Ever since Hakkaku and Ginta brought me back home things have seemingly gone back to normal. Naraku has gone back into hiding and everyone has stopped worrying about him for the time being. Everyone is now preoccupied with the change of the season; mating season. It's so annoying being around everyone while they're all kissy face with everyone else. Even if anyone wanted to be with me I wouldn't want to be a part of it. Maybe that's one wolf instinct that I didn't get from my mother. I'm sure it has nothing to do with not being wanted. Okay, so I was a little jealous, but nobody wants to be with a 'half breed' and I've already accepted that. Besides, my pups would probably come out strange anyway. I mean, think about it, a half demon and a demon, what would the child be? Like three parts demon and one part human? How the hell do all those traits mix around, and what would people say? 'Haha you're a two-thirds breed?' That would have to suck; I would never put anyone through that.
I was enjoying all the time to myself anyway! With Koga and the others busy preparing for everything the hot spring was all mine, and I was about to have the most amazing bath. I hurried to undress; throwing all of my fur into one messy pile on the ground. I may be a woman but I'm not good at folding and putting things away neatly. I untied my hair and ran my hands through it; messing it up and scratching my head at the same time. The water felt wonderful; like every one of my muscles were all relaxing at the same time. All my cares and worries seemed to float away with the rising steam. Well, all of them except the season change. I could fool everyone when I said I didn't care, but there's no fooling myself. Yeah, sure it bothered me a little; why wouldn't it? To see everybody happy and know that will never be me. Okay, it bothered me a lot. I could feel my eyes starting to well up a little.
I need to stop thinking about it, just relax I whispered to myself until I felt the tears recede. Then my attention was turned to a rustling in the trees. It was just a couple of girls wanting to join in on the bath. I tried to just ignore them, not that it was easy over all the giggling and shouting. When they got closer to me they just kind of stopped and glared.
"What?" I snapped at them.
"Get out half breed, it's our turn." One of them growled at me.
"There's plenty of room for all three of you." I turned my head trying to ignore them. There went my peaceful, wonderful bath.
"There's not enough room with you in there half breed." Another one of them cut in. then they shared a life of achievement, like being nasty deserved applause.
"You know what, fine, whatever." I threw my hands up in the air and climbed out. They all just laughed at me, mumbling under their breaths some kind of half breed crap. This was the last thing I needed to deal with today. I grabbed my clothes up of the ground and flashed my fangs at them as I walked off. Who wants to take a bath tainted with bitch anyway?
Once I was sure I was far enough away from them I stopped and sat down against a tree to air dry. That was just the thing I needed to make this day so much better. I gladly await the day that I don't have to deal with this crap. Why couldn't my mom just settle down with another wolf? Why was that such a difficult task? I still remember the conversation I had with my father when I was a little girl. I was so fed up with being picked on I got into a huge fight with all the other children in the village. When my father scolded me for it I just threw a bunch of hurtful questions at him. 'You can't help who you fall in love with' he told me. The one thing he never realized though; who will ever love a half breed? He never liked talking about anything that had to do with my mother, and I always made him feel so bad about the things that they did. I even made him cry once, but I don't like to think about it. Besides, he's dead now and there's no sense tainting his memory with bad thoughts.
I got up and stretched before putting my furs back on, I was dry enough. I tried to ring out my wet hair as best I could before tying it back up out of my face. The only thing that could cheer me up now would be my best friends; Ginta and Hakkaku. I just hope they weren't too busy with mates of their own, but then again those two don't seem like the type to get involved in that crap. Then again, I could always be wrong. Everyone gets lonely I suppose. Before I knew it had stumbled across them in the woods, they were just sitting around talking. What they were talking about stopped me from approaching them, even though I didn't feel right eves dropping, I couldn't help myself.
"Well, why don't you just talk to her?" Ginta put his hands behind his head and leaned back.
"What would I even say to her?" Hakkaku's face was bright red. That's so cute; Hakkaku has a crush on someone! I wonder who it is.
"Just tell her exactly what you told me, you act like it's a big deal."
"It's not like you don't talk to her all the time anyway."
"Well, yeah, but not about things like this." It was so adorable how flustered he was, as if talking to a girl was that hard. He could have always come to me for advice, I'm a girl, and I know how these things work. Wait a minute, why the hell didn't he come to me for advice?
"What are you so worried about? If she likes you, she likes you; if she doesn't, she doesn't."
"I don't know..."
"Are you afraid of what other people would think?"
"No... I already know what they would think." What would anyone else care if he chooses a mate? They are all doing the same thing. This conversation between them is starting to make no sense.
"Well, then, I don't know what else you want me to say."
"I guess I just wanted to get that off my chest..."
"The best advice I can give is to talk to her. "Hakkaku then got up and left, probably to go talk to that girl. I didn't learn anything from that! Now was my chance to poke Ginta for information. I ran around the far side of where he was sitting and jumped out at him, tackling him from behind. I growled playfully into his back as we tumbled across the grass.
"Gintaaa!" My tail swished from side to side. "Whatcha doing" I laughed playfully at him as I sat down beside him.
"Well I was relaxing before you came up and scared the crap out of me." He laughed.
"Where's Hakkaku?" I decided to start small with the questioning.
"He went to talk to someone." He was walking right into my trap!
"Out with it Ginta! I heard you two talking."
"Y-You did?" he cheeks lit up red.
"Sure did, and I'm not leaving until you tell me who Hakkaku likes!"
"Go ask him yourself." He laughed again, throwing his arms behind his head.
"Fine then, I will!" I got up off the grass and stormed off.
It wasn't as easy to find Hakkaku as I thought it would be; I checked everywhere. Even Koga didn't know where he was. I wasn't planning on letting him get away that easy though. When my curiosity got the better of me, it won't let me rest until I solve the mystery. I sat down along the river's edge and took a deep breath. Let's see, he wasn't at the waterfall, or in the cave. He wasn't at the spring, or with Ginta. Where else could he possibly be at? This was starting to get exhausting. I laid my head back on the grass to stare at the clouds, but he was right behind me! I jumped halfway out of my skin. How long was he behind me for, and how didn't I know he was there?
"Don't scare me like that, Hakkaku, damn!" He didn't say anything though and sat down beside me. He looked sick, other than his bright pink blush his face was actually kind of pale. Oh no, had he been rejected? "Is everything okay?" I pu my hand up to his forehead. He didn't really answer me though, just shook his head. I've never seen him this upset before, and it's not like I could question him about that girl now. "Well whatever it is, it's not worth getting so upset over!" I laughed slightly.
"Mizune..." He finally said something.
"Yeah, what is it?" He just opened his mouth a couple times like he wanted to say something but no words ever came out. "You know what will make you feel better?" He just shook his head in reply. "How about something to eat? That always makes me feel better!" I flashed him a big smile. "I'll go catch us something, wait here!" I got up off the ground and started to walk off. He grabbed my wrist to stop me and my face flushed slightly as I turned to him.
"Mizune, wait, I..." Then it hit me, all the pieces began to fall into place. The reason he was acting so weird, the reason Ginta wouldn't tell me, and the reason I couldn't find him. My face was now bright red; it was me. That's why he was acting so strange and why he couldn't talk to me. I shook my head and snatched my arm away from him. I had no idea what to say, and neither did he, so I ran. How in the world was I supposed to deal with this? I could hear him calling after me but still I didn't stop. I'm such an idiot; I probably made him feel so much worse.
I kept myself hidden in a tree until almost sundown. I feel like such a horrible person avoiding him like this, but I don't know what else to do. Of all the pretty wolfs in this tribe, why me? Nobody is supposed to love the half breed, that's how it works. Still no matter what I do I can't bring myself to be unhappy about it, this is probably the best feeling I've ever had. Does that mean that I share his feelings? No, couldn't be that… because if Ayame wasn't around.. What am I saying! I don't like Koga, that jerk! I buried my face in my palms and let out a heavy sigh. What am I going to do? I can't keep running from Hakkaku forever. Maybe if I just apologize and hear him out he'll forgive me. At least I had hoped that it would be that easy. Come to find out Koga left with Ayame, Ginta and Hakkaku hours ago in search for Naraku. I can't believe they went without me, not that I was around for them to ask me anyway. Besides, I thought everyone was preoccupied with mating season. I'm such an idiot! Anything else I can mess up today? I had to make things right, even though I have no idea which way they went, I have to find them; hopefully before anything bad happens…
Okay so, the next chapter is probably going to be the last one. The story isn't really coming together like I thought it would and im not as proud of it as I would like to be. :c That and not many people seem to enjoy it. So my thinking was to give the story a great ending and maybe more people will like it. So this chapter cuts off short to mark the start. On that note, this chapter was going to up yesterday but instead of writing it I was drawing all day! One of my drawings happens to be of Mizune, from the story. So if you guys are any intereasted at all to see a visual referance of her; I have the picture saved as my little avatar thing. A bit of a warning; it's not that amazing but it is very cute.