"Never Let Me Go"
Every parting gives a foretaste of death, every reunion a hint of the resurrection ~ Arthur Schopenhauer
A piercing scream from Bonnie,
Pain and loss filling Klaus' eyes.
Everything faded and it was easier than she thought; she hadn't felt any pain just pressure, then she closed her eyes. Darkness surrounded her and she felt at peace.
"Bella," a familiar voice called.
She opened her eyes and she found herself floating and in front of her was a familiar figure.
"Daddy," she called.
Charlie came out of the mist and outstretched his hand. Bella grasped for it and he pulled her to him, embracing her tightly. Tears of joy escaped her.
"I've missed you so much," Bella cried.
"Shhh," Charlie said as he stroked his daughter's hair, "I know but I never left you."
"Where are we?" Bella asked.
"In the middle," Charlie said with a sad smile crossing his face "It isn't your time yet sweetheart."
"But," Bella started to argue.
"No," Charlie said gently, "I know how hard it is, I understand about wanting to give in, but you're fighter Bella; you always have been. Death is easy, simple but living is hard. You have to go back."
"Why?" Bella asked upset.
"Because you aren't done living." Charlie replied, "I am never going to leave you even though you can't see me, I am always with you."
"I don't want to go," Bella said, "I lost you and now I have you back."
"I know," Charlie said, "And I want you here with me but I know there is so much more you have to do, so much of life that you have left to live. There's so much for you there."
Suddenly images of Klaus and Jake flashed through her mind.
"They need you Bella," Charlie said knowingly, "It's not your time just yet." Charlie finished before he kissed Bella's forehead.
Bella felt something thump in her chest.
"Daddy no," she begged.
"It's okay," Charlie said reassuringly, "Don't fight it…just live."
"I love you daddy," Bella called as she slipped away.
She started to fall; the air rushing around her was pulling her back down and then suddenly she stopped falling. Her eyes shot open and she took in a deep breath. She could barely move; it was dark and cold. Slowly her eyes adjusted to the darkness before fear engulfed her. She started to hyperventilate as she frantically grasped the area around her. She finally found her voice and screamed as loud as she could but deep down, she knew no one could hear her.
She started to punch the surface above her before there was a huge cracking noise. Dirt started to fall on her face, causing her to punch harder. More and more wood cracked until finally dirt just completely fell in, covering her. She maneuvered herself and started dig through the dirt. The higher she climbed the harder the earth was until finally she was out. She placed her hands in the snow and pulled herself out of her grave.
She just laid there on the ground as she looked up into the night sky as she tried to slow her breathing. After a few minutes she shakily stood up before she tried to brush the dirt off of her. She took a step and stumbled falling; again shakily she stood up and gingerly took another step. She wrapped her arms around herself while trying to calm herself. She didn't know where she was and she started to wonder.
Bella walked along the road, holding herself while trying to figure out where she was. She walked into the woods before she heard howling and some cracking branches coming from somewhere close. She heard a growl from behind her and she started to run. She could hear the growling chase her as she ran faster through the woods and then she was knocked face down. She turned over and saw a huge black wolf standing over her, its teeth bearing at her.
Bella breathed struggling to speak, "Sam?" She asked her voice hoarse. The wolf stopped growling and backed away shocked.
"Sam," Bella repeated before she collapsed.
Sam immediately shifted into human form the moment Bella had collapsed. He ran through the woods to his house and kicked open the door.
"Sam?" Emily said scared, "What's wrong?" She froze the moment she saw Sam holding Bella. "Oh my god," she whispered.
"Get some blankets," Sam ordered before he went upstairs to place Bella in the bed.
Sam quickly put on some shorts while Emily entered the room with blankets.
"She's filthy," Emily said while covering Bella up, "Why is she so filthy?"
"Call Rebecca; tell her to get over here now," Sam ordered.
Emily froze, "Oh God Sam, her hands, their…" she couldn't finish her sentence.
Sam walked over and saw what Emily did; Bella's hands were bloody and dirty.
"Stay with her," Sam said before he rushed out of the house.
By the time he came back Rebecca Black was there and Emily met him at the door.
"Did she…" Emily trailed.
Sam just nodded and Emily broke down crying. Rebecca came down the stairs at the point.
"Well?" Sam asked while holding Emily.
"I've taken blood samples, but I won't know until I analyze them." Rebecca replied, "Where did you find her?"
"In the woods; I smelled something like vampires, but different. I chased her and when she said my name I got a good look at her and then she collapsed." Sam explained.
"Wait," Emily said, "Are you saying she's…"
"More than likely," Rebecca replied solemnly, "But I can already tell you she's different."
"How?" Sam asked.
"Well she's not deadly white like the Cold Ones and her eyes are still the same color, but she didn't have to be invited in like the other vampires. I'll have to run her blood to see." Rebecca explained, "Keep an eye on her and don't say anything to anyone. The last thing we need right now is for everyone to start flocking over here scaring her."
Bella's eyes fluttered open as she sat up to look around the room…her old room.
"Bella," Emily said timidly.
"Emily," Bella said; her throat was burning; she was thirsty.
"Get back Emily," Sam warned while pulling Emily out of the room. He stepped inside and approached Bella slowly, "Bella what do you remember?"
Bella thought back and suddenly all her memories came rushing back.
"How long?" Bella asked quietly but when Sam didn't answer, she said it with more force, "HOW LONG?"
"Two months," Sam replied.
"Where's Jake, Klaus and the others?" Bella asked becoming frantic.
Sam walked over and sat on the bed, taking her hands in his, "Calm down," he said gently, "They're fine. Jake is at the reservation with the others. Klaus I think is in London and the rest are still in Mystic Falls."
"What's happening to me?" Bella asked as she swallowed; she was so thirsty.
"Rebecca thinks that you still had vampire blood in your system and mixed with the venom it….it…." Sam couldn't finish his sentence.
"Am I one of them?" Bella asked her chest tightening, "Am I a Cold One?"
Sam chuckled, "No, though she thinks you might have some of their characteristics."
Bella started to cry and Sam pulled her into his arms to comfort her.
"It's going to be okay," He said.
Bella's head was resting by Sam's neck and suddenly she could hear the blood pulsing through his artery. Slowly that pulsing sound drowned out Sam's gentle words of comfort. Bella became entranced with the sound and then with the smell of Sam himself. Her mouth began to water and her gums started to hurt.
In an instant she felt something push through the skin of her gums and descend; Bella tried to pull away, but her instincts were telling her one thing…feed. Bella quickly placed her hand on the side of Sam's head, forcing him to expose his neck before she bit down.
The warm liquid entered her mouth and once she tasted it, she felt the burn in her throat start to subside. She was a predator in that moment and while her prey struggled against her, she kept him in place. Suddenly a yell brought her to her senses.
"Bella," Emily yelled from the door.
Bell quickly let go of Sam and moved away from him. She saw his neck wound before she started to cry.
"Oh my god I'm so sorry; I don't know what came over me." Bella said as she started to freak out.
Sam placed his hand over his wound and looked at Bella strange.
"I tasted good to you?" He asked confused.
"I don't know what happened," Bella repeated, "You were hugging me and suddenly I heard your blood pumping and I smelled you and I got so thirsty."
"It's okay," Sam said and smiled, "Emily why don't you take care of her, I'm going to clean up."
Emily walked over, but Bella shied away.
"Don't come near me," Bella said ashamed, "I don't want to hurt you or the baby."
Emily chuckled, "I think I'll be okay. This might be the difference Rebecca was talking about."
"What?" Bella asked confused and upset.
"Bella you are really different from the vampires and I think this proves it, but let's try something," Emily took a knife and cut her hand before she held it out to Bella, "Do you want some?"
Bella tried not to breath, but her primal side won and she took a deep breath, but she didn't attack. Emily's blood wasn't appealing to her…she didn't want it.
"No," Bella said while shaking her head confused.
"I think you only want to feed on supernatural blood," Emily said as she wrapped up her hand. "Rebecca is going to have field day with you." Emily said as she walked out the door to call out to Sam, "You stay away. I'll be fine with Bella." She came back into the room, "Do you want to clean up?"
Bella nodded and Emily led her to the bathroom.
An hour later, Bella was in clean clothes and sitting on her bed.
"You okay?" Emily asked while bringing her some tea.
"Well I'm dead first off," Bella said, "I have no idea where my boyfriend or best friend is and I'm some kind of cross between a Cold One and regular vampire that likes supernatural blood. I'm peachy."
Emily laughed, "It could be worse."
"How?" Bella asked.
Before Emily could answer, Rebecca walked in smiling.
"Heard you took a bite out of Sam," Rebecca said.
Bella looked away ashamed.
"Oh calm down, he's had worse," Rebecca said while rolling her eyes before she continued softly, "It's okay Bella."
"How is it okay?" Bella asked, standing up angrily.
"Bella," Emily said calmly, "You're gonna be okay."
"No I'm not," Bella said, "Everything is so screwed up in my head. I feel like I'm suffocating in here. I have to go."
"Bella you can't," Rebecca said.
"Try and stop me," Bella said as she headed for the window.
"Sam!" Emily called but she was too late.
Bella jumped out the window and ran.
Jake looked out over the cliffs as he sat there thinking like he did every day. His heart had a hole in it that couldn't be filled. When Rebecca called him to tell him that Bella was dead, he had dropped to his knees; it was like the air was taken out of him. When he got to Mystic Falls, he wanted to beat the hell out of Bella's friends because they were responsible but ultimately he knew no matter what Bella would have sacrificed her life for theirs.
"Jake," a voice said behind him in barely a whisper.
"Leah go away," Jake said while not looking at her.
"I'm not Leah," the voice replied speaking louder and Jake froze.
Slowly he stood up and turned around, "Bella," he said, staring at her in shock.
A smile spread across his face and he rushed forward, grabbing her into a big hug.
"I thought you were gone," Jake whispered into her hair before he took a deep breath but he froze, "Bella," he said carefully.
Suddenly Bella was eight feet away from her with her back to him.
"Don't look at me," Bella said as pain filled her voice.
"Bella," Jake said slowly as he walked towards her.
"No Jake, stay away. It isn't safe," Bella said without moving.
"Why?" Jake asked.
Bella slowly turned around and Jake took a step back. Bella's face had changed; veins popped out around her eyes, fangs had appeared and her pupils were black and red.
"I'm a monster," Bella said as she turned back around.
"I'll help you," Jake said while coming up to her and turning her to face him, "We can get through this together; I won't let you hurt a human."
"It's not humans that I crave," Bella said as she pushed away from him, "It's you."
"What?" Jake asked confused.
"Supernatural blood," Sam said while coming up to them, "She thirsts for blood that is abnormal."
Jake sighed in relief before he looked angrily at Sam.
"You knew she was back?" He growled. "What the hell? Did you go back and dig up her coffin after the funeral?"
"No," Sam said.
"Then what?" Jake growled.
"He didn't know," Bella defended, "I woke up and I…" Bella said while trying to find the words. "I dug myself out."
Jake's stomach dropped; Bella had dug herself out of her own grave.
"Oh my god," Jake said, shaking his head before wrapping Bella in a hug, "I'm so sorry Bella."
"You couldn't have known," Bella replied.
"Come on," Sam said, "We need to get her out of sight."
Jake nodded as he wrapped his arm around Bella before they started walking towards the truck.
"Klaus," Rebekah said while tapping on the door, "May I come in?"
There was no answer and Rebekah entered before she looked disapprovingly at Klaus, who was sitting in a chair, drinking and staring at his new painting.
"This is no way to live." Rebekah said disappointed.
"There's no reason to live," Klaus replied before he downed his alcohol. "What do you want?"
"Aro called," Rebekah said as she opened the curtains to allow light to flow in, "The Cullens are apparently still under Esther's control."
"So what?" Klaus asked.
"That's enough!" Rebekah shouted before she blurred, taking the bottle of whiskey from Klaus before throwing it against the wall. "Do you think this is what she would have wanted?"
"She's gone," Klaus replied while ignoring Rebekah.
"Yes," Rebekah said, "She is and I am sorry that you lost her, but this is not the reason she sacrificed herself for you. She did not want you to wallow your sorrows in cheap whiskey."
"You think I should get the better stuff?" Klaus asked.
Rebekah's vampire face emerged and she threw him against the wall.
"What's going on in here?" Elijah asked, opening the door while Kol grabbed Rebekah, "Get her out of here." Elijah helped up Klaus, "What are you doing?"
"Getting thrown into a wall apparently," Klaus replied.
"She's right you know," Elijah replied, "She wouldn't have wanted you to do this."
"Does it matter?" Klaus countered.
"Maybe you should go visit Jake," Elijah suggested, "Perhaps he can give you the perspective we can't. He was her best friend."
Elijah walked out of the room and Klaus grabbed a new bottle of whiskey as he stared at the drawing of Isabella on the first night they met.
Two Weeks Later:
"How ya feeling?" Jake asked as they walked along La Push beach.
"The thirst is more manageable," Bella replied, "I still feel hungry, but it's getting easier being around you guys. How is Paul?"
"Showing off his badge of honor," Jake said, "Apparently he considers it a big deal that he smells good enough to eat even though Claire complains he stinks."
Bella chuckled, but she still had to keep her distance from the pack in the last two weeks since being back. Being here was strange for her. For everyone around her she had been gone for a long time, but to her it was a few minutes. She had left the pain behind and found peace, but was ripped away from it…away from Charlie. Everything around her was bright and cold and hard, but she refused to tell anyone what she had seen or what she was really feeling.
"It's okay," Jake said, pulling her out of her thoughts, "You'll get the hang of it."
"Have you talked to him much?" Bella asked.
Jake stopped walking; this was the first time Bella had mentioned Klaus since she had come back.
"I hear more from Elijah than I do him," Jake replied slowly.
"What does Elijah say?" Bella asked, starting to walk.
"He's hurting Bells," Jake replied. "All he does is drink and draw and all he draws are pictures of you." Jake finally stopped walking, "You should go to him."
"What?" Bella asked confused, "I can't."
"Yes you can and I know you want to," Jake said, "I can see it in your eyes Bells, all you want right now is him…not us."
"That's not true," Bella argued.
"It is and it's okay…he's your other half Bella, I get that. Rebecca can only help you so much and the same goes for us, but what you need right now is him," Jake finished before he handed her a piece of paper, "He's at this address in London; tell me Bella, you got a second chance to live, are you going to waste it?"
Jake walked away, leaving Bella alone as the waves started to wash onto shore.
Bella sat down on the sand and thought about everything. She was scared of what she was now; it would have been a different story if she wanted human blood, but supernatural blood? What if she drained one of her friends? What if she did go to Klaus and no one was around to stop her? The thirst was starting to become tolerable, but was she willing to take that risk of harming Klaus? Not to mention was their love that true consuming love she wanted so desperately or was she just making excuses to keep herself from getting hurt again?
Bella looked at the piece of paper and remembered the night she and Rebekah talked…her last night as a human.
"I can't take the chance," Bella said.
"Then how will you ever find that consuming love?" Rebekah countered, "How can you want something that you're too afraid to take a chance on? When I was younger we were taught that faith is all that was required; perhaps Bella you have found that love with my brother, but you do not have enough faith to take the leap and let it consume you. I understand pain, loss, fear, betrayal; I thought that's all that there is to life, but then I saw you and Klaus. Never did my father ever look at my mother like he does look at you, never has any man looked at me like he does you. The love you share is consuming."
Bella took a deep breath and looked out into the ocean. That love she had talked about, she had seen it in Emily and Sam. Such devotion was held by each of them for the other and it conquered everything. Emily had just jumped in, not thinking twice because it felt right. She had once told Bella that no matter what was happening, in Sam's arms she felt safe, loved and at peace. She always said she never gave up, she just gave into the love.
Bella smiled as she realized that in Klaus' arms, that is how she felt. She never wanted him to let her go; within his arms she was consumed, allowing herself to slip underneath the cold sweet feeling she felt.
"Thinking about something?" Emily asked, disturbing her.
"You don't give up you just give in and trust." Bella replied.
"Yes," Emily said knowingly before she hugged Bella, "There's always a risk, but it's worth it."
Bella looked at Emily and smiled, "He'll never let me go." She said confidently.
"Not if he's smart," Emily replied chuckling, "Come on, I think we need to get you a plane ticket."
A/N: Hey everyone I'm back! I hope you enjoyed the first little chapter I'm excited to go on this journey with you guys. It's going to be bumpy, but I promise you it will be worth the rough parts.
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