Finding Family

Author: GleekShip

Spoilers: Season 4

Summary: When Jake first comes to Lima, he seeks out his brother.

Pairings: Kurt/Jake!Friendship Puck?Kurt

Finding Family

Kurt gulps and waits.

He has to make the first move. This is all him.

Kurt listens to the silence a bit more, only interrupted by the busy life of New York around him. But he's not listening to that. He's listening to his boyfri- . . . Puck's breath.

I don't even know if we're boyfriends anymore. It's been so long since we've actually talked.

"Kurt . . ." Kurt closes his eyes and can't help the shiver that runs through his body.

"Noah-"

"Jake." Puck quickly interrupts him. "J-Jake. He s-said something about Burt." Kurt nods slowly to himself. "Something about cancer. P-prostate cancer." Puck's voice is full of nervousness. "Jesus Kurt. Please tell me it isn't true. Please."

Kurt gulps before nodding, his face sad. "I-it's true Noah."

Puck's breath hitches. Kurt holds the phone close to his ear and he can hear the other boy crying, small sobs coming from his throat. Kurt brings his hand to his mouth in time to catch his shaky breath.

He loves dad as much as I do.

"Is he . . . what all do you know?" Puck asks, his voice thick with tears and emotion.

Kurt lets out a shaky breath. "I . . . I know s-some stuff, but I'm not going to tell you anymore. I-I don't want to think about it."

"But I need to-" Puck cuts himself off. "Sorry. I shouldn't be making you talk about this."

Kurt bites his lip. "Then what will we talk about, Noah." Kurt's voice becomes stronger as built up anger starts pouring out. "What Noah? If we can't talk about my dying dad, then what? What will we talk about? Will we talk about how you'll only talk to me when my dad starts to die? How . . . how pathetic are you? You go months without talking to me, just to call me now!"

Kurt is heaving into the phone as he finishes.

Finally. Damn that feels good to yell.

Kurt's eyes narrow when he can hear Puck's sobs become louder.

"I'm sorry Kurt." Puck apologizes. "So sorry. I was just . . . so ashamed. So pathetic. You were right Kurt. I am pathetic. I'm a pathetic low life who's going to be stuck in Lima for the rest of my life."

"No Noah." Kurt lets out a shaky breath as he tries to calm down. "I didn't mean to say that. I don't think that and I know that you can never be pathetic." Puck scoffs, but Kurt continues. "I've just had a really bad day."

"Still though, I really am pathetic Kurt." Puck's voice goes quiet. "I can't even do anything right. Hell, I even have to move back to this god forsaken town because I can't even hold it together without going back to the old ways."

"Noah-"

"And now I've lost you." Puck breaks out into a new round of sobs.

"You haven't lost me Noah." Kurt reassures him. "You will never lose me. You just need to help me understand. Like what do you mean you're moving back? And old ways?"

"I can't Kurt." Puck chokes on his tears. "I can't talk to you about this. I don't want you to stop loving me. You can't stop loving me."

"I'll never stop, Noah. I'll never stop." Kurt can feel the tears threaten to break from his eyes.

"You will. You're going to wake up one day and want to leave me." Puck's voice is broken.

"I-"

"And then you'll be wondering why you got with a guy that had to go back to cleaning pools. That shows you right there that I'll be a Lima Loser for the rest of my life, no matter where I am. I'll be stuck in this pathetic loop and not be the guy you deserve. I-" Puck cuts himself off with a hiccup.

Kurt narrows his eyes as his mind slowly processes Puck's behavior. "Hang on. Have you been drinking?" Another hiccup and Kurt nods to himself. "You have haven't you? You're drunk."

"I'm not drunk." Puck argues. "I just needed something."

"Something strong enough to tell me everything that you're actually feeling instead of me having to actually dig for once." Kurt chuckles dryly. "Geez Noah. Where are you? Do you need-"

"I'm fine Kurt." Puck cuts Kurt off. "I'm with Finn. Or a sleeping Finn."

So he's at-

"Carole said she was staying with a sister or something while your dad visited you." Kurt nods as Puck continues. "And Finn passed out an hour ago. Dude can't handle his beer."

"I'm well aware of that Noah." Kurt sighs. "Can you . . . can you please stop drinking? Especially with your emotions already high."

"I know. I know." Puck's voice is full of tears again. "But it's Burt. Burt. He's been like a father to me for the past two years and now . . . I know it's worse for you. But I can't help but not love the guy."

"I know Noah." Kurt says softly. "But he'll be coming home soon. You can see him in a few days."

Puck snorts. "I haven't been able to talk to him since we brok-" Puck stops suddenly and Kurt feels his heart drop. "Kurt."

"Y-yes Noah." Kurt shuts his eyes and tries to control his breathing.

"Are we . . . did we break up?" Puck asks slowly. "Are we still together?"

Kurt lets out a shaky breath. "Well-" He hears Puck's breathing speed up. "That has always been up to you. You're the one that pulled away, the one that lied." Kurt hates being this brutally honest, especially to Puck, but he continues on. "So it's up to you now. Are you going to talk to me, or are you going to hide from me?" Kurt bites his lip before nodding to himself. "Think on it Noah."

"Can I call you?" Puck quickly asks.

"You can always call me." Kurt smiles sadly. "But make sure the next time that you do, you know where you stand with me."

Kurt hangs up and lets a few tears fall.


Sorry for the late update. I hope you've enjoyed this progression of sorts. But alas, the next episode is Sadie Hawkins and the introduction of Mr. Adam, so we shall see what will become of this Puckurt relationship. So let me know what you think.