AWoC ch34

A/N: Welcome to all the new readers, I'd love to hear from some of you…and to all the regulars THANK YOU for all the love and support you've shown me and our wayward duo…

I know that you are all worried about the state of Esme and we'll get there, I promise. Just hang tight.

Much love to my team: A Jasper For Me, Eternally Edward's girl, Cutestkidsmom and Rvrsong …I love you all!



I held onto Edward as he tried to calm himself down. It felt good to feel my arms around him. But when I felt his hands grasp and squeeze mine, it sent a shock through me.

"What did your dad say?" his voice was rough and tight from crying.

"He actually texted me and told me to find somewhere safe for tonight because it wasn't safe for me to come home." I replied softly.

Edward stood all the way up and held my arms as he turned to face me. It was dark but I could make out his face in the moonlight.

"It's late, CP, let's get to a hotel then we can talk. A lot of shit has happened tonight and right now, I can't talk." He brought his hands up to cup my face again. I loved the feel of his hands on my skin, it electrified my insides. "But I promise we'll talk when we get there."

I saw in his eyes a range of emotions; hurt, fear, honesty and something I wasn't sure what it was. I couldn't speak for fear of saying something stupid, so I just nodded.

I watched Edward put his duffel bag into the backseat before he got into the car just as I shut my door.

"It's a long drive, do you need anything before we go?" he asked me as we headed out onto the 101.

"A cup of coffee might be good, but we can stop somewhere outside of town, just to avoid the chance of running into anyone," I was still scared Riley would find us before we could get out of town.

"I'll stop at the diner and run in, we'll be okay."

I was still in shock about this whole night, but right now, the only thing running through my head was that my dad told me to stay away from home. He knew I was with Edward. And now Edward and I were heading to a hotel, four hours from home, alone.

I was terrified, happy and anxious all at the same time.

But I knew something bad had happened to Edward when he went into his house.

I know him, or at least as much as he's allowed me to. I think I know him and he doesn't just cry.

Something happened.

I'm trying to be understanding, but we have a long drive ahead of us and we're both tired. If we don't talk or something, we'll both fall asleep.

Edward pulls into the dark side of the parking lot at the diner and parks the car.

"I'll only be in there a minute. You okay?" he asked, and I just nodded, unable to move.

Fear ran through me and I started to shake as he closed his door behind him.

I was alone with a mentally unstable boy, one that I really liked, out in the middle of the night.

My dad told me not to come home.

Edward was crying.

I suddenly felt very small, very much like a young girl and very much frightened.

All of my life I had someone else to take care of, someone else to tend to. It was very, very rare that anyone ever took care of me, even when I was sick. Renee would check in on me from time to time, but she never comforted me or tended to me.

I couldn't stop the tears as they fell from my eyes.

I wondered if there would ever come a time where someone took care of me, held me, kept me safe.

There had been brief moments when Cullen had done that for me, small sparks of time that made me feel protected or secure. But I wasn't kidding myself that he was stable or capable of even taking care of himself let alone a screwed up little girl.

I watched him jog back to the car with two tall cups of coffee before he got in and handed me a cup.

"There's creamer and shit in my pocket, I didn't know how you took your coffee," his eyes glanced at mine then back to the windshield as he drove out of the parking lot.

"Black is fine," I managed to say, hopefully not letting him hear my tears.

"Me too," he simply replied.

It was dark except for the lights off his dash, but he kept them turned down low too, so there was barely a soft blue hue shining around us as the darkness took over.

It was a reflection of how I suddenly felt.




I brought the cup to my lips and tried to keep from burning myself as I tasted the dark, stale coffee on my tongue.

I fought to wrap my arms around myself.

I couldn't let him see me fall apart.

"Caterpillar, are you cold?" His voice shook me and I jumped a little in my seat.

"What?" I questioned, not wanting to draw his attention to me. He needed to concentrate on getting us safely to our destination.

"Are you cold? I can feel you shivering from here," his face glancing back and forth between me and the road.

I was cold.

"No, I'm fine. I guess it's just the shock from tonight," I lied.

He huffed and shook his head at me.

"You stick with that lie, CP," he kind of chuckle-grunted.

I turned to look out the window, unable to focus my eyes on anything but the darkness.

A few more minutes of silence went by before he spoke again.

"I promise I'll keep you safe," his voice was low and serious.

My brain registered what he'd said and my heart flipped but my head forced me to speak in a clipped tone, "I hope so, Edward. I truly hope so."

I leaned my head back against the seat and drank a few more sips of coffee before I sat it in the cup holder on the console.

"You can sleep, Caterpillar, I'll be alright," his voice was so calm and soothing as I closed my eyes.

The darkness surrounded me and felt my body relax, minutely.

~~~ A Whisper of Chaos ~~~

"Wake up, beautiful, we're here," I heard Edward say as I felt him undo my seatbelt.

I felt as though I'd been drug behind a truck on a rocky road. My body was stiff and sore, my head was throbbing and my eyelids felt like concrete.

Edward lifted me from the car seat and wrapped his arms around me as he cradled my body in his arms.

"I've got you," he whispered as I snuggled my face into the crook of his neck.

I felt warm and safe.

I felt his care in the way he held me.

He felt comforting.

I fell back into my dream.

It was a dream where we were far away from here, somewhere where we were happy together and almost peaceful.

It was a good dream.

A/n: So, they made it out of town safely…and Bella's a bit….broken.

I know this was a shorter chapter but it ended where it needed too, for now;)

And, I hope now you feel the need to hug her too, it's not just Edward that needs our hugs.

See ya'll next week…my RL is taking ALL of my extra time, so unfortunately I've only written 1 new chapter in the past 2 weeks;(