I pulled away from him, "Kendall, I cant." I explained shortly. "I saw the way she looked when she caught us kissing. I just cant." I repeated. He looked at me, picked me up, carried me over to my bed and sat me on his lap. I felt like I was a 5 year old having a talk with my Father. "Lucille Elizabeth Stone." He said to me, "You're the only one that I want, and the only one that makes me happy."
I tried my best not to give in, I still felt bad. The face she made was still in my head, replaying over and over. That hurt face, with evil eyes. That were towards me. "Don't you think me leaving would be better for the both of us?" I asked him, he shook his head No. I thought about it again before getting off of him and sighing. "I think it's for the best." I told him, reaching down and kissing him on the cheek. "I love you Kendall. Now please just go after your girl." I told the boy, trying to suck the tears that were bound to fall up.
"I love you too Lucy." He shot back and headed for the door, wiping tears. As soon as he walked out my whole world collapsed and I fell to the ground, balling. Why did it have to be so hard? Why couldn't everything just go back to the way it was when I didn't have feelings for anyone? Love had ruined the time of day for me. Then it popped into my head, the only thing that was going to make the pain go away was music. I pulled myself up and walked into the backroom, getting my guitar.
"White knuckles and sweaty palms from hanging on too tight. Clench of jaw, I've got another headache again tonight. Eyes on fire, eyes on fire, and the burn from all the tears. I've been crying, I've been crying, I've been dying over you. Tie a knot in the rope, trying to hold, trying to hold, But there's nothing to grab so I let go." I sang.
"I think I've finally had enough, I think I maybe think too much. I think this might it for us, blow me one last kiss. Just when I think it can't get worse, I had a shit day, You had a shit day, we've had a shit day. I think that life's too short for this, I'll pack my ignorance and bliss. I think I've had enough of this, Blow me on last kiss."
I smiled as I got rid of some of the pain and sat my guitar down. I climbed into my bed and turned the lamp beside me off, even though I didn't know why it was on because it was still light as ever. Another tear fell down my eye as I thought about the good times me and Kendall had. But I had to be strong, I sighed before grabbing my iPod out of the top drawer of my Night Stand and putting it on my Phillips stand.