It's over, gone, and so was almost everyone I loved. I loved everyone on the Argo II and the Camps; they were my family, and now they're gone. Jason, my brother, is gone...Piper, my sister, is gone...Nico, my brother, is gone...Reyna, my sister, is gone...Dakota, Gwen, the Stolls...everyone!
...And then Frank, my best friend, is gone...
The only survivors are me, Hedge, a satyr named Grover, Tyson and Ella, Percy and Annabeth, and Leo.
I feel like my life is pretty much over; I lost so many people I love.
I sit on my bed as I let the tears fall into my hands. I haven't been able to talk for days. Many people have tried to talk to me, but it only brought more tears.
The war is over...so am I.
I will never recover, not this time. I know what it's like to die, and I would prefer that to how I'm feeling right now.
But I know that if I...You know...it would just hurt everyone, and I can't do that to them.
Especially Annabeth, who is just as depressed as I am. Being in Tartarus really hurt her, and she is beginning to become delusional. She screams all the time, and starts crying at random. She can't talk anymore either. She might be going mad, which hurts Percy. I can see he loves her so much...I wish someone cared about me like that.
I put my head under my pillow and I cry, trying to get rid of this feeling, trying not to be depressed. But I know that I'm going to stay like this, you can't just forget about the people you love - I learned that one the hard way when I died. That just brings me back to New Orleans. Sammy, mother, my friends. The lady from the diner, Lucy, she was always nice to me. I have lost almost everything, I feel so angry that we still haven't beaten Gaea. Yep, you heard me right. Yes, we did destroy her giants, but no we haven't destroyed her which just causes me more pain. She has taken everything from me, and I can do nothing.
I have to carry so much with me. I have died, I have a curse, and I lost everyone!
Someone knocks on the door. I try to say 'come in' but I can't talk.
Instead I open the door.
Leo walks in.
"Can you talk today?" he asks.
I shake my head and cry.
Leo gave me a small hug. "You will talk someday."
I shake my head again.
"Can I come in?"
I nod. Leo walks in and sits on my edge of my bed.
"I wish you weren't mute, you were so much fun to talk to" Leo says playfully.
I know he's trying to help, but that wasn't helpful at all. It just hurt, because I really want to talk to him, but I can't.
"Annabeth has started talking again, she said something about books. Percy was the first one there. I was happy too, but you should have seen Percy's face. He cried he was so happy. After that it was all kissing and stuff, but I thought that'd make you happy" Leo says.
It does make me happy. In fact, it was the happiest I have felt in a really long time. The tears even stopped flooding my eyes, and I just slightly smiled.
"Good, Annabeth was happy we were all happy. She smiled a lot. She even said the word 'books' for all of us. I gave her a hug and another one for you" Leo says.
I open my arms. Leo hugs me.
"Oh Hazel, I wish that you could be happy again" Leo says, holding me tighter.
I hug him tight as well. I wish I could tell him I will, but I can't talk, and I know I'll never be happy again.
Leo sits down on the bed.
"Okay, I've been working on this for a few days...It's kind of like a speech, but not quite. I just want you too know that we all still care." Leo says, digging in his tool belt.
He started reading from it;
How long has it been since we first met? I know it's only been a month or two, but it feels like I've known you forever. The first time I saw you, it brought a smile to my face 'cause I knew we were going to be friends. After all of this, you are my best friend, and I know you always have been. I know everyone died, but we still have each other. During the war, with that one giant...Hazel, I thought I had lost you. I couldn't let that happen, I needed you to stay safe. I would have gone completely insane if you were killed, almost everyone else I love had already died. If you died, I would never forgive myself, I would die on the inside, I would blame myself. The more I get to know you, the more I care about you. I could never have imagined a better friend. You are so headstrong, tough...beautiful. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say, because this is probably the longest thing I've ever said in my life, but I really care about you. You're my diamond, and you aren't any kind of curse. I'd be happy to be under your spell, but I think I already am.
He stands up and grins at me. The tears race from my face and I fall to my knees. He cares about me...I thought no one was left who did.
Leo sits down beside me, worried, and puts his hand on my shoulder.
"Oh gosh, was that wrong? I shouldn't have done that, should I?" Leo says.
I don't know what too do. I can't speak!
"Hazel, I'm sorry" Leo says.
I look at him; I can see the tears escaping his eyes.
I put my hand on his cheek and wipe away the tears.
"Are you mad at me?" Leo asks.
I shake my head, leaning on his shoulder.
"It wasn't your fault you know; you couldn't have stopped any of them from dying. But at least they died as heroes, most people suffer a worse death. They were happy, all of 'em" Leo says.
He knows me too well. I do feel like it's my fault. I feel like I could have saved them.
I shake my head.
"You are going to make it through this, you are the strongest person I know" Leo says.
I open my mouth and finally, after weeks of trying, words come out.
"I love you."
"I love you too" Leo says. I feel his tears land on my shoulder. "We can make it through this you know, we can still win."
He's right, the giant war is over, but I'm not.
We're not over. It's not over.
AN. So, sorry Leo was a bit OOC, but in my next chapter when it's from his POV, you'll see why. Please review!