I opened my eyes slowly and looked around. I forgot where I was, but then I remembered. I could feel his arms around me, and I felt the stubble that was on his face against my shoulder.
I don't know what it was about him, but I felt totally comfortable laying in his bed, with his t-shirt on.
Even though nothing has happened between us, other than a few wonderful kisses, I feel more safe with him than anyone else.
I know we are friends, but part of me hoped for more. But I still feel like I'm not good enough for him.
I felt his fingers brush up my sides and go over the side of my breast. I had to hold back my giggle.
I turned slightly in his arms to see if he was awake. But he wasn't. He was still asleep.
I took a moment to look at him. He truly was a beautiful man, even while sleeping.
He had a smile on his lips, and his hair. My god, I wanted to run my fingers through it.
I reached my finger up to lightly trace his lips. As I did, he parted them and I felt his warm breath on my fingers.
The next thing happened really fast. I felt him kiss my fingertips.
"Bella not that I'm complaining but why have you been watching me and running your fingers over my lips?"
Oh shit he so busted me in action. How in the hell do I explain this to him? Do I just be honest with him or bend the truth?
"Um...Edward I was just watching you sleep that's all."
"Hmm...then if you were just watching me sleep, then why did you run your fingertips over my lips, sweetheart?"
Shit, shit, shit I was not getting out of this one. He wanted answers.
I turned my face away from him hoping that he would just drop it but no such luck.
"Bella don't turn away from me," he said as he pulled my face back to look at him.
"I.. um.. I.. I just wanted to see what they felt like under my fingertips that's all."
I felt the blush go over my body.
"Sweetheart don't be shy about that. We've kissed so there should be no reason to be embarrassed. How about you do what you need to do and I will call Alice to let her know what she needs to get from your place."
"Ok, thank you for everything you have done for me. It does mean alot to me."
"It's really no problem. Do I need to tell Alice to pack for several days or are you planning on going home tonight?"
"Um...I really don't think I'm ready for all of that. I'm still pretty shaken up from the last two nights. I will probably just go stay with either Rose or Alice, so that I'm not in the way here."
"Baby, you're not in the way. I would love for you to stay here so that I can take care of you but I'll understand if you don't feel comfortable as well. Now go get ready and I will make breakfast while I call Alice."
"Ed...ward you wa...nt to take ca...re of me? It's not your problem. I don't want to keep you from anything."
"Yes Bella I want to take care of you. I don't want anyone else doing it, and you won't be keeping me from anything. I would love to do it."
I went and did my business. Once I was done I went and found Edward.
He was standing at the stove and it looked as he was making pancakes.
Walking up behind him I wrapped my arms around him giving him a big hug. I wanted him to know that I really appreciated what he has done for me.
He turned around and wrapped his arms around me. Bringing my face up, he leaned down and kissed my lips.
It felt so right being wrapped in his arms. I still won't let myself feel like I would be good enough for him. He could get any woman he wanted.
He deserved better than just some plain girl.
"Bella, Alice said she would be here in an hour," he said as he turned back to getting our plates ready.
"Ok, Edward. Is there anything I can help with?" I asked.
"Um...no not really. I've got it all under control," he said as he chuckled.
Sitting down at the table I watched him as he moved around the kitchen. Who would have ever thought Edward Cullen, lead singer of Midnight Sun, was a sweet, kind, gentle and loving man.
The media sure had him pegged wrong.
We ate in silence. When we finished I told Edward since he cooked I would clean up.
"I will clean up and you can go and relax."
"No Bella, you are supposed to be relaxing, not working."
"I'm fine Edward. Please let me do this."
"Ok I will go watch t.v. Would you like to watch a movie when you get done?"
"That's fine go pick one out and get it ready and I will be in there in a few minutes."
I watched as he walked away. I couldn't help but ogle his ass. It was so PERFECT!
I wonder what it would be like to touch.
'Bella stop thinking like that.' He leaves in three weeks for god knows how long.
I joined him on the couch and he had Night at the Museum in.
"Edward I've never seen this movie before."
"Well I'm glad I picked something that you haven't seen. Come here."
He opened his arms for me and I snuggled into his side and he placed a blanket over us.
He pressed play. He kept on rubbing my arm and I could not help but shiver.
"Sweetheart, are you cold?"
"No, Edward I'm fine."
He pulled me closer to him. I looked up at him and he was looking at me with love, caring and a worried look at the same time.
He leaned down and placed his lips on mine. It felt so right.
"Edward," I breathed out.
Edward deepened the kiss and I went right along with it. I noticed that we're not longer sitting up. Edward was on his back and I was on top of him.
I felt his hand skim my skin under my shirt. I placed my hands in his hair and tugged it lightly.
When I pulled his hair he moaned into my mouth. I felt him move his hands up my side and and skimmed right by my breast. It was my turn to moan into his mouth.
He pulled away from my lips but never leaving my skin. His lips started down my neck to my collarbone and then he slowly pulled my shirt down just enough to kiss the top of my breast.
His hand that was under my shirt actually made it to my breast and I rocked my hips into his crotch.
"Baby, god you are so beautiful."
"Edward please touch me."
I pulled his face back to mine and kissed him hard. He continued to rub my breast and he actually growled.
He rocked his hips with mine and it felt so good. I never knew it could be like this.
All too soon he pulled away. I knew that he could never want me like that and that I was not good enough for him.
I moved from him and sat at the other end of the couch.
"Baby what's wrong?"
"Nothing I'm fine."
"Bella you're lying. Please talk to me."
"Well let's see you start kissing me and we got all hot and bothered, then you pull away from me. I knew that you would never see me in that kind of way. I should have never let my walls down because I get hurt every time."
"No Bella, I do want this but I do not want to hurt you. You have been through alot the last few days. Trust me when I say I want you," he said as he got up and stood in front of me and took my hand and placed it over his rock hard cock.
"See sweetheart this is what you do to me."
The door flew open and Alice walked in. She saw my hand on his cock, she gave us a look like we better spill about what the hell is going on.
I walked into Edward's house, and what I saw I couldn't believe my eyes. Edward is standing in front of Bella with while holding her hand over his crotch.
Both their faces had guilty as sin looks. Bella hair was a mess but what really caught my eye is Edward's hair. His is always messy but it was unusually messer in that moment.
"What did I interrupt?" I asked looking between the two of them.
"Um... nothing, Ali," Bella mumbled.
"Sure, I didn't. Come on guys, you both look guilty as hell."
"Alice, what goes on in my house is none of your business," Edward said as he held onto Bella's hand.
"Yeah, well she's my friend and I won't have you hurt her."
"Alice, I'm fine. Thank you for bringing my clothes."
"It's no problem, but I want to talk to you in the bedroom, Now," I said as she picked up the suitcases and followed behind me.
I opened the door to Edward's room and walked in.
"Bella spill NOW. There is something going on with you two and I want to know."
"Alice it's really nothing. We just got caught up in a moment and that's all."
"Bella sure it was, when I walked in there was more than just a moment. Your hair is all over the place while Edward's is all unruly more than usually. So I totally call bullshit on the so called 'caught up in a moment'."
"Fine Alice you want to know, I'm falling for him fast but I'm never going to be enough for him. Right before you came in he pulled away from our make out session, so when you walked in you saw him proving to me that he wanted me. He seems to care, but I'm not sure if it's genuine or not. He'll be leaving in three damn weeks, and we don't know for how long. So there's really no point to even think about starting anything. There's all those women who throw themselves at him. He would have plenty of women to satisfy him."
"Bella I can tell you this that Edward is not what all those paper's make him out to be. He always keeps to himself. He is kinda a private person or at least he tries to be. So if he has any kind of feelings for you then they are genuine. Just take it slow. Get to know him and talk to him while he's on tour. He is very protective of you. Rose told me that he beat the shit out of Jacob Black for what he did to you."
"Alice I will think about it but please just don't pressure me into something ok? All this shit with Jacob has got me scared shitless. I can't even go to my house right now but I have to because I have pictures that I need to develop."
"How about we do this. Edward has to leave for practice in just a little bit. Why don't we go over to your house and go right to you picture room and we will together develop them pictures and then get out of there."
"Ok that sounds great but I can't tell you for sure if I will break down."
"Bella I have known you for years since when do I care about you breaking down in front of me?"
I got dressed and we went back out to find Edward, he had his head in his hands pulling at his hair.
I sat down by him and asked, "Edward what's wrong?"
I watched as Bella walked to my room with Alice right behind her. I could tell that Alice was pissed but it really was none of her business what was going on in my house. Beside if she would have rang the damn door bell she would have never seen Bella's hand on my crotch.
I must say that our make out session was very hot. I never felt like that before. Her skin felt so right under my hand. Her lips felt right on mine as well. I just could not figure out why Bella kept thinking she was not good enough for me.
I mean what else could I do to show her that she means alot to me. Why can't she let me make the decision of who I want to be with?
She is what's good for me. I kept pulling at my hair. I heard my bedroom door open and then Bella sat down next to me.
"Edward what's wrong?"
I just looked up at her.
"Edward please," she said as she placed her hand on my knee.
"Baby I'm just still trying to figure out why you keep saying you are not good enough for me. Why can't you let me decide that one?"
"Edward, how could I be good enough for you when I'm broken. Look at me. I have a broken nose, I have almost been raped twice in the last two days. You could have any woman, why would you want someone like me?"
"Sweetheart, you are caring, smart, sexy as hell and most of all you care about everyone around you. Please just let me make my own decisions. I care about you alot. If friendship is all you are willing to give me then I will take it but you are good enough for me. In fact I'm the one not good enough for you."
"What are you talking about?"
"Well for starters I'm never home, I'm always on the road and when I do come home it's not for long. I guess that's why I have never really had a real relationship before."
"You are a caring and loving man Edward whatever girl is luckily enough to land you will make you happy."
He nodded as I placed my hand on his face. He leaned into it.
"Edward, Alice and I are going to try and go to my picture room while you are at practice today because I really need to get those pictures developed. I have to get them to the actor's manager by tomorrow."
"Baby do you think you will be ok going there?"
"Like I said I'm going to try. We are not even going in the front door. We will use the kitchen door and go to the picture room that way. Alice will be there with me."
"Ok sweetheart but if you need me you know that I'm a phone call away. Do not hesitate to call me."
"I promise to call if I need you."
"Ok I guess I better get going. I will see you later on today."
He kissed my forehead and left.
"Alright Bella are you ready to do this?"
"As ready as I ever will be."
We pulled up to my house and I start to shake. I knew I had to face this head on but it was easier said than done.
"Bella it will be ok. I will be right there with you."
We walked through the garage door right down to my picture room. I still was shaking but not as much as when we pulled into the driveway.
"Ok Alice do you remember what I showed you about developing?"
"Yea, I sure do. Let's get this shit done so we can get out of here."
The next hour we spent developing the pictures. I got to the one's of Edward and then the ones of me and the very last one I saw was the one of us kissing.
"OMG Bella you two look so cute together. You can see it in this one that he really cares for you."
It was the one of Edward and I standing there with his face close to mine. I must say that we do look go together. A thought came to me while looking at the pictures.
"Hey Alice I want to make an extra copy of all the one's of Edward and me together. I think I'm going to make him a picture book to take with him. Do you think you would like to help me with that. Maybe we could go to your house and do it just in case he comes home."
"That's an excellent idea Bella. I think he will like that a lot. He'll be able to look at them anytime he'd like."
Once we were done we headed to the store for the stuff to make Edward's album. Three hours later the album for Edward was done. I just hope that he will like it.
"Alice I think it looks great. What do you think about it? Do you think he will like it?"
"I think he will love it Bella. I better get you back to his house before he comes home and he will worry."
I had just sat down when Edward walked in.
"Hi baby how was your day?"
"It was good. When we pulled up to my house I started to shake but Alice helped me out. How was yours?"
"Practice was practice, " he said as he set next me and kissed my forehead. Baby I have something to tell you."
"What is it Edward?"
"I got a call today while at practice and Jacob will be released from jail if you don't testify against him."
I couldn't, I was too afraid to face him, but I knew that if I didn't he'd get out.
I started to shake once the news of Jacob sank in. I kept shaking as the tears fell.
"Sh... baby I've got you. I promise you that Jacob will not get to you again."
"Edward I'm scared that he will come after me again especially now that he has been in jail."
"Baby you don't have to worry about that. Between Em, Jas and myself you will be protected. Plus we had him fired while he was in jail."
"Oh so now he's really going to be pissed."
"It will be fine Bella, let's order us something to eat."
We ate dinner and I went and got ready for bed. I crawled up into Edward's bed and he laid down next to me. I turned to face him.
"Edward thank you for everything you have done for me. It really means alot to me."
"Baby I love taking care of you."
I leaned up and gave him a sweet peck on the lips and gave him a hug. I rolled over on my side and he pulled me to him. He kissed my shoulder and we both fell asleep.