I'm not angry with you, upset, or afraid. But I feel sorry for you. It's sad to know that you will never get a chance at being in Heaven with God again. I just want to know why, why did you do it? Why did you turn your back on God? God created you as a beautiful angel, perhaps even more beautiful than some of the other angels in Heaven. He gave you everything you could possibly want. You had everything...and you threw it away. For what? Power.
Did you truly want to be better than God? Did you ever think that you could really be better than God? No one can. There's no one who would do everything that God has done. There's no one who could create the world so beautifully, and be so loving, and kind. He created you from nothing. Without him, you wouldn't even exist. Yet, you rebel against him? Why?