Forgetting. Why is it so hard to forget when you know it's for the best? Why is it so hard to forget all the pain and the suffering, all those memories you had when it hurt too much just to remember them? Maybe it's because deep within, you yourself want to hold on to that memory, because it was a proof that what you guys had, actually happened…
"So? How are you, Aya?" Towa, Palm Tree's owner and also a good friend of Aya Hoshino asked. Many weeks had passed ever since the break up and although it had been abrupt, both parties seemed civil enough to greet each other normally.
Aya smiled sadly… "I – I can't forget about him."
An honest confession. After all, Aya Hoshino wasn't the kind of person who lies.
"It's funny. Even though I was the one who broke us up… I can't forget about us… I know we didn't have the ideal relationship and it's not like he ever loved me… or even the fact that he's the 'most handsome' guy in Shibuya… those are not the reasons why I can't forget him… "
"Then what is it?" Towa asked comfortingly, placing a hand on top of the heart broken girl…
"It's because he's my first love… my first romance, my first realization that love really does exist…" Aya said with a sad smile.
Towa grabbed the hands of the girl and held them tightly… "You know, trying to forget someone you still love, is like trying to remember someone you never met, trust me, I've been there."
"I know. After all, it's hard to force yourself to stop loving someone when your heart still does… truth is, whenever he's there, I don't know what to do. It's hard to act normal, let alone to even smile, as if I wasn't hurt and pretend that I'm okay and currently happy when obviously, I'm not. But the worst thing is pretending that I don't want to be with him anymore when the fact is, I truly do."
Towa sighed… "Then what are you planning to do?"
"I don't know."