of the few hybrids on this planet. I'm Alice's mate, yes, but that doesn't mean I have to be all lovey-dovey and crap. No. That's not me. I sighed and hopped out of the bed, careful to not wake up Ren.
I am going to give Alice a chance, I thought. But I'm not going to pretend to be someone that I'm not.
I took a quick shower and got dressed into a black V-neck t-shirt, a black leather jacket, and grey skinny jeans. By the time I exited the bathroom, Ren was awake and looking at me with a confused expression.
"What?" I mumbled. She raised an eyebrow and shrugged. "I'm gonna take the bike to school so you can have the truck." She nodded slowly before responding.
"Are you sure you're okay to go t-" I cut her off
"I'm fine," I snapped. Ren rolled her eyes as I had a sudden sense of déjà-vu. I sighed and tried again. "I'm okay, Ren. I promise." She nodded slightly but still looked unsure. I gave her what I hoped to be a reassuring smile as I grabbed my backpack and my keys. "Tell Jake sorry about yesterday!" I called up to Ren once I had walked down the stairs.
"Call me if you need anything," she murmured as she emerged at the top of the staircase. I nodded and winked at her before opening the door. I was met with the cool Forks air and I took a deep breath before walking over to my baby and pulling my leg over the seat. I felt the bike purr to life and the familiar rumbling sound filled my ears.
As I sped down the streets, I tried to keep my mind from wandering to Alice, but I couldn't help it. How am I supposed to act around her? Are we technically together now? Would I be okay with that?
Questions flew through my mind. When I finally pulled into the parking lot of the school, I couldn't stop my eyes from scanning the lot until they landed on the familiar set of flashy cars with the pale teenagers surrounding them. Alice's eyes caught mine first and she smiled softly. I forced my eyes away as I parked the bike. I shut the engine off, took off my helmet, slung my backpack on, and stood up off the bike. While I was doing this, a certain Cullen had made his way through the parking lot over to me. In the short second it took for me to turn away from my bike, he was in my face.
"I want you to stay away from my family," he ordered, a growl building up in his chest. I felt my hands start to tremble again a little but I forced a smirk on my face.
"And I want you to get out of my face," I remarked sarcastically. By now, the other Cullens had caught up to us and Alice was standing partially in the middle of us, but was really standing to the side since Edward was so freaking close to me.
"Edward," the bulky guy, Emmett, warned quietly. "We're in the middle of the parking lot. We don't want to cause a scene, do we?"
Edward didn't respond to his brother. His glare grew darker. I had to stop myself from faking a yawn. Even though I'm sure his reaction would have been hilarious, I did agree with Emmett in that I didn't want to create a scene.
"You heard what Carlisle said last night, Edward," Jasper chimed in. My smirk grew.
"Aw got told off by Daddy?" I mocked. Edward's lips twitched into a smirk.
"Edward don't-" Alice practically yelled next to me but Edward ignored her.
"At least I have a father," Edward sneered. Now that pissed me off. How dare he bring up my parents. I felt my fist clench as I prepared to beat the shit out of him but a small, cool hand clamped down on my wrist. I tried to pull my arm free from Alice's grasp but I was only met with her soft eyes as she shook her head softly. I huffed and pushed myself as close to Edward as I could get, my eyes level with his and my nose less than an inch away from his.
"You are so going to regret saying that," I managed to say in a dark, menacing tone. It must have shocked him a bit as his eyebrows twitched. Most of the other Cullens seemed to falter at my warning as well. Emmett snapped out of it and shoved Edward off of me before pushing his away and whispering harshly at him.
I felt myself relax considerably the further Edward got away from me. I kept my eyes glued to him until he and Emmett walked behind one of the school buildings. I continued to glare at the wall of the building for a few seconds until the bell rang, which snapped me out of it. I turned back and realized that all the other Cullens had left, other than Alice of course, who still had a good grip on my wrist. I looked down at her hand and sighed.
"Alice," I whispered. Her eyes snapped up to mine and the dark color softened quickly back into the liquid gold that suits her best. Her lips twisted into a little smile and her grasp on my wrist slackened. She didn't completely let go. No. She slid her fingers over my wrist, grazing my palm softly, before sliding her fingers over mine and dropping her hand back to her side. A little playful gleam came into her eyes as she did this and I shook my head before turning as I started to walk to class. Alice hopped over to me and walked next to me silently, our hands brushing every so often. I couldn't help but wonder if she was doing this on purpose, just to see how I'd react.
We made it into Mr. Mason's room just before the bell. I could tell he was a little upset at that but since we didn't technically break any rules, he couldn't punish us so he kept his mouth shut. We both walked to the back of the room and sat down.
Mr. Mason was giving a lecture today about themes in books and how to determine them. Since English is one of the easiest subjects for me, this meant this class would be boring as hell. I settled back in my chair and sighed. After a few minutes, I noticed how much my eyes were sticking to the clock. This is ridiculous, I thought. I let my eyes wander over to Alice, who was paying attention to the teacher. When she realized that my eyes were on her, she turned in her seat and looked at me with her eyebrows furrowed. I shrugged and shook my head. She continued to look confused as she grabbed her pencil, flipped to the back of her notebook and began writing. I thought she had started taking notes of what Mr. Mason was teaching but when she slid the notebook over to me, I realized that she had written a note for me.
She had written in perfect cursive. I rolled my eyes. Of course she did. She's a freaking vampire.
Yeah. Bored, I wrote back and slid the notebook over to her. Her lips twitched as she read it and she started to write back.
I know, me too. How many times have you taken this class? Well that's an odd question. I felt my eyebrows furrow as I thought about what she meant. I told her that I'm twenty-three. Maybe she thinks that means that I've graduated high school more than once. She must have, then. Jeez she's ninety-two. How many times has she graduated? I decided to try and evade the question.
We playing twenty questions? I hoped that she got the sarcastic undertone of that.
You want to? Did I want to? I did have a few questions for her. But twenty questions entails questions for both sides. That means I might have to answer some. I must have been taking too long to respond because Alice pulled the notebook back and wrote more. We don't have to. After I read that, I looked up and was met with her golden eyes and a sincere smile. I rolled my eyes and grabbed my pen.
Okay. But I have the right to pass. Alice smirked when she read this. She looked up at me and nodded.
We'll start easy then. Favorite color? She wrote perfectly. God, I envied her writing style.
Really? Wow. Okay. Black. You? Alice chuckled quietly at my response.
Shocker. And yellow. Where's Renesmee today? Why does she care? I bit my lip and wondered if I shouldn't tell her. I couldn't see any reason why I shouldn't.
The reservation. She's talking to Jacob. How come Nettie doesn't come to school? We're started to get deeper into the actual questions.
She has a hard time with our "diet." And Jacob Black?
Yeah. And yes we know what they are. So your family really feeds on animals? I slid the notebook back to Alice and watched her stiffen up slightly. She glanced around the room before responding.
I told you we did. Barely anything but deer around here though. Why is she at the reservation? I couldn't help but notice that she was seriously curious about where Ren was. I couldn't help but be a little suspicious.
I told you, she's talking to Jake. Why do you care? I know I practically just wasted a question but still. Alice huffed and I realized that she actually looked a little pissed off. She had that cute expression on her face.
Are you still dating her? Now I don't play twenty questions often but I'm pretty sure she was supposed to answer my question first. It took me a moment to realize that she had potentially answered my question. She was worried that I was still with Ren. I could have played a bit with this fact but I didn't want to make Alice and more upset.
No. She's with Jake, now. Jealous? I couldn't not have any sighed but visibly relaxed.
Well, she moves on fast. And no. Maybe. Shut up. When did you break up? I was smirking up until the question.
Now that's not quite fair, see she's Jake's equivalent of a mate. Didn't really have a choice. And I can't exactly tell you a day. We got into a fight the night that we met your family. I guess then.
How did your family take the explanation last night? I had written quite a bit and when I passed it back to her, I could tell from her expression that she didn't think I'd write that much. I don't know why I told her about that fight. Now that I think back on it, we fought because I moaned out Alice's name. I just hope that she doesn't ask what cause the fight.
My dad was really interested. He loves learning about new things. Everyone else was curious and slightly confused except Edward who threw a hissy fit. Sorry about him this morning by the way. What did you fight about? Well, shit. I bit my lip. I didn't want to have to pass on a question but I suppose I have to on this.
It's not your fault. And pass… I handed back the notebook to her. Her eyebrows furrowed and she sighed rather loudly before looking up at me and pouting. My heart clenched and I almost gave in and told her. When she realized that I really wasn't going to tell her, she grabbed her pencil again.
Bella, was all she wrote. She gave me the notebook expectantly.
Alice, I responded with. She rolled her eyes.
Fine. You either answer that question or tell me who your donor is, she practically demanded through her writing. I huffed and responded.
You know I can't do that.
Then tell me what you fought about. Who knew she was so stubborn? I just sat, staring at the last comment for a few minutes. Alice sighed loudly next to me again before taking the notebook and writing more. Come on, Bella, please? She handed it back to me with that damn pout. I felt my jaw clench as I forced down a groan. I grabbed my pen.
What about me? I had just finished reading her question when the bell rang. Saved by the bell! Damn, that was good timing. I handed Alice her notebook as I gathered my stuff. I could tell she was still a little pissed that I hadn't completely answered her question. She shoved her stuff into her bag and reluctantly followed me to our next class. I was smiling the whole way.
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