I'm Gone

Adam looked down at his shaking hands debating in his head if he is doing the right thing. He shook his thoughts away; he was doing the right thing. Isabella deserved a lot better than him. He texted her about five minutes ago to meet up and talk. He felt his hands getting sweaty and he rubbed then on his pants to get rid of it.

"Hey," he looked up and there she was, his girlfriend, looking beautiful. Isabella was wearing her favorite purple skinny jeans and a white boyfriend style t-shirt with a heart necklace that he gave her for their two year anniversary.

"Hey beautiful," he stood up and hugged her. Adam grabbed her hand and led her to the bench he was sitting at.

"So what's so important that you couldn't wait till our date tonight?" Isabella asked him as she put some loose hair strands behind her ear.

"Izzy, you know that I love you, so much. I would never want to hurt you, ever. But there is something that I really need to get off my chest," he looked down, not ready to break her heart.

"Okay, you're scaring me. Just tell me what's going on." She said as she shifted in her seat.

"I honestly don't know how to say it and I had everything I planned on saying in my head but now I drew a blank. It sounded easier in my head and now that you're here, it's a lot harder now.

"Just tell me Adam." She demanded.

"I think we should break up." He said and waited for her reaction. Her initial reaction, shocked. She looked confused as to not want to believe what just came out of his mouth.

"Why? I don't understand," Isabella asked which he feared she would ask. He didn't want to tell her the truth why they had to end their four year relationship. The truth will just hurt her more.

"It's not you, its-"he was interrupted by an angry Isabella.

"Don't give me the 'It's not you, it's me' bullshit Adam." She said with anger.

"Izzy, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. We can't be together anymore." once he said that, she got up ready to leave.

"Don't call me, text me, don't even think about me Adam. Don't you ever fucking contact me again!" she yelled at him and started to walk away but Adam grabbed her arm to stop her. She snatched her arm away from him, "Don't fucking touch me. Like you said, we are done."

"I don't want to lose you as a friend Izzy." He started to say.

"Don't ever call me Izzy again. You are dead to me." she looked directly in his eyes and left but this time, Adam didn't stop her. He kept looking at her as she walked farer away from him hoping she would turn around but she never did. He put his hands in his pockets, walked over to his car and went home. He walked inside to see Kevin watching TV and he slowly tries to go to his room without him noticing.

"Hey Adam, how did it go with Izzy?" Kevin asked as he turned to Adam and he looked down.

"I broke up with her." Adam said to him as he felt tears starting to form. Kevin looked at him shock.

"Why? I thought you were just going to tell her about taking her with us to Hawaii?" Kevin said as he got up and walked towards him. Isabella has been in their lives since she met Adam in kindergarten and the fact that they broke up, breaks his heart. Izzy was like a little sister to Kevin.

"It just wasn't working anymore, that's it." Adam said but wasn't making eye contact to Kevin.

"Bullshit Adam. Why did you break up with her! She is the best thing that ever happened to you! How can you be such an idiot to lose a girl like that! How could you hurt her like that Adam! You wasted four years of her life!" he yelled at Adam.

"Don't you think I don't know that? I love her Kevin and I fucked up! She deserves a lot better guy then me!" he screamed at Kevin with tears flowing out of his eyes.

"What did you do Adam?" Kevin asked in an angry tone. He didn't say anything. He just shook his head and made his way upstairs.

"What did you do Adam!" Kevin yelled again but he ignored him and went into his room. He lied down on his bed looking up at the ceiling, yelling at himself for making the biggest mistake on his life.