'I miss you and I'm so sorry. Please call me back.' Magnus deleted the text and returned to his book. Chairman Meow lay in his knee, purring. Alec used to call him every day and send at least three text-messages, asking to call him back. That boy seemed to have some serious problems with taking a hint. Suddenly the phone started ringing. Magnus didn't get up to answer it, and after several signals it stopped ringing. Short after, the doorbell started ringing. Magnus tried ignoring it, but it just kept ringing. With a sigh Magnus put his book down, stood up and made his way toward the door. He slung the door open. On the threshold stood Alec. His dark hair was tousled and his t-shirt looked like something you'd find in Simon's closet.
"Alexander...," Magnus began saying but Alec stopped him.
"No. Listen to me. I love you. And I miss you so, so much. I'm so sorry, but I panicked. I don't want to live without you. And I was... I was afraid that if I turned old and ugly you'd stop loving me. And I didn't want to loose you. I love you," Alec said, his cheeks flushed. He took a deep breath. "Please forgive me," he whispered.
"Why couldn't you just trust me? I loved you. I wouldn't have left you," Magnus said with a sad tone. Alec took a step closer to him, his blue eyes blazing.
"Please give me a second chance," he whispered.
"Alexander... You know I can't-," Magnus started saying but was abruptly cutted off when Alec pressed his lips against Magnus's. Magnus gave in to the kiss for a few moments, Alec's soft lips against his, the familiar smell of Alec that he had missed. Magnus suddenly put his hands on Alec's chest and pushed him away.
"Alexander. Stop. Please," he said with a sigh and took a step back from Alec.
"Can't we just rewind time? Please forgive me. I love you," Alec said with tears glistening in his eyes. Magnus pulled his hands through his hair.
"Don't make this harder than it already is. Please leave, Alexander," Magnus said, staring sadly into Alec's blue eyes.
"Didn't you once tell me about Will Herondale, the boy I remembered you of. You told me that he had refused to give up on the girl he loved. And I won't give up on you either," Alec said stubbornly.
"That was a long time ago. And I never told you how it ended for Will. Alexander, please just leave." Alec shook his head.
"Please forgive me. I love you," he said one last time before stomping out of the apartment. The door slammed shut behind him and Magnus slowly sank down on the floor, his head in his hand. Suddenly he realized that he was crying. He never cried. And he couldn't remember the last time he had either. Magnus Bane had lived for a long while, and he had never expected that someone would make him cry. He had never expected that someone would be able to make him feel so much. But Alexander Gideon Lightwood wasn't just someone either.