"Bella? Bella, are you alright?" I heard an angelic voice ask but I couldn't reply. I just kept whispering,
"He's gone." I had been walking aimlessly around the forest for hours until I collapsed. Then suddenly I heard several perfect voices and felt someone pick me up and began carrying me somewhere. The same voice spoke again,
"I know, Bella. I know, sweetie." So familiar. I recognized it as a female voice and...oh, it's Esme. Esme! Edward said all the Cullen's were gone. My eyes suddenly snapped opened and I saw that Alice was carrying me. Alice! Running along side of her were the rest of the Cullens...except Edward.
"Alice," I mumbled before breaking into a fresh batch of sobs. Edward. Edward was gone.
"Bella, it's gonna be okay," Alice said soothingly. I shook my head because it wasn't going to ever be okay. With Edward gone, I would never be okay.
I closed my eyes because my head was spinning from the speed Alice was running. I need Edward. I need him to love me. More sobs.
Suddenly, the running stopped. I opened my eyes and saw we were in the Cullen home. Alice laid me down on the couch were I curled up into a ball and cried more.
After a moment I felt a rush of calm sweep over me. I sat up and looked at Jasper who was leaning casually against a corner in the room.
"Thank," I said hoarsely. He winked. I looked around the room and saw nothing but concerned faces. Even Rosalie looked a little worried which meant I must look awful if Rosalie wasn't glaring at me. Alice came to sit by me and I asked,
"Why are you here? Edw...he said you left." I couldn't even bring myself to say the name.
Alice scoffed. "We weren't just going to leave you behind Bella." Emmett chimed in,
"Yeah. I wasn't gonna leave without my little pipsqueak of a sister." I mumbled,
"I'm not family anymore." My heart felt like it broke into a million pieces when I said that. Even the calm that Jasper still had surrounding me couldn't stop that. I was shocked that the one who spoke up first was Rosalie,
"Bella, as much as I would like to deny it—you are family. We won't leave Forks without you." Carlisle said softly,
"Unless of course, you want us too. We would understand." My eyes widened at the horrific thought of never again seeing the Cullens.
"No! Absolutely not!" Everyone smiled at that except for Rosalie who's eyes showed an emotion I had never seen on her. Regret?
Alice then began explaining the plan,
"Charlie already has a search party out looking for you so, we're going to take you back to the trail in the forest. You'll lay down and let someone come find you. Act extremely upset and do anything you can to be alone in your room. Pack a bag with some clothes and personal items in them. Write a note to Charlie and put it on your bed for him to find. Make it seem as though you and Edward have run away together. I'll be there at ten o'clock to come get you. At that point you can send a goodbye email to Renee if you want."
I was never going to see Charlie and Renee again. They were my family. As I looked around the room though, I realized that this was my family too. These really were my brothers and sisters and I thought of Esme and Carlisle as my second parents. The thought of leaving this family hurt ten times more then the thought of leaving Charlie's house. So I agreed to the plan.
Alice began running back towards Charlie's and the moment we were out of the house the calm feeling was gone and it had left me with a feeling of utter despair. Aside from the despair though was something even more powerful and this something was keeping me from dissolving into a sea of tears. Pure adrenaline. I had been told before that adrenaline is like a natural high but that's not how I would describe it. The adrenaline made my blood pump faster and my whole body fearful and excited at the same time. It was keeping me going and giving me the will to do this.
When we arrived somewhere on the trail and Alice put me on my feet, I grabbed her arm.
"You are coming back right?" I had to be sure. She smiled and confirmed,
"I will be back at ten. I promise." I nodded and then let go of her arm. When she ran away I stuck with the plan and laid down on the ground and curled into a ball once again. It wasn't long until a police officer that Charlie worked with came and fount me. He asked,
"Bella? Are you hurt? What happened?" I stood up, trying to look as weak and upset as possible.
"I-I'm fine. I just couldn't do it anymore. H-he left...he wants, oh god..." I trailed off and he wrapped an arm around me and directed me to walk with him on the trail.
"It'll be okay. Just calm down. We've been looking for you for hours. I could have sworn we checked here though..." He rambled on and I stopped listening after a moment. I just focused on looking distraught.
The walk seemed to last forever but finally I could see Charlie's house. When we got there, around fifteen people were in the yard. Charlie spotted us and ran over to me, wrapping his arms around me.
"Oh Bells! What happened? Are you alright?" Here it goes,
"Well, Dad I-I was with Edward and...he...I don't want to talk about it right now Dad." I let a few tears stream down my face for dramatic affect. He nodded
"Well alright. As long as you're okay. Guys, call off the search party!" We went inside after that and went into the living room. We both sat down on the couch and he asked,
"Are you hungry? Do you need something, Bells?" Here comes the hard part,
"No Dad, I just think I need to be alone for tonight. I'm gonna head upstairs."
"Okay, well let me know if you need anything." We both stood up. I got caught up in the moment and wrapped my arms around him, definitely shocking him.
"I love you Dad," I murmured in the most steady voice I could manage. He replied gruffly,
"'Love you too, Bella." I let go of him and studied his slightly wrinkled face for a moment. I wanted to always remember him. That's when I got an idea.
"Hey Dad, stay here for a second." I ran off and fount my camera by the door where I left it last time I used it. When I returned, I asked him to smile.
"Why do you want to take pictures now?"
I shrugged. "I just want to. Please smile." He reluctantly smiled and I took several pictures of him. I was going to take one of him and me but I remembered that I already had one and I probably looked awful at the moment.
With a final 'I love you', I headed up the stairs. At the last step I paused. The last time I'd ever see my father. More tears streamed down my face as I walked into my bedroom to prepare a false scene so I could move with the Cullens. Without my Edward.