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AN: Thanks so much to everyone for their kind reviews and feedback, they've meant the world to me and really helped me write this story much faster than I probably would have otherwise. This will be the final chapter, now I just need to figure out what to work on next. Other than 25 Moments, obviously, I mean another big story. Oh, and mature content warning. In fact that's pretty much all this is. Although since it's ffn I try not to get too descriptive. (Yes, I know there are very very descriptive stories on here, but I try to only bend rules in half not break them into smithereens. I really need to find somewhere else to post stories so I can do more NC17 stuff.)

This one is dedicated to all my fellow VAMBies for giving me a new home that I totally love, as well as inspiration for future stories.

Parts of You

By Lady Callista


Chapter Nine: Home (It's Not Lightyears Away, But As Close As Someone's Arms)


"Are you okay?" Chakotay asked softly as they left the mess hall hand in hand.

She smiled briefly, though her cheeks were still pink. "With kissing in there? Of course, I wouldn't have done it otherwise. I guess I just didn't expect everyone to react like that."

He grimaced, that actually had been a little embarrassing, even for him. "I don't think they'll do it every time, it was just a congratulations of sorts."

"Plus a few of them probably just won quite a few replicator rations." Kathryn said casually as they entered the turbolift. "Deck 3."

He gaped at her as the lift traveled the one deck down to their quarters, and the door had opened again before he managed to reply. "You know about the betting pool?"

She laughed loudly. "I've known about, well I can't say all of them, but probably most of them over the years. Both the ones relating to us and the other ones."

"There were other ones?" He laughed with her, amazed that she had known and not done anything. He had actually always assumed she didn't know because one, the pools didn't get cancelled, and two, Tom was still alive and not missing any body parts.

"Well, there have been a few about other couples, and Harry actually had one going on Tom and B'Elanna for almost two weeks before they found out about it. And then there was one for a while on how many times I would touch you during a duty shift, and…"

"And it didn't bother you?" He cut her off, the look of surprise on his face increasing as she bypassed her quarters and continued on to his own.

"Not really." She smiled as she followed him into his quarters. "I know it's not appropriate really, but the crew needs something to entertain themselves with out here, and it's not like any of them were done with malicious intent."

Chakotay just grinned and shook his head. "That's true, I just guess I didn't think you would be okay with it."

She raised an eyebrow at him as she crossed over towards his couch, making herself at home. "I assumed that was why you never informed me of them. I had to use B'Elanna to make my bets over the years."

Pure shock showed on his face even as he walked over to join her on the couch. "You what?"

She laughed and curled into his side as his arms slid around her. "I used B'Elanna to place my bets. I couldn't exactly do it myself, but you know I can always use more coffee rations."

"You only bet on people besides us, obviously." The shock was rapidly turning to amusement. He had wondered why there were some months when she wasn't begging him for extra rations because she needed more coffee.

Her head tilted up, eyes glinting mischievously. "Until tonight."

"The current pool is when we'll go public with our relationship." Chakotay burst out laughing. "That's why you wanted to talk to B'Elanna tonight. You had her place a bet on us for tonight, knowing that you were going to kiss me there."

Kathryn grinned, her fingers beginning to sketch random patterns across his chest. "Well, we have been using a lot of rations with all our private dinners. I told B'Elanna she could have 20 percent of my winnings. Not that she would have said no to placing the bet either way, but I told her to consider it a baby present."

"I imagine she always found it amusing that Tom thought he was hiding it from you, and you were winning credits from it." Chakotay said, twitching slightly as her fingertips trailed over one of his nipples. Deciding two could play at that game, he started trailing his fingers up and down her bare arm and was quickly rewarded when she shivered against him.

"It did appeal to her." Kathryn grinned, shifting her head until she could nibble at his neck. "Said it was a tactic almost worthy of the Maquis."

"So is what you're doing now." He chuckled, feeling himself becoming more aroused as her attention shifted from his neck to his earlobe.

She drew away to bat her eyes at him. "I don't know what you're talking about."

"Your innocent voice needs work." He informed her mildly as he trailed his fingers back up her arm to let them play along the side and then back of her neck. "So not that I mind, but why are we in my quarters instead of yours?"

The smile she gave him was smoldering, as was the look in her eyes before she leaned in to whisper in his ear, "Because I've always dreamed of our first time being in your bed."

He froze for a second, shuddered as his ardor exploded, then locked his arms around her as he dragged her mouth to his for the most intense kiss they had ever shared.

Lips nibbled, tongues tangled, and hands roamed and gripped as they slowly began to explore each other.

Chakotay's hands cupped her cheeks when they finally had to pull apart to breath, and as he rested his forehead on hers he couldn't help but whisper, "Be sure."

Kathryn trembled in his arms as one of his thumbs traced over her lips and his other hand slid behind her neck, massaging gently. "I love you."

"I love you too." Chakotay pulled back just enough to look into her eyes, the desire he saw burning in them almost making him lose control. But despite how long they had been friends, despite even how long they had been in love, they'd really only been together like this for a few weeks. "But…"

She laid her fingers over his lips. "I love you, and I want you. Slow or fast?"

He blinked at the devilish twinkle that was back in her eyes, and before he could formulate a response she had shifted on the couch until she was on her knees, then swung one leg over him until she was perched over his lap.

"How about a little bit of both?" She answered her own question as she threaded her hands into his hair and dove back into another searing kiss.

"Kathryn." He moaned when their lips separated again, his hands clenching on her hips as she lowered her body until their cores brushed. "If you want to make it to the bedroom, we should move now."

She laughed even as she disentangled herself from him, rising and leading him into the bedroom. "If we were twenty years younger we'd probably be tripping over everything between here and the bed as we tried to get there while making out."

He grinned as she toed her shoes off. "If we were twenty years younger we would have stayed on the couch. Or at the very least I would carry you to bed."

"I'm sure you could still carry me if you wanted to." She grinned back as she watched him slip his shoes off as well. "And I guess we're probably both a little too old for up against the wall as well."

His eyes heated, and she took an involuntary step back as he stalked towards her. Chakotay put his hands on her hips, slowly backing her up until she hit the wall.

Kathryn's joking mood vanished in a passionate moan as his hands slid tortuously over her body while avoiding all the areas that begged for his touch. His eyes locked on hers as he took her hands and slowly pinned them above her head, his hips pinning her to the wall at the same instant, showing her just how much he wanted her. "Oh, I don't know. I kinda like this idea."

She shivered at the darkness in his eyes, quickly reevaluating as nerves danced in her stomach. She had known they would be comfortable together, and she had known it would be fun. But she had expected her gentle, slightly subservient friend, not the passionate and nearly overwhelming warrior who now had her pinned against the wall.

Chakotay sensed her nervousness instantly and reigned himself in a little. "You asked fast or slow, and we've waited so long I think this is going to be fast no matter what our intentions are." He leaned down to kiss her lightly, the angle slightly awkward with how much shorter she was. He breathed lightly across her ear as he whispered, "Now let me ask you a question. Will you let me have you like this? Will you trust me enough to let me show you just how much I love you?"

She shuddered under him, her body answering for her as she arched her pelvis and began rubbing against his thigh. Still, she knew he would need the words. "I trust you. I love you." The idea of letting go completely, letting him take control, was immensely appealing. Mark had never been able to match her here, and her time with Justin had been incredibly brief. And she had never trusted anyone more that she did Chakotay.

Chakotay dropped her hands then, pulling her into his arms and kissing her deeply. "I've waited so long for this."

Kathryn slid her hands over his chest, making quick work of the buttons of his shirt even as her mouth traced over the skin she was exposing. "I've wanted this for so long. I'm sorry I was so afraid."

"Shhh. We're here now, that's all that matters." He said breathlessly as her mouth latched unto one of his nipples, and his hands shook slightly as he unzipped the back of her dress, tracing blunt nails along her spine and making her shiver against him.

"We have forever to go slow, right now I just want you inside me." Her voice was husky as she reached for his pants even as she felt him unclasping her bra.

He groaned at her remark, and eager hands flew until they were both naked. Chakotay's eyes skimmed over her, taking an instant to marvel, and he managed to whisper that she was beautiful before he pinned her to the wall again.

He used one hand to pin her arms above her head again, the other trailing burning paths up and down her body. She gasped at the contrast of the cool wall behind her and the heat pumping off of him. He rubbed his thigh against her center again as his hand found her breast, and her gasp turned to a moan. "Please, I want you inside me."

He chuckled. There was fast, and then there was fast. But he wasn't going to cheat either of them out of the pleasure, at least not as long as he could hang on to the last threads of his own control. Besides, he knew he wouldn't last long once he was inside her. It had been too long, and he wanted her far more than he had ever wanted any woman.

He shifted his body to kiss her more easily, one hand still pinning her wrists above her head as the other shifted to cup her. He swallowed her moan with another chuckle.

Kathryn broke the kiss with a gasp as his fingers slid inside of her. "Not… quite what I meant."

Chakotay released her wrists as he sank to his knees, nudging her legs further apart to blow warm breath across her most sensitive area. "I want to taste you. Besides, you're too short for this position unless I pick you up."

"I'm not too short, you're too tall." She countered before his mouth joined his fingers and she lost all capacity for thought.

Her body was still tingling and her thoughts floating in a cloud of light when he lifted her still shuddering body into his arms and turned to lay her gently on the bed. His touch was almost reverent; watching her let go completely and come undone under his gentle touches had been the most beautiful thing he had ever seen.

"That was…" Kathryn tried to gathered her thoughts enough to speak. "That…"

"Shhh." He whispered as he covered her body with his own, supporting his weight on his arms as he kissed her gently. "We're not done yet."

She smiled as their eyes locked, and she reached down to play her fingers over him lightly before she guided him into her body. He slipped into her in silence except for their deep sighs, and his only thought before he lost the last threads of his control was that he felt like he was home.

"A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me.

Together forever and never apart, Maybe in distance, but never in heart."


The End