In My Head

Now I know how the Master feels. It must be so hard for him having to deal with something that he cannot get out of his head every minute of every day and night. I can see how it drives him mad. However, I guess that his problem is probably greater than mine. Having drums in your head is far worse than not being able to think of anything else other than one single person. But when that person is your greatest enemy, it does start to drive you down that road to insanity.

I can't understand it; I don't know why I can't stop thinking about him. I have to get over him, but I can't and I don't understand why. Maybe it's because he used to be my best friend; someone who I used to play with on the hills on Gallifrey. Or maybe, it's something else, something much deeper? No, no, it's not that. I don't do that because everyone I love, I lose. But you lost him.

This is why I avoid – well, I try – getting attached to people. I can't deal with the feelings of lust and then loss. I may seem strong, but, maybe, underneath it all, I'm not strong. I'm not human; I can't deal with these feelings in the same way.

Maybe, that's another reason why I ran.

I just need to get the Master out of my head and then everything can go back to how it was. But, maybe it'll never go back. Maybe, he'll never leave my mind. Maybe – just maybe – this lost feeling will stay with me forever.

Maybe, I really do love Koschei.

Hey, I'm back. I've been working on my Willowen fics for so long now, I haven't written any DW in AGES! So, I apologise if it was crap, I'm a bit rusty. I hope you liked it though. Sorry, I haven't been around lately – well, I have on forums and that, but not story wise.

Anyway, thanks for reading. Please review, it'll be like a birthday present (yep, birthday's tomorrow!)

Thanks again!

~ Markie xx