When Two Different Worlds Collide
When I arrived at school the next day, I will still very confused. Yesterday when I confessed to Louis that I had a crush on him, he kissed me. It was the most wonderful thing that I have ever experienced in my entire life. So he does like me….we can be together now…..I'm so happy…..
Those were the only thoughts that were clouding my brain all night. I had an incredible feeling that they were true, but I wanted to hear it from him.
Once I reached biology, I decided that I was going to talk to Louis about it and I needed some answers. I didn't like being left with nothing. Niall noticed something was different about me like he always did. I had a new 'spring in my step' if you will. "Ok…..what's up with you now?" he asked. "Oh nothing, just the fact that a hot senior kissed me last night." Niall was shocked. I spent the rest of biology telling him the events that took place last night, even the embarrassing parts, if you catch my drift.
"I told you not to get too involved with this guy. He's trouble and you're gonna get hurt." He really was starting to sound like my mum. "Quit bugging me about it ok? I don't need your life-changing advice!" I sounded meaner then I meant to. He had a crushed look on his face. If you know Niall, you know that it is very hard to stay mad at him because he is so fucking cute, and with hat I grabbed him and pulled him into a hug. "I'm sorry Niall." He just smiled and hugged me back.
All I could think about was that I couldn't wait for Spanish class….
Last night between Harry and I was a mistake….a huge mistake actually. When i got home I started thinking. If anyone finds out about that then I'm screwed. My rep would be ruined. I wouldn't be the leader anymore. I wouldn't be the most popular boy in the school. I wouldn't be….anything…
So I decided that I would just stop it, with Harry. When that thought occurred in my mind I found myself crying. Why are you crying? Are you saying that you actually care about this kid? Are you saying that Louis, the most beloved boy in the school, is falling for a faggot little freshman? Are you saying…
"STOOOOOOPPP!" I screamed. Seconds later my dad came running into my room and asked me what was wrong. I just told him I was playing angry birds on my phone and the birds weren't doing what I wanted them to do. "Well be a little more quiet next time." He said with a stern 'dad' voice. I nodded and pretended to go back on my phone. The next day all throughout every class I kept thinking about what to do about this situation.
I decided not to go to Spanish class to see if Harry would get the hint so I wouldn't have to let him down too harshly. He didn't. When he entered Theatre and noticed that I was there, his face lit up. He looks so cute…STOP. I yelled at myself. I suppose he thought that I just skipped class like I normally do because I hate it like I told him. When he sat down he started to talk to me, "Hey Louis."
I ignored him, but I guess he thought that I didn't hear him because he repeated himself. "Hey Louis." I didn't know what to say to him. I didn't wanna talk to him because I didn't want to see the look on his face when I told him that I didn't like him and that the kiss meant nothing, even though that is definitely not true. I was pondering in my head what should be my plan of action and it hit me. There was a girl named Ally, I think, sitting in front of me. I tapped her on the shoulder. She turned around and I just grabbed her face and started making out with her. She didn't resist. I kept kissing the girl until I heard noise to my left and I heard harry run out of the classroom. "Hey Ally." Said that freshman Zayn "I think Homo Harry is a little jealous of you." That got everyone laughing, even Mrs. Bonty. But I didn't laugh. How could I? how could I laugh when I just did something horrible to the person I love? Wait….love? Is this love? It couldn't be…..I only met him 2 months ago. But I did bet butterflies in my stomach whenever I saw him, and I did jerk off to him, and I did think about him 24/7….maybe this is love. Oh my god…I'm in love with Harry Styles.
I can't breathe. How could Louis do that to me? I thought he liked me? He is the one who kissed me! I couldn't take it, I ran out of the classroom, out of the school, and down the street. I didn't know where I was going, but my body took me home. I got the key we leave in the pot and went inside. Mum wasn't home yet. I went into my room and started crying. I didn't know what to do. Should I confront him? No that would only make things worse. He hurt me though, he should know it. Niall was right….Niall. I decided I wanted text Niall, so I did.
Niall- what's up I'm in cooking
Harry- I'm home
Harry- I was in theatre and Louis kissed a girl right in front of me so I ran home
Niall- do you want me to say I told you so
Harry- no thanks
Niall- do you want me to come over when school is over and cuddle with you? lol
Harry- no thanks (lol) but I think I wanna wallow in my own self-pity before I talk to any human beings
Niall- ok cya tomorrow
This sucks….a lot. I wanted Niall to come over, but I wanted to try to figure everything out by myself first. The more I thought about it the angrier I became "I LOVE HIM, WHY CANT HE JUST LOVE ME BACK?!" I was yelling, "HE'S THE ONE THAT KISSED ME, HE CAME ONTO ME!" I was crying now.
I was about to call Niall and tell him I did want him to come over after all, but I heard knocking on my door. It's probably mum, coming to tell you that she's home. I thought. However, when I opened the door, it was not my mum staring back at me.
"Can I come in?"