Finding Family

Author: GleekShip

Spoilers: Season 4

Summary: When Jake first comes to Lima, he seeks out his brother.

Pairings: Kurt/Jake!Friendship Puck?Kurt

Finding Family

Puck lets Kitty drag him from the dance, both of them with full smiles. Just before he can even leave the place, he sees Jake staring him down with disapproval. It only takes a second, but they seem to have a quick conversation between their eyes.

"What the heck are you doing? What about Kurt?"

"It doesn't mean anything. I'm still with Kurt. And it's not like she's expecting anything."

"You're going to her car. She's expecting something."


"Do the right thing."

Puck blinks and looks away from his half-brother in the attempt to write the unsaid conversation away.

It hurts too much. I miss Kurt like crazy. But Jake's right, or he would be right if I actually gave him a chance to talk to me.

Puck sighs internally, not wanting Kitty to hear. The girl herself seems excited as she leads him through the empty halls of McKinley.

Kurt said no, but I'm sure he wouldn't mind if I didn't do anything that would be cheating. There's nothing wrong with hanging out, right? Unless something does happen. But-dang it. I can't do this. Dammit Noah. You're ruining things.

Kitty turns to him once they reach the doors to go outside and winks at him. "Be prepared to show me about this Puckerman Legacy that I've heard about."

Puck's eyes widen slightly as he's pulled outside into the cool and soft snowy night.

Shoot. She is expecting this, and I don't think there's anyway to play it off and still be cool.

Puck has to hold back a snort.

Why am I even thinking about this? I don't want anything with her. This was just to help Jake out. This isn't me anymore. It hasn't been me for years. It hasn't been me thanks to Kurt.

Just as they near Kitty's car, Puck pulls his hand from hers.

She turns to look at him. "What are you doing?"

"Sorry Kitty." Puck lets out a shaky breath. "But I can't do this. This isn't me and I have no desire to be with you."

"What are you talking about Bald-stuff?" Kitty's claws are coming out to play. "What happened to macho Puck? Flirty Puck? What's going on with you? You know we're out here to have some fun, right?"

"I do. I know." Puck shakes his head. "But I can't do this. I'm in a relationship."

"And you think I care?" Kitty smiles as she steps up to Puck and slowly reaches out to press her hand against his chest. "I can make you forget her."

"It's not a her." Puck growls as he shoves Kitty's hand off of his body. "I'm in a relationship with a guy." To say Kitty is shocked is an understatement. "A guy that I would happen to love. A guy that I've neglected tonight because I wanted to help my brother."

"Wait a second." Kitty moves back and shakes her head. "You're gay? As in capital G gay?"

"And I bottom too." Puck decides to throw in for Kitty's benefit, even if it's not a true thing all the time.

"Ugh!" Kitty's face wrinkles in disgust. "I can't believe that I found you attractive."

Puck chuckles as an idea pops into his head. "You did didn't you?"

"Whatever flamer. I'm out of here." Kitty goes to go back to the school, but Puck steps in front of her. "What are you doing?"

"Leave Jake alone." Puck narrows his eyes at her. "Otherwise everyone is going to know that you tried seducing a gay guy because you can't get anyone else to sleep with you."

Kitty's jaw goes slack for a second. "You wouldn't."

"Oh I would." Puck grins. "There's a lot I would do for family."

Kitty clenches her jaw before trying to look confident. "Fine. I still get to tell people that we're dating. For appearances only of course."

"Fine." Puck nods. "But Jake gets to know the truth and you still stop chasing after him. Let him be happy with whoever he wants to be with."

Kitty looks like she wants to argue, but she can't. "Fine. Now leave me alone."

Puck nods as Kitty turns to go back up to the school. Puck lets out a shaky breath before reaching into his jacket. He presses the first number that will always be on his speed dial and hits the call number. It takes a bit, but then he can hear the call go through and the breath of the love of his life come through.

"Hey Kurt."

Kurt can't help but laugh at Adam's jokes.

Adam smiles at him over his coffee. "So Kurt . . . how are you enjoying NYADA?"

Kurt smiles. "It's good. There are some benefits that I'm really enjoying."

"There are." Adam sits forward in his chair and smiles at Kurt. "Would I know what they are?"

"I don't think you would." Kurt shrugs, failing at hiding his smile.

Adam chuckles before standing up. Kurt watches as the British boy approaches him.

"Can I give you another benefit?" Adam asks as he sits on the arm of the cushioned chair of Kurt's.

Kurt's eyes flick down to Adam's lips and he smiles. "Sure."

Adam chuckles as he leans down, but stops when Kurt's phone goes off. "You're ringing."

Kurt chuckles before standing up and smiling at Adam. "I'll be right back."

"And I'll be keeping tour seat warm." Adam chuckles as he slides into the seat that Kurt was just occupying.

Kurt smiles and walks off. He pulls out his cell phone out as he crosses the small cafe. In Lima he would go outside to answer a call, but it's noisier here in New York so he goes to the guys bathroom. Once inside, he holds the phone up and sighs.

He lets out a shaky breath before holding the phone up to his ear.

"Hey Kurt." Kurt lets his eyes shut as he hears that voice.

"Noah." He licks his lips. "What are you-"

"I told you I was going to Sadie Hawkins with Kitty. Well that was tonight." Kurt freezes at the information, but Puck continues on. "But stop worrying Kurt. It's done. I figured out another way to help Jake."

"So . . . so you're not-"

"I was never with her Kurt." Puck's voice goes soft. "I will be with you until the day I die if I have my way. I love you Kurt. I love you and I'm sorry for everything that I've done these past few months. I miss you Kurt. Is there anything I can do to help you forgive me?"

Kurt feels the tears streaming down his face. "You don't have to do anything Noah. I love you too. I've just been waiting for you to realize this yourself."

He can hear Puck let out a relieved breath. "Thank you Kurt. Can I . . . can I see you now? an we Skype?"

"Ye-" Kurt cuts himself off.

Oh my god. I'm on a date with Adam. We almost kissed. We almost kissed and I'm Noah's. I belong with Noah.

Kurt lets out a shaky breath. "Can you give me half an hour or so? I need to finish eating and get Rachel out."

"Yeah." Puck agrees eagerly. "I just need to see you."

"I know." Kurt closes his eyes. "Me too."

"Great." Puck lets out a shaky breath. "I'm about to head home. See you soon?"

"Yeah. Yeah. See you soon." Kurt pushes away from the sink. "I love you."

"I love you too Kurt." Kurt can hear the boys truck starting in the background. "I love you so much."

The line goes dead and Kurt shuts his eyes.

Alright. Tell Adam I need to go home. This can't happen again. Friends yes, but I need to stop flirting so he knows I don't want more. I can't do more than be friends. I don't want to.

Kurt opens the bathroom and steps out, the only smile that he has now is for the boy that he'll be seeing on his computer screen when he gets home.

:) I hope you guys enjoy. This has been fun writing.