Los Angeles California
'Coz you'll Heal Over...
"I Do." She said giving the best smile, she could this was her wedding day she was supposed to be happy. Then again, she was supposed to be marrying someone else, but the funny thing about life is you don't always get what you dream. Aiden's lips on hers made Ashley come out of her trance. Turning towards her friends and family she and Aiden made their way down the aisle, and outside to the awaiting limo outside of the church. Hopping into the backseat, she breathed a silent sigh.
"We finally got our happy ending Ash." He said smiling as he took her hand.
"Yeah." She said half-heartedly. "Our Happy Ending." she thought to herself.
"She would have loved it." He said noticing the look on his new brides face as they made their way out of the church parking lot to the reception.
"She who?" She said giving him a puzzled look, but in her heart, she knew whom he was talking.
"Spencer." He said looking out of the window. "I know you still love her but I want to try to make this work…give us both a new start, you know?"
"Oh." She said kinda surprised he had mentioned her ex-girlfriend/best friend. "Yeah she would have." She said lying through her teeth. She knew she would have hated to see herself and Aiden get married. Trying her best not to let her true emotion show she decided to change the subject. "Let's not talk about that it's our Wedding Day." She said climbing on top of him and leaning down to kiss him. The kiss didn't last long before the limo came to a stop. Soon after that, the driver came around to open the door to let them out of the car.
"You gotta be kidding me." He said in annoyance, and all the while trying to keep her on top of him. "Give us five minutes."
Chuckling at him, she got off his lap and said. "Come on stud…time to party." She said smiling and taking his hand, and leading him into the building. Stopping she was caught off guard when she heard the DJ announce them as "Mr. And Mrs. Aiden Dennison." Pausing she slowly looked from her left to her right taking in the site before her she saw her friends and family smiling and applauding their entrance. Tears welling in her eyes she ran off without warning leaving her new husband puzzled. He believed everything was perfect but in Ashley's mind, things were all wrong.
"Is she ok Bro?"
"I... I don't know."
"I'll go check on her." The woman said seeing what happened.
"Maybe this was all a little too much." Kayla said walking over after seeing what happened.
"You think she didn't want to get married?" Glen said.
"No I do…" She said pausing making sure that Aiden wasn't within ear shot. "I just don't think she wanted to marry…"
"Aiden." Glen said finishing her sentence.
"Yeah…. Kinda sad when you think about it. Trying to love again after loosing your soul mate in such a tragic way and, the one person you could never be in love with you marry." She says as her phone rings, looking down at the number, she said to Glen. "Sorry I have to take this." She said flipping it open as she walked outside so that she could get better reception. "Hello." She said. "Yes this is Mrs. Davies Manger…" She said as she remembers that her sister got married today. Nevertheless, she was sure that she would still use it for her stage name. "Uh-huh." She said as she sat down. "I'm sure she'd be happy to hear that. I'll make sure she gets it done as soon as she gets back from her honeymoon." She said to the person on the other end of the phone. She had become her manager after her accident a couple of years ago. Ashley had asked her to do because she didn't trust her mother with her money while she was in the hospital. "Yes she did but she'll continue you to use Davies as her stage name." Even though she was, the Manger Ashley also had an Agent who was known for getting what she wanted. "We'll do we look forward to seeing you too."
6 Years Ago
"How are you?" She said nervously as she watched her girlfriend sit on the couch. Taking a seat next to her, she wasn't sure what to say next.
"I'm ok." She said with a heavy sigh.
"Hmm?" She said absentmindedly as she turned to look at her.
"I suck at this you just came back from your brother's funeral and…"
Giving her weak smile, she cupped her cheek and said. "You're doing fine."
"Really." She said tilting her head. "I know you and death don't mix; it's like water and oil. So you just being here is all I could ask for."
Exhaling the breath, she was holding she took the hand that was cupping her cheek into hers. "Ok."
"You want me to leave? So you can spend time with your family."
"No." She said shaking her head. Taking a deep breath she continued. "No… you're my family too. I… I want you to stay."
"Are you sure that's gonna be ok?" She said worried about how her girlfriends' mom would react to her staying the night.
"I don't…" She said shaking her head. "I don't care if it is. This is not about her. It's about what I need and, I need to be with you tonight. She has dad…Glen has Madison…" She pauses wiping the angry tears away. "And… And I don't care it that sounds heartless… I just… just…" Was the last that her body would let her say before she broke down into her girlfriends' arms.
After several minutes of crying Spencer eventually, fell asleep. As she held her Ashley's, heart just broke because, not only had she just lost her brother but, also she and her mother continued to fight. Gently she lifted her off her lap and laid her on the couch reaching up she pulled the afghan off the back of the couch and placed it on her. Pushing some hair off of her face she took one last look at her before she went in search of Spencer's mother. Not having to search long Ashley found who she was looking for in the kitchen.
"Mrs. C." She said nervously.
"Ashley this really isn't the best time." She said wiping her tears. "I don't mind you being here for Spencer but…"
"I know this isn't the best time… but just hear me out…" Taking a step forward she went to stand by her. "I'm sure it won't matter but… I think that she's being to hard on you." Seeing her just look at her she continued. "But at least you care. My mom only stays around long enough only to see if I've screwed anything up." Watching her turn around she continued. "I'm not asking for a pity party… I just think you guys need to see that, your relationship could be worst. And I know that when I came along you lost something good…but it doesn't have to be lost forever."
"Ashley." She said as she was going to walk away.
"Yeah?" She said turning back towards her.
"Thank you… for being there for Spencer, she really needs you right now."
"Anytime… I'd do anything for her." She said smiling pausing she didn't know how to say what she was going to say next so she just said it. "Mrs. C… if you need anything…"
"Thank you." She said cutting her off
Running into the restroom, she ran into the furthest stall and closed it behind her. Balling up her dress, she slide down the wall to the floor and let the tears flow. "You promised you wouldn't leave me." She said putting her face into her hands as she cried for her lost love. She didn't know how long she had been in there before she heard a knock on her stall.
Arriving in the bathroom several minutes later the woman's heart broke as she heard the girl let her feelings out. "Ashley?" She finally spoke.
"Yeah?" She said quickly wiping her tears when she heard the voice.
"Are you ok?" She said leaning against the door. The two had become close after losing Spencer, it was like they were both holding on to a piece of what they had lost.
"Yeah." She said standing. "I'm fine Paula." Standing she brushed the wrinkles out off her dress. "I…I just need a few minutes."
"Ok." She said not leaving.
Composing herself, she unlocked the stall and was surprised to see her ex lovers' mother was still standing there.
"You want to talk about it?"
"No thank you." She said walking over to the sink. Bracing herself on it, she looked into the mirror and, saw that the tears hadn't stopped. "It wasn't supposed to be like this she was supposed to be here." She said as warm loving arms embraced her.
"We all miss her." She said holding her tight. "And… I think that she would want us to move on… She would be happy that you found someone else. She…"
Pulling away sharply she looked at her blankly not believing what she had heard. "That's crap and you know it." Pulling out of her arms completely now. "She wouldn't want that…why does everyone think that?" She said looking at her bitterly. "That every person that has died would want everyone they know to move on." She said running her hand harshly through her hair. "I sure and the hell wouldn't I know that sounds selfish but I don't care…I just want her back."
Not knowing what to say Paula just looked at her.
Crossing her arms over her chest, she said. "I should have stopped her."
Sighing she said. "You wouldn't have…. and Ash we both know that Spencer was going to go no matter what." Pausing for a brief second, she said. "No matter how many times we told her that we loved her, and that we wanted her to stay we knew we couldn't ask her to do that…It was her dream."
4 Years Ago
"Ash?" Spencer called out for her girlfriend as she unlocked the door to her apartment that she shared with Kayla. She had given her a key so she wouldn't have to wait for her to get up in the morning since her girlfriend never seemed to be up before Noon.
"She's in her studio." Seeing her look she continued. "I know… I don't know what's wrong with her. She was up before me this morning." Kayla said from the couch. "Are one of those for me?" She said seeing the coffee cups in her hand.
"Oh." She said pausing. "I'll just wait out here then." She said taking a seat next to her. "Unless you know a third person that lives here I would say yes." She said handing her one of the hot cups.
"Mmmm. Liquid gold." She said as the hot mocha flowed into her mouth. Finally taking her mind off the coffee goodness her friend had brought her, Kayla turned her attention back to Spencer. "You look unusually chipper today." She said reaching over with her free hand, and closing her laptop, and placing it on the other side of her.
"Really, I do?" She said smiling.
"Yeah." She said turning to face her. "Did my sister get you pregnant?"
"No!" She said playfully hitting her. Shaking her head as she rolled her eyes. "But I do have some good news." Unable to contain the smile that was creeping on her face.
"Well in that case spill." She said getting excited.
"I kinda wanted Ash to be the first to know."
"The first to know what?" Ashley said walking into the room.
"You got her pregnant." She said chuckling as she took another sip of her hot coffee. "I'm only kidding." She smiles. "She did bring nourishments." Holding up her coffee, and showing it to her.
"Cute." She said giving Spencer a lingering kiss on the lips. "Nice." Ashley said referring to the flavor of lip gloss her girlfriend had on.
"I thought you might like that." She said smiling at her; turning her head towards Kayla Spencer said. "Kayla can you give us a minute?"
"Yeah sure." She said getting up. "But you're naming your first-born after me." She said nearly being hit by the pillow Ashley had sent her way.
"Not that I mind…" She said taking her hand. "But what brings you here so early?" Finally turning her attention to her girlfriend Ashley said. "What's up?" She said playing with her fingers.
"You remember how I told you my dream was to be photographic for the New York Times."
"Yeah." She said shifting in her seat. "What's going on Spence?"
"Well they want me to come to work for them it's only part-time but…"
"How did they find out about you?"
"Craziest thing, someone saw that photo I took in the paper…and they loved it." Smiling " Isn't that great?"
"Yeah." She said in shock.
"Ash." She said taking her girlfriend in. "Ash talk to me. Tell me what's wrong?"
"Nothing." Smiling she tried her best not to show her disappointment. "That's great news Spence."
"You know this doesn't change anything between us. I still want to be with you." She said taking her hand back in hers.
"When do you leave?"
"Wow." She said in disbelief. "Our 2 years is in 4 weeks."
Dropping her head, she said. "I know." Sighing she said. "I figured it would give me something to do, you know while you're on the road."
"Ash come on don't shut down on me." She said to her.
"I'm not I just need some time." Getting up from the couch.
"Ashley." She said as she turned in the direction that she was walking.
"Just leave me alone Spence." Walking into her room slamming her door in the process.
Tearing up she didn't hear Kayla walk back into the room.
" Didn't go well I take it." Kayla said walking back in to the room.
"How could you tell?" She said wiping the tear away.
"I accidentally eavesdropped."
"Oh." Not really caring. "I'm gonna go." Pushing some of her hair behind her ear as she got up. "I'll see you later." Throwing her bag over her shoulder and leaving.
Watching the front door close her head turned as Ashley's bedroom door opened. "You really suck at this whole love thing you know."
"Thanks Einstein…next time I want your opinion I'll ask for it."
"I'm just saying your girlfriend looked pretty crushed when she left."
Leaning up against the wall she closed her eyes trying to keep the tears from falling. "Kayla…"
"No save it." She said cutting her off. "She maybe your girlfriend but she's my friend too and, she's really crushed that you're not supporting her."
"It's not that I'm not supporting her…" She pauses not knowing how to say what she wanted to say. Looking up she tried to keep the tears in. "I just can't take loosing her… So many people… I know I must sound like a broken record. But I don't think I could live if I lost her." She said finally looking at her sister. Whom by this time had her own tears falling in sympathy.
"I know, but you can't let her go thinking that you aren't going to fight for her." Pausing she sighed. "You guys are good for each other Ash…more importantly she's good for you; she keeps you somewhat sane."
Sighing Ashley knew her sister was right. "If you tell anyone that I took your advice I'll deny it."
"I won't expect anything less." She said smiling. "Now go fix things."
"Do you want me to give you a few minutes?" Paula asked.
"Ok." She said to her. "I'll tell them you'll be out in a minute." She said walking over and kissing her on the forehead.
Watching her leave, she made sure that the coast was clear before she turned around and snuck out the window. There was only one place Ashley wanted to be right now.
Pine Valley Pennsylvania
Frankie Stone sat alone in her apartment she shared with her roommate Sam. Hearing the jingle of keys she knew that her roommate was finally home. Flipping through the channels one last time she finally powered it off. She couldn't believe the things they had on some of these Infomercial. "Morning." She said as she heard the door finally open. "Looks like someone had a late night." She said seeing that it was almost two o'clock in the morning.
"I was working."
"Don't give me that look. My new client is running me ragged." She replied placing her purse and keys on the table. Grabbing a black cable that was on the table, she plugged her cell phone into it to be charged. Sighing she walked over to where her roommate was sitting; plopping down she rested her head on Frankie's shoulder. "So how did things go with the girlfriend? I did see her today…well yesterday. She didn't talk about you when I did though."
"I was hoping you forgot." Taking a deep breath she said. "I did it. Bianca and I are over." She said trying not to sound to cold-hearted.
"Oh Frankie I'm so sorry."
"No you're not." She said glancing at her roommate.
"Ok I'm not, but I can't help it. I didn't like her and she didn't like me."
"Don't remind me." She said resting her head back on the back of the couch. "I guess you can say it was a good thing."
"I was falling out of love with her. I…I didn't want to but it just happened." She was going to speak again but her phone rang. Leaning over she saw it was her sister. "Damn it." She said before she flipped it open.
"Give me all you've got Mags." Was all she was able to get out before her sister began to do just that. "No Mags." Rolling her eyes, she listened once more. "There is no one else…" She paused briefly then she said. "I swear no one. I was faithful…I just fell out of love. Listen Mags." She said cutting her older sister off. "It's late I'll talk to you later. I love you. Bye." Hanging up before she could respond. "Geez." She said placing her phone on the table with a thud.
"Maggie seemed really upset."
"Yeah, she and Bianca are best friends."
"Uh huh." She said getting up. "I could use a late night snack how about you?"
"Stop right there Samantha Clark." Turning she said.
"What's up?" She said turning around.
"What do you know?" She said sitting up.
"Uh-huh… Try the truth this time."
"Well it's nothing you don't already know…" She said pausing.
"Which would be?" Raising an eyebrow at her.
"Maggie's in love with her."
"Wait… What? Since when?"
"Since you've guys have been together…that's what she told me at least."
"Damn. That's messed up."
"Tell me about it."
"How long have you known?"
"Just a couple of days now she let it slipped at the party the other day."
"So she was drunk?"
"Basically… I can't believe you didn't see it."
"I knew she liked her I just didn't know she had fallen in love with her."
"Maybe that's why she seemed so upset with you… Cause you hurt her."
"Yeah… Maybe." She said as she sat back on the couch. "Good for her… if they can make each other happy maybe she'll stop mopping around here so much."
"That's gonna be wired."
"Them going out, and living together."
"Not my problem." She said shrugging. "She'll find out the hard way…But I think she'll be fine she's a Stone. And despite her rambling she does just fine with the ladies."
Hanging up the phone Maggie slide it back into her pocket; on one hand she couldn't help but to be upset for her best friend, but on the other hand a part of her smiling on the inside. Now she wouldn't have to feel guilty about being in love with her sisters' girlfriend. Sighing she runs her hands through her hair. "Well everything she told you was the truth." As she turned to her
friend, she said. "I wish I had better news for you."
Nodding she placed her hand on her friend's knee. "I know she wasn't lying. The whole time that we were together she never did." Placing her hand on her forehead, she continued. "I have to be honest with myself too… I knew we weren't going to be anything more than what we were." She looks at her friend. "I'm getting to old for that Maggie I want…. No, I need something more. You know what I mean." Waiting for her friend's response.
Smiling she just looked at her.
"What?" She said looking at her puzzled.
"You're amazing you know that." Seeing her look, she continued. "I just can't believe that you're ok with everything."
Shrugging she said. "Don't get me wrong I am heart-broken, I just felt like she was giving me that vibe that it was time to end things." Pausing. "And I don't think that her roommate liked me much."
"What's not to like." She said smiling. "You're smart, beautiful. And I'd date you in a heartbeat… I mean if we weren't roommates." She said trying to cover her slip. "I mean because that would be just awkward to date your roommate you know?" She said hoping that her roommate would save her from sounding like a complete idiot.
"Totally." She said smiling. " I've got an idea let's watch some late night TV. I call the right side." She said getting up and heading towards the bedroom. "You get the snacks." She called out once more.
Getting up she realized something. "Hey that's my side." The petite blonde yelled as she chased after her.
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Kate Tunstill "Heal Over"