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haunted by you
tracy beaker returns fanfiction


she's eleven
years old &
already lives
in fear because
of her sick &
twisted mother.

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if it wasn't
scrubbing her
fragile body
so hard with
a scrubbing
brush that her
skin bled. it
was holding
her head under
the water until
she passed out
but that wasn't
all her mother
did to her.

/

the emotional
neglect she
could deal with.
the physical
abuse she could
but there was
elements of
sexual abuse
involved too.

/

her mother
touched her
and so did
her big brothers
and it hurt. and
scarred her so
much that she
could no longer
sleep in a room
with people
because their
breathing scared
her.

/

she remembers
all the times she
was told to be
good, given sweets
in return for all the
disgusting things
she did to her
mother and brothers.
she was told she
was a good girl,
told she was special
and she never once
thought it was wrong.

/

but it was.
it was very
wrong and now,
aged eleven as
she lay underneath
the table in the
kitchen; she remembered
all the things she
didn't want to remember.

/

and she can't get
rid of the memories,
no matter how hard
she closes her eyes.
because it's there,
in the back of her
mind; waiting to
pop up like a jack
in the box. and
she just wants
to forget everything
her mum and her
brothers did to her.

/

her childhood's taken,
her childhood's scarred.


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