This was my contribution to FandomForTwiFanG. May she rest in peace.

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Anything in italics are lyrics from Blue October's "The End." You can find the lyric video here: watch?v= BuTxkDBZnaY

Charlie POV

Here alone, standing barefoot in out lawn

Worms squeezing their way through my toes

Tonight that's how it goes.

I'm at your window kneeling quiet

I thought at least I'd maybe try to get your head right

Your heart right

"Let him go!"

The ink isn't even dried on our divorce papers and already you're with someone. Not just anyone, you're with him. My best friend. My brother. My confident. The one I spilled my guts out to when I found you with someone else. That's what hurts the most. Not that you're with someone new, but that you're with him. How could you do this to me? Isn't it bad enough that you've destroyed me by wanting to leave me?

Replace my heart

Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end

Replace my hart

I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hopeing...end

For a while I thought we could work out our problems and be together again. We talked and cried together. I was stupid and started making plans for our future. We were going to raise a family together, Renee. I see now that those were just fake tears and empty words. Another blow below the belt, another twist of the knife in my broken heart.

It's not just her I'm angry with. It's him, too. He was my brother, my best man. I've known him forever. We've gone through life, death, girlfriends, break ups, loneliness, and bouts of depression together.

I creeped in close enough to see the way he touched her,

From her feet across her knees, inside her sweetest spot

He pleased and pleased her.

With one swift movement, everything I knew about Billy is gone. He's dead to me.

So to the back window I crawl in silent standing in the darkness

Of my living room, my living room

This used to be my home

Our home – a place where I felt at peace, where I could let everything that happened at work go. A place where I opened myself to you so deeply, so intimately, will never be the same again. It's like our home is a ghost town - whispers swirling in our living room of our promises to each other; pictures on the wall like tombstones reminding me of the past.

How far will I go

To make it feel right?

"Come home"

I'm moving forward to the bedroom door

Replace my heart

Cause I'm convinced mine broke the day I let us end

Replace my heart

I don't wanna live by coping, I'm done with hoping...end

I don't know what else to do, how else to tell you that you're the only one for me. I know you know it, and I know you still feel it. So why can't we start over? Why can't commit to only me? I can make you happy. What does he give you that I can't? What does he do that I don't? Why is he better than me?

He pushed himself so deep inside her clapping rang and pounced off every wooden walled room

And that's when all went silent blank except the color red

As I walked calmly numbing paralyzed beside the bed

"Charlie!" she cries, pushing Billy off of her and covering herself with a sheet. "What are you doing here?"

I said, "I know I'm not allowed to be here. I just had to see how good your new man really fucks you. Cause you both been fucking me."

"Charlie, you don't understand!" she cried again.

"It's not like that," Billy said, shame written across his face.

"So now I planned the last thing you can both do as a pair." I tie blindfolds tight around your fucking eyes to blind your stare.

"Charlie, don't do this!" Renee beggs, struggling against me as I tie her blindfold over her eyes.

"I don't want to alarm you, but I figured we could end this in what seems easy quick and painless

Man, so I'll get down to business. I chose you first," I said, pulling the gun from my belt and putting it next to Billy's head.

"Please," he begs. "You don't have to do this."

"So laugh at me one more time but keep your face inside the bed. You sit and watch me while I do this shit and learn from what I've said." I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger, and all I saw was red.

I stand there for a moment looking at the lifeless body of my best friend while Renee screams. I know I should feel guilty for doing this, but the guilt never comes. What does come is relief, hope, longing. Relief that the first part is done. Hope that you can finally see that I am serious in my pleas for you to come back to me. Longing to hold you in my arms once more and forget this all happened.

Then the screaming oh the screaming

It's nice to see you scared

Of such a weak and stupid husband

Who knows you never really cared

"I did care, Charlie. I did love you," she says.

"They why didn't you fight harder for us?"

"I tried... but you're gone so much, and I -"

"Don't give me that!" I yelled. "I told you I'd do anything you wanted me to. Just tell me what to do. We can still fix this."

"We can't, Charlie. It's too late."

"Why?" Her body shakes with fear while gasping for air and sobbing. "Tell me!"

"I... I can't." She cries harder for her lover while the anger builds in me. Why couldn't she have been like this with me?

"Tell me!" I holler, my voice bounces off the walls and rings in my ears causing Renee to jump.

"Because... I love him." Her voice is a whisper.

I slam my fist through the wall next to me, my anger at its boiling point.

I'll leave you with a question that I need to hear from your head

Was all this worth it knowing you have just seconds left to live?

Now think about your answers, laying face down on the bed

I cocked the pistol pulled the trigger and all I saw was red

I gently stroke her arm as she lies lifeless on her back

Then placed the barrel in my mouth

and all I saw was black...