Disclaimer: I don't own Harry Potter or the song used, Numb by Linkin Park

I thought that this song really described the relationship between Draco and Lucius. This song has always been powerful to me, I have always related to it.


I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface.

All my life I've been blindly following you, not asking what was right and what was wrong. I thought that you would never mislead me, or hurt me.
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes.

But I can't do it anymore. I am not you. Don't you know that?
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

The moment I was born, you had decided the life you wanted me to lead. I never got the choice.
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

To you, I can never do anything right. I tire myself out trying to make you proud. No one understands why.
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow

Did you ever stop to think that maybe I want to make my own decisions?

You didn't. You went too far.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me,
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?

I never wanted to be like this.
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you.

Your world has been turned upside down. Well guess what?

So has mine.

I was never able to be the perfect Death Eater. How could I? I was only sixteen.
Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is another mistake to you.

Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow
And every second I waste is more than I can take.

I've been pushed to my edge.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

I used to think that all I wanted to be was you. I was so proud to call you my father. But now I've realized that I don't want to become a coward, like you. But it's too late. The damage is done. A permanent scar mars me, a constant reminder.

I deserve it, I suppose.

And I know
I may end up failing too.

Just like you.
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you.

Your own father knocked you down, didn't he? He shaped you into the person you are today.

Pity.

You swore before I was born that you wouldn't be like your own father. But you beat me down anyways. Every hand that connected with my face, or a swift cane to my bleeding back made you feel powerful.

You lost control all everything else in your life, so you decided to conquer the one thing that you still could have power over.

Did you ever think of how that hurt me, father?

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there,
Become so tired, so much more aware.
I'm becoming this, all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you.

I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.

My heart is frozen in my chest. I'm incapable of feeling. My finger-tips constantly tingle in the reminder of the mistakes I have made.

And it's all because of you.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

It's time that I took control of my own life.
I've become so numb, I can't feel you there.
I'm tired of being what you want me to be

You didn't see what was happening right before your eyes. I broke, I did break, I am broken. You bound me with my hands tied behind my back. Funny you didn't notice the scars.

I'm tired of it. Of everything. I'm too aware of the horrors of this world.

Goodbye father.

I've become too numb.