Thanks to Bobbi Wordsmith for beta'ing don't know what I would do without you BB!
Chapter 145: Bella's POV
That night when we got ready for bed, Edward took his shower like he usually did after taking Jake for a walk.
I always felt so emotionally drained after talking about my past. I also hated it because it always made things feel tense between Edward and me. It worried me constantly that one day I would go too far and tell him too much.
We would take one step forward with him holding me, touching me, and then take about ten steps back, after I revealed something else about what I've been through. I know he worried about setting me off, or even doing something that would cause me to feel uncomfortable, but I could never feel uncomfortable with him.
He was always so gentle with me. Lying in the bed I pretended I was reading as I watched him come out of the bathroom in nothing but a towel.
"How was your shower?" I asked him pretending to focus in my book.
"It was good; how's the book?" he asked with a grin.
"Don't know, I stopped reading when you came out of the bathroom," I replied back, and he laughed sitting down on the bed and pulling the book from my hands.
"How are you feeling?"
"Always good when I'm near you," I replied, and he grinned cupping my face in his large hand. I leaned into him and placed a soft kiss on his lips.
"I'm really okay," I said looking up at him. He seemed to relax believing that I was indeed okay. He got up from the bed and slipped on his briefs then climbed into bed. I put the book on the nightstand and turned off my lamp.
He did the same and then pulled me against his body. I loved being in his arms. From the moment I was in his arms that first night, I knew I was safe.
Sometimes I wished that I could go back to not knowing who I was, wished that I could forget again and just be with Edward.
"Go to sleep, baby, we'll be invaded tomorrow and you'll need your rest, trust me," Edward whispered into my ear. I laughed knowing he was talking about Alice and Rosalie.
"I can't wait," I replied and it was true. I couldn't wait to meet them, and I couldn't wait to see Carlisle, Esme and Jasper again.
It will be so much fun when Rose and Alice arrive!
Last one tonight, would you like to hear from Bella again?
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