The Daughter of Me
Spoilers: End of Season 1, nix the Finale.
Summary: Instead of Quinn going into labor during Regionals, she goes into labor while having a sleep-over with Kurt and Mercedes. Then, she gives Kurt the gift of life.
The Daughter of Me
"Noah." Kurt blinks his eyes a few times. "What are you doing here?"
"I brought Sarah to see Santa." Puck motions to his waiting sister.
Sarah grins. "I'm going to pull off his beard in front of everyone."
"Ah." Kurt nods with a fake awkward grin as he looks back up to Puck.
The boy is staring past him.
"What does Santana think she's doing?" He growls. "This is for children, she shouldn't be straddling Santa. She's going to ruin things for these kids." He glances back to Kurt. "Watch Sarah real quick. I'll be back."
"Thanks Kurt." puck quickly nods to his sister before rushing up the long line.
Kurt glances to Tina and frowns. She shrugs and looks to Sarah.
Kurt glances at Sarah. "What was that all about?"
"I don't know." Sarah comments as she makes her way over to his daughter in the stroller. "For some reason, he's been very responsible these past few weeks." Kurt glances up at Tina, shocked, and she slowly nods, already knowing everything. "He's been cleaning, and dude, he was even studying." Sarah glances up at him. "After school got out. Said he had to prepare for college."
Kurt gives her a small smile. "Did he say why?"
"No." Sarah turns back to Beth and smiles at her. "It must be important though, otherwise he wouldn't try and change himself this much."
He's changing for me . . . but why?
Kurt glances past Tina to where Santa waits at the end of the long line. He looks in time to see Puck march up to the guy and all but yank Santana off of his lap. He glares at Santana until she walks off, muttering to herself. Santa then pulls Puck down to whisper in his ear.
Kurt looks back to Tina. "What is he doing?"
Tina, who was watching as well, looks to Kurt. "I have no idea, but Kurt . . ." She steps forward and lowers her voice. "Did you hear Sarah? How . . . Noah is doing all of these things, Kurt." Her voice suddenly has a smile in it. "He's changing, Kurt. For you."
"I know." Kurt can't help but smile. "I was thinking that, but-"
"No buts this time." Tina cuts him off as she glares him down. "You've been moping around for weeks and I can't even count the number of times that you called yourself an idiot for not getting with Noah when you had the chance. How you were scared with Sam so you took it out on Noah." Tina stops and sighs. "You want him, so don't let him go this time. If he's changing for you, maybe you can change a little for him and not be so afraid of what will happen with him."
"I know." Kurt bites his lip. "And I do want him, but it just seems that he might hate. I was so stupid and it must have been confusing for him for me switch my words around."
"Then fix it." Tina says firmly before smiling. "Otherwise I'm going to run into one of these stores and grab something to smack you with."
"Okay." Kurt chuckles. "Okay."
"Great news guys." Kurt all but jumps out of his skin as Puck returns. "That guy was so grateful, that he told me to come back and brings the children up."
"I'm not a child." Sarah says in an annoyed voice, not moving her eyes from Beth.
"Go Sarah." Kurt encourages her. "Otherwise you'll be here for hours."
"Actually Kurt." Noah reaches up to rub the back of his neck. "I told him that I had two kids with me, so you have to bring Beth up." He says slowly.
Kurt just blinks at Puck. "You what?"
"Well I didn't want you to wait for hours, and he totally said it was fine." Puck says honestly as he holds his hands up in defense. "Dude said that I saved him from an awkward situation and that this is the least he could do."
"Well . . . I guess-"
"We'll do it." Tina cuts him off and takes Kurt's hands off the stroller. "Lead the way Sarah."
Sarah grins as she moves to the side of the stroller, leaving Puck and Kurt to walk behind. Kurt bites his lip as he looks away from Puck. Several people in the line are glaring them down for even thinking that they can cut in line. Kurt wants to apologize, but he feels Puck's warm presence at his side and refrains from talking, not wanting to spoil their first reunion since he denied the boy. He-
"Stop staring people." Puck suddenly snaps at the people. "We were invited up so stop staring and making all of us uncomfortable.
Somehow, his voice seems to break through the loudness of the mall at Christmas time and makes most people look away. Kurt smiles to himself as he looks ahead at his best friend and daughter.
Hmm. Who knew Noah could tell what I was thinking?
Kurt looks up as they reach the raised platform the holds Santa. Kurt goes to get Beth out, but Tina beats him to it. She gives him a small push and he falls back into Puck.
"Sorry." He quickly mutters and steps away.
"It's fine." Puck shrugs and gives him a warm smile.
Kurt nods and looks back at Santa. Up first is Sarah. She quickly hops on the mans lap. Tina stands to the side with Beth in her arms.
Kurt glances over at Puck, seeing the boy look ahead. "Thank you for this." Puck looks to him with raised eyebrows. "We've been here for two hours now and I know Beth would have gotten cranky soon."
"It's not problem." Puck smiles. "And it's not like I'd known this was going to happen. I was just trying to be a nice guy and help the guy." Puck nods his head towards Santa.
Kurt nods and looks away, starting to feel awkward.
"So how have you been?" Puck asks.
"Good." Kurt looks back to the boy. "It's been good, quiet." He adds with a nod before releasing a shaky breath. "Really quiet."
"Yeah." Puck mutters before clearing his throat. "I'm sorry that I haven't been around the past few weeks since . . ." He trails off before forcing a smile. "I've been busy. Studying and working."
"Yeah. Sarah mentioned something like that." Kurt comments. "Well that's good, keeping yourself busy."
"Yeah. It feels good." Puck says aloud before muttering to himself.
"Kurt." Kurt looks up at his name. Tina is holding Beth on one knee of Santa with Sarah on the other. "Picture time."
"Okay. Take one." Kurt says slowly.
"We already took theirs." Tina laughs. "Now it's one for all of us."
"Come on Kurt." Puck laughs as he takes Kurt's hand and drags him towards the awaiting group.
Kurt just laughs and lets himself be drug along.
I have got to be crazy to take a picture with Santa Claus. He's not even real.
Kurt kneels down by Beth And holds her still as she looks everywhere but the camera. He glances over and sees Puck kneel down by Sarah. The boy shoots him a wink before looking forward. Kurt feels a hand fall on his shoulder. He looks up and sees Tina smiling straight-ahead. Kurt just rolls his eyes and looks forward, ready for the first picture.
"I look so awful." Kurt laughs as he stumbles into the house.
"You look adorable." Puck laughs over his shoulder as he reaches down and points at the photo where Kurt is getting is hair ruffled by Puck. "And you're blush just makes it better."
"Shut up." Kurt groans as he elbows Puck playfully.
"Never." Puck teases.
Kurt rolls his eyes and moves to the living room, Beth's car seat in his other hand. He places the small carriage down by the couch and his father. Burt leans down and buckles Beth.
"Hey baby girl." Burt's voice goes really soft like it always does when he's talking to Beth. "Did you have fun with your dad-" He cuts off when he looks up and sees Puck and Sarah waiting behind Kurt.
Tina steps into the room and flops on the couch by Burt. "Hey dad."
Burt snorts. "Hello daughter I didn't help conceive." He seems to ignore Puck for now.
"Oh you know you love me." Tina gets on her knees and towers over Burt. "Give me a hug, daddy."
"No!" Burt roars with a laugh as he falls over, being careful with Beth, and lets Tina tackle him.
Kurt laughs with amusement before moving to grab the bags that Tina and Sarah had set down once entering the house.
He smiles to Sarah and Puck. "Take a seat. I'll just go put these away."
"Sure." Puck smiles before pushing Sarah towards the love seat, not wanting to get attacked by a laughing Tina, Burt, and Beth.
Kurt laughs as he leaves the room.
Tina truly has become a daughter to dad. She's over here so much. But it's nice actually. At least I welcomed her better as a sister than I did Finn as a brother. I think it helped that I didn't have a crush on her.
Kurt chuckles to himself as he steps into the room. He moves to his closet and sets the bag down.
I'll sort them later. I don't want to miss anything upstairs. It . . . it just feels too good.
Kurt goes to move to the staircase, but stops. He glances over at his closed laptop. He eyes it before biting his lip and quickly skipping over and stopping on the bed. He quickly opens his laptop and skims its contents.
"Come on." He mutters. "Babies . . . first . . . Christmas. Where are you?"
He purses his lips before smiling when he sees the video on Quinn's list. He quickly double-clicks it and sits back.
Quinn appears on the screen. This time, she's wearing a Santa hat.
She starts off by laughing. "Merry Christmas Kurt, or at least that's when you should be watching this, or at least a few days before." She gives Kurt a short glare before continuing on a smile. "This video is more of an instructional video. So, roughly after everything with my death was put into order, I had it arranged so that all of my college fund money would be put into an account. And account for you Kurt."
Kurt blinks. "What?"
"This account is to help you raise Beth. Now I know if you've struggled to now, you know it's hard to be a father, but I trust you." Quinn smiles. "But you should be able to access the count with this pen number-" She gives him a short list of numbers. "And under the name of Beth Hummel." Kurt's jaw goes slack. "Now I wasn't sure if this would work, but if you did take her in like I asked, then this money won't go to waste. And my first request is for you to buy everything that Beth needs or wants. Stock up on diapers or toys. Or even clothes Kurt. Now don't use it all at once, but just when you need it. There's quite an amount of money in there thanks to my father, so you should be good until Beth is ready for her own college, unless something major happens. As well as this, I know my mother had already started a college fund for Beth. She should be able to access it when she turns 18."
"Quinn . . ." Kurt lets out a happy sigh.
"Now I'm doing this because I want to be a good mother for Beth, and a friend to you Kurt. So remember, don't spend it all in one place." Quinn laughs before taking a deep breath. "Now I want you to show this song to Beth every Christmas if you can for me. Make sure no one else is around. This is for you two."
Quinn takes a breath before she starts singing.
Where are you Christmas
Why can't I find you
Why have you gone away
Where is the laughter
You used to bring me
Why can't I hear music play
Kurt reaches up to wipe away a tear as his room is filled with Quinn's angelic tone.
My world is changing
Does that mean Christmas changes too
Kurt has to bite his lip as he's flooded with memories of Quinn, wishing she was here.
Where are you Christmas
Do you remember
The one you used to know
I'm not the same one
See what the time's done
Is that why you have let me go
Kurt shuts his eyes and buries his face in his hands.
Christmas is here
Christmas is here
If you care, oh
Kurt cries more, listening to the notes that should have been hard for Quinn to hear, but she's hitting them perfectly.
If there is love in your heart and your mind
You will feel like Christmas all the time
This version is so much better than Kurt had ever heard.
And being a Capella allows him to hear the raw and emotional tone that Quinn carries.
I feel you Christmas
I know I've found you
You never fade away
The joy of Christmas
Stays here inside us
Fills each and every heart with love
Kurt looks back at the screen, his eyes red.
Where are you Christmas
Fill your heart with love
He close his mouth and breathes in through his nose.
I don't think I'll be able to not cry every Christmas now.
He lets out a small laugh before shutting his laptop. He bites his lip before sliding off his bed and walking over to the staircase. He stops and looks back at his laptop.
Quinn will never be gone. She'll always be here for something. For Beth.
Kurt can't help but have a sad smile as he walks up the stairs, his feet dragging and his fingers dancing on the railing.
And I don't want her gone. And as Beth grows up, she'll want her hear too.
Kurt steps on the main floor and is met with sounds of laughter. His sad smile turns to genuine happiness as he makes his way to the living room doorway and stops. It seems that Finn and Carole had joined in too.
Tina was now on top of Puck, tickling the bigger boy to death. Kurt smiles as he hears Puck's pure barking laugh. Finn was holding Puck's hands down so he couldn't defend himself against Tina. He looks over and sees Sarah cuddled on his dads lap. His dad seemed to be surprised, but that passed by now. Carole is sitting by the family Christmas tree, watching everyone.
Beth is in her own world. She's torn between watching Puck and the Christmas tree. She keeps reaching out and touching the blue ribbon draped on the tree, letting out a small laugh when she can't grab it.
This is home. This is what will always be here.
He smiles before joining the room.
Wow, another long chapter. I really hope you enjoyed it. It was fun writing and I like how it came out. As promised, Quinn was not forgotten and returned again. And as you can see, some things are getting better for our boys. They're each trying. So let me know what you think.
Also, the song is Where Are You Christmas? By Faith Hill