Sensing Time Chapter Three
It had been a month since Tea had broken down and finally told somebody the truth- that she had cancer and that she would die. John had been an amazing and supporting friend. He had even backed Tea when she told Dani that the loss of her eyesight was the result of the accident and explosion. John didn't understand why Tea needed to keep up the facade with her daughter. He thought that Tea needed to tell Dani the truth, but he also knew it wasn't his secret to tell.
Today, Tea was being released from the hospital and John felt nervous. He wanted to ask Tea and Dani to move in with him, but he didn't know if he should or how Tea would react. More than likely she would be angry and think that his proposal was because of her illness, but it wasn't just that. John had always admired the strong feisty lawyer that he knew her as, but since the accident they had grown closer and John wanted to spend as much time with her as he could.
"Okay John, be straight with me. What's wrong?" Tea asked when they got into his car. John had always been a silent observer ever since she met him, but today he was brooding more than usual. John had always seemed to have a self confidence and bravery about him that Tea had always admired, but ever since he came to pick her up from the hospital he seemed scared and unsure. Tea knew John well enough to know that something or someone was bothering him.
"Nothing's wrong, I just want to get you home," John said, he didn't know if today was the right time to tell her that he felt much more than friendship for her. His feelings for Tea had been growing despite his resolve to keep his feelings at bay. He didn't want to be in love with her. He had already lost one woman he loved to death and he didn't know if he could go through it all again. When his Caitlyn died a part of him died as well, he had fallen into a bottomless pit that he didn't know if he would ever get out again, but somehow he had made it to the other side. When John started falling for Tea, he had tried to stay away, but he couldn't., for whatever reason he was drawn to her and all he wanted to do was take her in his arms and show her how much she was loved.
"I'm blind John, not stupid. Something's bothering you. I thought we were friends."
"Then talk to me. You know, you were the first person I told about my illness. It was hard for me to open up but I did. Why can't you do the same?"
John pulled his car over to the side of the road and grabbed Tea's hand. "I want you and Dani to move in with me. I want to take care of you," John blurted out.
"What? You want me to move in with you? Why?" Tea asked.
"I want to take care of you."
Tea could feel the anger rising, this illness had reduced her to nothing but a damn charity case. Tea hadn't told Dani the truth because she knew that her daughter would drop everything to support her. Tea would not burden Dani that way and she certainly wouldn't be John's damsel in distress so that he could play boy hero. "Go to hell," Tea spat out as she opened up the car door and got out.
John opened up his car door and hurried to be by Tea's side."Tea you can't leave on your own. You could get hurt. I'll walk you wherever you want to go," John said trying to gain back control of the situation.
"I'm trying to get away from you. I am not an invalid; I've been taking care of myself my whole life, so I think I'll manage just fine without you."
"What if I'm not fine without you?" John whispered as he grabbed Tea's hand and brushed the hair out of her face with his other hand.
"Damn it Tea I didn't ask you to move in with me because I felt sorry for you. "I asked you because I'm falling in love with you."
" You can't John. I have no future to offer you. You can't be in love with me."
"It's a little late for that," John said as he grabbed Tea's waist and kissed her with all the passion that had been building in him since his life collided with hers.